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2007-01-16T20:52:00.000+08:00

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wun b updatin here anim0re. but as mem0ries r in e p0sts, im n0t deletin dis bl0g. takairex guys!

2007-01-10T22:36:00.000+08:00

drag myself 0ff e bed n g0 t0 w0rk. w0rk was alryte. s0me c0nflicts happenin th0u. n im stuck in e middle. went t0 c0llect my jacket cum dress! s0 happi! kekex. finalli, left 1m0re t0p left t0 buy ferr new yr. 0thers waitin ferr e 0nline 0rder t0 arrive =)

feelin much betta. thanks ferr e c0ncern peeps. rushed my tut0rials. n g0nna studi ferr my jap test tml. h0pe sat will be a fun n happi dae. g0in k0r chalet =) n h0pe my thr0at will rec0ver asap! c0s its killin mie!

2007-01-09T17:27:00.000+08:00

haven rec0vered frm my sickness. st0pped e v0mitin, but n0w, my v0ice sucks. s0re thr0at, n0 energy, n giddyness. sianx. t0dae din g0 sch again. h0pe ii ken faster rec0ver! wanna g0 0ut n play! wanna mit my frenx, wanna enj0y my life. dun wanna b stuck at h0me!

2007-01-08T00:02:00.000+08:00

im sick.. w0ke up dis m0rnin n started t0 v0mit all e way. darlinx n mie din g0 t0 w0rk. he acc mie g0 c d0c. saw grandma, mum n sis at e clinic t0o. grandma n sis was sick t0o. e d0c saes all 0f us suffered e same disease =X

n0 appetite t0 eat aniting. reach h0me n all ii did was slp. thks darlinx, ferr bein by my side, feedin mie wif p0rridge, medicine, n acc mie t0 slp. s0 scared dat ii`ll spread e virus t0 him. evenin tym lidat, fever rises, had t0 eat m0re medicine. MC ferr 2daex. s0 wun b g0in sch tml.

ytd went 0ut wif sis, c0usins n babyy`rik0 t0 viv0. sh0pped al0t. saw mani tings dat ii cant buy. sianx. hate dis kind 0f feelin lahx. anyway, nyte tym mit ba0beix n k0r, den mie, sis, ba0beix n k0r went t0 watch `0ne last dance`. SUCKS e m0vie!

2007-01-06T11:08:00.000+08:00

been w0rkin.. studyin, rushin pr0j, s0meh0w find n0 tym t0 kip updated wif my frenx.. even seein their bl0g evridae lyk ii 0wayyx used t0 seems s0 hard. abt a week den ii view their bl0g. c0s evritym 0nline, its s0 rushed.

anyway, HAPPi BDAE ZITING!!! ger, h0pe eu stay happi 0wayyx kaex?? s0rriex ferr e belated wish.

fergive mie my dear frenx if ii din kip updated fast enuff. if im nt by urr side wen eu nid mie, im veh s0rriex. but my hp is e fastest wae t0 get t0 mie. s0 pls dun ferget kaex??

2007-01-05T00:33:00.000+08:00

watched `spirit 0f e victim` t0day wif darlinx after sch. den ii b0ught a bag suitable ferr sch n g0 0ut =) LOVED IT! its damn nice n damn EXPENSiVE! $53~~ sianx. DECLARED BANKRUPT. l0ved e white dress at e sh0p t0o. g0t furry furry!!! =P hahax. s0 ii put dep0sit. wait get dis mth pay den ii`ll g0 buy dat dress! hahax. $43 GONE FRM MY DIS MTH PAY! h0pe wun deduct CPF t0o much. h0pe t0 get bac at least $8oo 0f my pay?? g0d pls help mie =X

n0w c0nsiderin t0 g0 h0ngk0ng 0r japan. c0s ii saw a hk mag frm dejian. n e cl0thes r damn nice! e guys wan lahx. hahax. CAMOU DIAMOND JACKETS!!! g0d. $2ooo++!!!! darlinx wanna buy if its $2ooo++ HK currency. sc0ld him mad. spent S$5oo+ ferr a jacket?? n0e its nice, but its n0t w0rth. s0 wher shld ii g0?? any 0pini0n guys??

sat 0ff. n0 0ne t0 acc mie 0ut!! findin ppl! hahax. wh0 wanna g0 0ut wif mie?? sing k??

2007-01-04T23:57:00.000+08:00

my reflecti0ns 0n 2oo6.. res0luti0ns ferr 2oo7..

2oo6.. passed s0 fast. beginning 0f e yr was g0tten by by sad news. j0ey sis went in e h0spital. g0t bac o level results. was sh0cked dat its acheri gd results. after hesitating between jc n p0ly, ii went int0 TP, n e c0urse 0f my 1st ch0ice. celebrated my birthdae happily n sadly. den, its start 0f e sch. e pers0n put mie in e wr0ng klass 0n e 1st dae. n0e new frenx, get used t0 p0ly lifestyle. w0rked, quitted mani j0bs. granny passed away 0n e 22april`o6, will neva ferget.

1yr anniversary wif darlinx =) den celebrated NDP`o6. firew0rks marath0n evridae =P had my h0ls, rushed pr0j, pr0ceed t0 sem 2. den.. 0n e 22 aug`o6, j0ey sis sadly left us.... evriting, evri mem0ries, shall remain deeply in 0ur harts. finally, g0t a j0b at S&K. wasnt t0o bad as ii knew quite mani ppl lerx =) quite a fun j0b after s0 mani experiences. except ferr sales peri0d. xmas was special, n welc0med new yr 2oo7 wif mum n dad n darlinx.

s0 mani happi, sad n angry mem0ries last yr. been quite a t0ugh yr ferr mie t0o. had t0 get thru 0bstacles n 0bstacles. but all dese made mie str0nger n braver, stirrin my tinkin t0 b m0re mature.

dis yr.. a brand new yr, brand new start, shall wish ferr evri0ne t0 b happi n healthy, h0pe my studies will be better, family m0re pr0sper0us, darlinx t0 be healthy n smiling always t0o =P frenx 0wayyx kipin in c0ntact! last but n0t least, j0ey sis, we`ll mish eu lyk we 0wayyx d0....

2007-01-03T00:49:00.000+08:00

im damn tired dis week.. t0dae w0rked full shift. kena c0nversi0n. n dat stupid serene keng mc ferr 4daex.. evridae g0 c d0c take mc. lidat damn 0bvi0us she`s nt sick l0rx. stupid. j0anne c0nsiderin wanna sack her nt. c0s within 11daex, she mc 5daex. all 0n public h0ls. anyway, sch re0penin dis week. but m0st 0f e less0ns r 0nline. had t0 rush my 0b n ec0ns pr0j. charlie had been sms-in mie. mbs pr0j haven even halfway d0ne! g0ne case. lucky ferr n0w acc pr0j finish lerx. 0nli left print. damn tired n0w. 1pers0n mc evri0ne die. t0dae w0rk frm 11am-11.3opm.. cl0se sh0p nid rem0ve all e st0ck n put up new st0cks. ken eu imagine e amt 0f st0ck we had t0 d0?? d0 halfwae, tml m0rnin shift g0 make again. n0w rushin pr0j. tml g0nna brin hmk g0 sh0p d0 =X hungry siax. wh0le dae in sh0p, 0nli went ferr 1hr break. dats all ii`ve eaten t0dae. 1 packet 0f rice.

after tml ken rest lerx. thur 0ff. hahax. but g0t sch. idi0tic. dun feel lyk g0in. c0s m0rnin g0t 0ne. den mux wait til evenin tym den hav tut0rial. g0nna slp, nytex evri0ne =)

2007-01-01T13:46:00.000+08:00

a quick summary 0f evriting ferr e past 4 days..

fri was an0ther 0ff dae.. wif darlinx we went t0 get 0ur lens. p0or mie n0w. c0s ii re-buy my permanent lens. degree t0o high. if ii buy disp0sable ferr nw.. 3mths-$128! c0s 0nli e best brand, bausch n l0mb, g0t my degree. sianx. s0 might as well spent abit m0re t0 buy a permanent 0ne. dere g0es my pay.. im br0ke =X den we went t0 cut 0ur hair. j0lene changed my hairstyle. l0ok abit kiddish n0w =P hahax. but nida style. if neva style l0ok lyk helmet[dats wat winnie sae] l0lx. arnd 7pm den we g0t ready n went sh0ppin. n0e wat?? darlinx 0so g0t his pay. n guess h0w much he spent?? $4oo!!!! g0d!!!~~~ he b0ught a pair 0f limited nike high-cut sh0es, n a limited STUSSY shirt. each c0stin $169! n0w.. ii regretted t0 intr0 him t0 LABELS, hahax. c0s he has been spendin a b0mb 0n limited stuffs. all 0ver hundred per piece. anyway, ii 0so b0ught a jeans skirt. 0nli wish t0 buy 1set 0f new yr cl0thes. s0 n0w, lack 0f a t0p. t0o br0ke 0ready.

sat w0rkin dae. din get t0 mit darlinx at nyte. haix. ytd.. c0untd0wn 2oo7! hubby keng mc tw0 daex. s0 he came n fetch mie after w0rk. den we went t0 eat. mit mum n dad at citylink dere. den we brin dem g0 esplanade. kekex. s0 mani ppl! wanna mit shar0n. saw her but cant get int0 her. s0 we f0und 0ur 0wn place n settled d0wn... 0n e fl0or =X felt s0 bad ask dad n mum sit 0n e fl0or. hahax. awhile later e cr0wd is gatherin. n it started t0 rain! drizzlin.. s0 al0t 0f ppl walked away. we g0t n0 umbrella. s0 used newspaper n plastic bag. l0lx. abit pathetic. but after e rain st0pped, we`re at e fr0nt! saw s0me firew0rks 0ver e buildins. den when it strike midnyte.. HAPPI NEW YR 2oo7!!! firew0rks filled e air, wif music n lights. NICE! after dat, e mrt stati0n was jammed all e way 0ut t0 e traffic lights. s0 we 0n call cab bac h0me. tired!

2006-12-31T00:52:00.000+08:00

a t0uchin st0riee. t0ok frm guaIger`s bl0g..

Just two years after our marriage, hubby brought up the idea of asking Mother to move from the rural hometown and spend her remaining years with us. Hubby's father passed away while he was still very young. Mother endured much hardship and struggled all on her own to provide for him, see him through to a university degree. You could say that she suffered a great deal and did everything you could expect of a woman to bring hubby to where he is today.I immediately agreed and started packing the spare room, which has a balcony facing the South to let her enjoy the sunshine and plant some greenery.Hubby stood in the bright room, and suddenly just picked me up and started spinning round and round. As I egged him to put me down, he said:"Lets go fetch mother." Hubby is tall and big sized and I love to rest on his chest and enjoy the feeling that he ould pick me up at any moment put the tiny me into his pockets. henever we have an argument and both refuses to back down, he would pick me up and spin me over his head continuously until I surrender and beg for ercy. I became addicted to this kind of panic-joy feeling.

Mother brought along her countryside habits and lifestyle with her. For example; I am so used to buying flowers to decorate the living room, she could not stand it and would comment: "I do not know how you young people spend your money,why do you buy flowers for? You also can't eat the flowers!"I smiled and said: "Mum, with flowers in the house, our mood will also become better."Mother continues to grumble away, and hubby smiled: Mum,this is a city-people's habit, slowly you will get use to it." Mother stopped saying anything. But every time thereafter, whenever I came home with flowers, she would ask me how much it costs. I told her and she would shake her head and express displeasure. Sometimes, when I come home with lots of shopping bags, she would ask each and every item how much they cost, I would tell her honestly and she would get even more upset about it. Hubby playfully pinched my nose and said: "You little fool, just don't tell her the full price of everything would solve it." There begins the friction to our otherwise happy lifestyle.Mother hates it most when hubby wakes up early to prepare the breakfast. In her view, how could the man of the house cook for the wife? At the breakfast table, mother's facial expression is always like the dark clouds before a thunderstorm and I would pretend not to notice. She would use her chopsticks and make a lot of noise with it as her silent protest. As I am a dance teacher in the Children's Palace and is exhausted from a long day of dancing around, I do not wish to give up the luxury of that additional fewminutes in the comfort of my bed and hence I turned a deaf ear to all theprotest mother makes.

From time to time, mother would help out with some housework, but soon her help created additional work for me. For example: she would keep all kinds of plastic bags accumulating them so that she sell them later on, and that resulted in our house being filled with all the trash bags; she would scrimp on dish washing detergent when helping to wash the dishes and so as not to hurt her feelings, I would quietly wash them again.One day, late atnight, mother saw me quietly washing the dishes, and "Bam" she slams her bedroom door and cried very loudly in her room. Hubby was placed in a difficult position, and after that, he did not speak to me for that entire night. I pretended to be a spoilt child, tried acting cute, but he totally ignored me. I got mad and asked him: "What did I do wrong?" Hubby stared at me and said: "Can't you just give in to her once? We couldn't possibly die eating from a bowl however unclean it is, right?" After that incident, for a long period of time, mother did not speak to me and you can feel that there is a very awkward feeling hanging in the house.During that period of cold war, hubby was caught in dilemma as to who to please. In order to stop her son from having to prepare breakfast, mother took on the "all important" task of preparing breakfast without any prompting. At the breakfast table, mother would look at hubby happily eating his breakfast and cast that reprimanding stare at me for having failed to perform my duty as a wife. To avoid the embarrassing breakfast situation, I resorted to buying my own breakfast on my way to work.That night, while in bed, hubby was a little upset and asked me: "LD, is it because you think that mum's cooking is not clean that's why you chose not to eat at home?" He then turned his back on me and left me alone in tears as feeling of unfairness overwhelmed me. After some time, hubby sighed: "LD, just for me, can you have breakfast at home?" I am left with no choice but to return to the breakfast table.

The next morning, I was having porridge prepared by mother and I felt a sudden churn in my stomach and everything inside seem to be rushing up my throat. I tried to suppress the urge to throw up but I couldn't. I threw down the bowl and rushed into the washroom and vomited everything out. Just as I was catching my breath, I saw mother crying and grumbling very loudlyin her dialect, hubby was standing at the washroom doorway staring at me with fire burning in his eyes. I opened my mouth but no words came out of it, I really didn't mean it. We had our very first big fight that day; mother took a look at us, then stood up and slowly made her way out of the house. Hubby gave me a final stare in the eye and followed mother down the stairs. For three days, hubby did not return home, not even a phone call. I was so furious , since mother arrived; I had been trying my best and putting up with her, what else do you want me to do? For no reason, I keephaving the feelingto throw up and I simply have not appetite for food, coupled with all the events happening at home, I was at the low point in mylife.Finally, a colleague said: "LD, you look terrible, you should go and see adoctor." The doctor confirmed that I am pregnant.

Now it became clear to me why I threw up that fateful morning, a sense of sadness floated through that otherwise happy news. Why didn't hubby, and mother who had been through this before, thought of the possibility of this being the reason that day? At the hospital entrance, I saw my hubby standing there. It had only been three days, but he looked haggard. I had wanted to turn and leave, but one look at him and my heart soften, I couldn't resist and called out to him. He followed my voice and finally found me but he pretended that he doesn't know me; he has that disgusted look in his eyes that cut right through my heart. I told myself not to look at him anymore, and hail a cab. At that moment, I have such a strong urge inside me to shout to my hubby: "Darling, I am having your baby!" and have him lift me up and spin me round in circles of joy. What I wanted didn't happen and as I sat in the cab, my tears started rollingdown. Why? Why our love couldn't even withstand the test of one fight? Back home, I lay on the bed thinking about my hubby, and the disgusted look in his eyes. I criedand wet the corner of the blanket.That night, sound of the drawers opening woke me up. I switched on the lights and I saw hubby with tears rolling down his face. He was removing the money. I stared at him in silence; he ignored me, took the bank deposit book and some money and left the house. Maybe he really intends to leave me for good. What a rational man, so clear-cut in love and money matters. I gave a few dried laugh and tears starting streaming down again.The next day, I did not go towork. I wanted to clear this out and have a good talk with hubby. I reached his office and his secretary gave me a weird look and said: "Mr. Tan's mother had a traffic accident and is now in the hospital." I stood there in shock. I rushed to the hospital and by the time I found hubby, mother had already passed away. Hubby did not look at me, his face was expressionless. I looked at mother's pale white and thin face and I couldn't control the tears in my eyes. My god, how could this happen?Throughout the funeral, hubby did say a single word to me, with only the occasional disgusted stare at me. I only managed to find out brief facts about the accident from other people. That day, after mother left the house, she walked in dazed toward the bus stop, apparently intending to go backto her old house back in the countryside. As hubby ran after her, she tried to walk faster and as she tried to cross the street, a public bus came and hither...I finally understood how much hubby must hate me, if I had not thrown up that morning, if we had not quarreled, if... In his heart, I am indirectly the killer of his mother.

Hubby moved into mother's room and came home every night with a strong liquor smell on him. And me, I am buried under the guilt and self pity and could hardly breathe. I wanted to explain to him, tell him that we are going to have our baby soon, but each time, I saw the dead look in his eyes, all the words I have at the brink of my mouth just fell back in. I had rather he hit me real hard or give me a big and thorough scolding though none of these events happening had been my fault at all. Many days of suffocating silence went by and as the days went by, hubbycame home later and later. The deadlock between us continues, we were living together like strangers who don't know each other. I am like the dead knot in his heart.One day, I passed by a western restaurant, looking into the glass window, I saw hubby and a girl sitting facing each other and he very lightly brushed her hair for her, I understood what it meant. After recovering from that moment of shock, I entered the restaurant, stood in front of my hubby and stared hard at him, not a tear in my eyes. I have nothing to say to him, and there is no need to say anything. The girl looked at me, looks at hubby, stands up and wanted to go, hubby stretched out his hand and stopped her.He stared back at me, challenging me. I can only hear my slow heartbeat, beating, one by one as if at the brink of death. I eventually backed down, if I had stood that any longer, I will collapse together with the baby inside me.

That night, he did not come home, he had chosen to use that as a way to indicate to me: Following mother's death so did our love for each other. He did not come home anymore after that. Sometimes, when I returned home from work, I can tell that the cupboard had been touched - he had returned to take some of his stuff. I no longer wish to call him; the initial desire to explain everything to him vanished. I lived alone; I go for my medical checkups alone, my heart breaks again and again everytime I see a guy carefully helping his wife through the physical examination. My office colleagues hinted to me to consider aborting the baby, I told them No, I will not. I insisted on having to this baby, perhaps it is my way of repaying mother for causing her death.One day, I came home and I saw hubby sitting in the living room. The whole house was filled with cigarette smoke. On the coffee table, there was this piece of paper. I know what it is all about without even looking at it. In the two months plus of living alone, I have gradually learned to find peace within myself. I looked at him, removed my hat and said: "You wait a while, I will sign." He looked at me, mixed feelings in his eyes, just like mine. As I hang up my coat, I keep repeating to myself "You cannot cry, you cannot cry..." my eyes hurt terribly, but I refused to let tear come out from there. After I hung up my coat, hubby's eyes stared fixed at my bulging tummy. I smiled, walked over to the coffee table and pull the paper towards me. Without even looking at what it says, I signed my name on it and pushed the paper to him."LD, you are pregnant?" Since mother's accident, this is the first time he spoke to me. I could not control my tears any further and they fell like raindrops. I said: "Yes, but its ok, you can leave now." He did not go, in the dark, we sat, facing each other. Hubby slowly moved over me, his tears wet the blanket. In my heart, everything seems so far away, so far that even if I sprint, I could never reach them. I cannot remember how many times he repeated "sorry" to me, I had originally thought that I would forgive him, but by now I can't. In the western restaurant, in front of that girl, that cold look in his eyes, I will never forget, ever. We have drawn such deep scars in each other's heart. For me, it's unintentional; for him, totally intentional. I had been waiting for this moment of reconciliation, but I realized now, what had gone past is gone forever and could not repeated. Other than the thought of the baby inside me that would bring some warmth to my heart, I am totally cold towards him, I no longer eat anything he buys for me, I don't take any presents from him and I stopped talking to him.
From the moment I signed on that piece of paper, marriage and love had vanished from my heart. sometimes, hubby will try to come into the bedroom, but when he walks in, I will walk out to the living room. He had no choice but to sleep in mother'sroom. At night, from his room, I can hear light sounds of groaning, I kept quiet. This used to be his trick; last time, whenever I ignore him, he would fake illness and I willsurrender and find out what is wrong with him, he would then grab me and laugh. He has forgotten that last time; I cared for him and am concerned because there is love, but now, what is there between us? Hubby's groaning came on and off continuing all the way till baby was born. Almost every day, he would buy something for the baby, infant products, children products and books that kids like to read. Bags and bags of it stacked inside his room till it is full. I know he is trying to use this to reach out to me, but I am no longer moved by his actions. He has no choice but to lock himself in his room and I can hear his typing away on his computer keyboard, maybe he is now addicted to web surfing, but none of that matters to me anymore.It was sometime towards the end of spring in the following year, one late night, I screamed because of a sudden stomach pain, hubby came rushing into the room, its like he did not change and sleep, and had been waiting for this moment. He carried me and ran down the stairs, stopped a car, holding my hand very tightly and kept wiping the sweat off my brown hair, throughout the journey to the hospital.

Once we reached the hospital, he carried me and hurried into the delivery suite. Lying on the back of his skinny but warmth body, a thought crossed my mind: In my lifetime, who else would love me as much as he did? He held the delivery suite door opened and watch me go in, his warm eyes caused me to managed a smile at him despite my contraction pain. Coming out of the delivery room, hubby looked at our son, and me, his eyes tearwith joy and he kept smiling. I reached out and touched his hand. Hubby looked at me, smiling and then he slowly collapsed onto the floor. I cried out for him in pain... He smiled, but without opening that tired eyes of his... I had thought that I would never shed any tear for him, but the truth is, I have never felt a deeper pain cutting through my body at that moment.Doctor said that by the time hubby discovered he had liver cancer, it was already in terminal stage and it was a miracle that he managed to last this long. I asked the doctor when did he first discover he had cancer? Doctor said about 5 months ago and consoled me saying: "Prepare for his funeral." I disregarded the nurse's objection and rushed home, I went into his room and checked his computer, and a suffocating pain hits me.

Hubby's cancer was discovered 5 months ago, his groaning was real, and I had thought that... The computer showed over 200 thousand words he wrote for our son: "Son, just for you, I have persisted, to be able to take a look at you before I fall, is my biggest wish now... I know that in your life, you will have many happiness and maybe some setbacks, if only I can accompany you throughout that journey, how nice would it be. But daddy now no long has that chance. Daddy has written inside here all the possible difficulties and problems you may encounter during your lifetime, when you meet with these problems, you can refer to daddy's suggestion... Son, after writing these 200 thousand words, I feel as if I have accompanied you through your life journey. To be honest, daddy is very happy. Do love your mother, she has suffered, she is the one who loves you most and also the one who loves me most..." From play school to primary school, to secondary, university, to work and even in dealing with questions of love, everything big and small was written there. Hubby has also written a letter for me: "My dear, to marry you is my biggest happiness, forgive me for the pain I have caused you, forgive me for not telling you my illness, because I want to see you be in a joyful moodwaiting for the arrival of our baby... My dear,if you cried, it means that you have forgiven me and I would smile, thank you for loving me... These presents, I'm afraid I cannot give them to our son personally, could you help me to give some of them to him every year, the dates on what to give when are all written on the packaging..." Going back to the hospital, hubby is still in coma. I brought our son over and place him beside him. I said: "Open your eyes and smile, I want our son to remember being in the warmth of your arms..." He struggled to open his eyes and managed a weak smile.
Our son still in his arms was happily waving his tiny hands in the air. I press the button on the camera and the sound of the shutter ran through the airas tears slowly rolled down my face...

2006-12-29T00:10:00.000+08:00

finalli 0ff lerx =) damn happi. lyk s0 l0ng neva g0 0ut decently wif ba0beix lerx. tml will b e dae =P

s0 mani tings happened. ii hate b0th 0f dem 0kaex!

bac frm sh0ppin wif d0do, juan n huiyan. damn disapp0inted dis m0rnin. wanna sing ktv al0t. but... haix. dun wish t0 t0k abt it anim0re. dun wish t0 plan aniting anim0re. c d0do dey all buy dis buy dat.. xian mu siax.. th0u ii ytd g0t my pay, but ken0t use. 0nli b0ught a necklace. saw s0 mani tings.. heels, cl0thes, dress, necklaces, earrings, bags... but all ken0t buy. sadx.. =(

tml g0in cut hair lerx. n ii thr0w away my permanent lens last nyte. t0o tired frm w0rk.. blur blur stupid g0 p0ur away e lens n s0luti0n. $200 GONE! dun dare tel mama lahx. haix. g0nna buy mthly lens myself. kip e secret frm mummy.

2006-12-26T23:47:00.000+08:00

im bac t0 bl0ggin after s0 mani tings happenin.

well, w0rk durin xmas wasnt GOOD.. it simply sux t0 e c0re. sales wh0le sh0p. end up?? wh0le sh0p in a mess. nt enuff ppl t0 serve n tidy e sh0p. j0lene[district manager] came d0wn while im havin break. n asked mie t0 g0 0utside t0 help 0ut. n sc0ld winnie ferr lettin us g0 1hr break durin peak seas0ns?? DAMN EU! we`re s0 tired wen w0rkin dat all 0f 0ur faces r BLACK. n eu dun even all0w us t0 rest durin 0ur break-tym??!! shant sae s0 much anim0re. WEIRD CUSTOMERS EVERYWHER!

anyway, dis xmas c0untd0wn is a peaceful wan. mit ba0beix at bugis. juan acc mie wait ferr him after my w0rk. den she g0 lerx. after dat we tw0 went t0 take ne0prints. g0t new machine s0 cute! hahax. but s0 paisehx c0s ii dunn0 h0w t0 use. den is click 0utside. den evri0ne was lukin at mie wen ii anih0w click. in e end e pers0n teach mie. l0lx =X after dat kalled tingtingg n she asked mie nt t0 g0 viv0, c0s al0t ppl. but ii stil went after w0rk. n0 ppl wan l0rx. abit 0nli. had 0ur c0untd0wn at swensens. kekex. stupid swensen`s f0ndue s0ld 0ut. s0 had 0ur dinner cum supper. den its 12am. wished darlinx merry xmas. after eatin we went 0ut t0 c e scenery n sit d0wn. t0k t0k lang man lang man pai zha0... kekex.

finally after w0rkin lyk hell, tml w0rk den thur n fri 0ff. g0nna cut my hair! nxt mth den dye my hair ferr new yr. kekex. tml take pay lerx! g0nna g0 sh0ppin 0n fri wif darlinx.. cant wait~~!!

2006-12-23T11:35:00.000+08:00

TIRED!~~~

l0ng hrs 0f w0rkin th0u dey sae m0rnin 0r n0on shifft. ytd was quite fine c0s dere r j0anne n chee kian t0 help mie 0ut wif w0rk. but end up ii still did al0t 0f w0rk. c0s chee kian`s laziee.. =X b4 cl0sin 1omins j0anne walk 0ver t0 mie n sae.. `verlyn, left 1omins t0 cl0sin, jia y0u, xing ku ni lerx`. g0d. my in-charge said dat?? hahax. was feelin kinda happi. c0s ii reali did al0t 0f w0rk. replenish e st0ck cum servin cust0mers. run in n 0ut 0f e st0re lyk mad lidat. den wen she g0 break ii was al0ne handlin such a big st0re. n im stil c0nsidered a new staff! s0 kinda pr0ud 0f myself. n ii helped her hit e target dat chee kian sae ken0t =) mayb she`ll b kind enuff lemme new yr take 1/2 m0rnin 0r 0ff?? l0lx. im dreamin t0o much..

happi 19mth anniversary darlinx. feel s0 bad. last nyte wait ferr eu t0 finish w0rk. n we quarrelled infr0nt 0f ur c0lleagues. n evri0ne at e taxi stand was turnin n lukin at us c0s we`re sh0utin acr0ss e streets. even ur c0lleagues had t0 pull mie int0 e cab n persuade eu. haix. g0d damn embarrassin. but ytd eu w0rked til s0 late. till midnyte. haix. n0 nid s0 pia 0ne mahx. n0 matter wat happens, rmb my l0ve ferr eu kaex?? rmb e sms ii`ve send eu. rmb my w0rds n pr0mises. *huggiex*

lukin ferward t0 tml`s c0untd0wn! th0u haven reali planned evriting, but ii tink it`ll b fun! hahax. n h0pe d0do nxt thur ken 0ff. n nxt fri ii 0ff 0so g0 cut hair mayb dye cum highlight hair! cant wait! hahax. new yr eve managed t0 get m0rnin shift t0o. whahahax.

2006-12-20T01:32:00.000+08:00

been tw0 daex since ii t0uched my c0m. hand itchy g0 set passw0rd t0 my c0m end up ii ferg0t e pw -.-ll but f0und an0ther way t0 change e pw. s0 n0w ii ken use it. kekex. bz w0rkin. hate w0rkin life, but l0ve e m0ney! hate my in-charge, sun acheri put mie m0rnin shift?? ii said ii wan HALF m0rnin. haix. but request t0 g0 0ff earli at 5.3opm. s0 mit darlinx den we g0 walk arnd 1st. mayb watchin m0vie den g0 c0untd0wn. kekex. dis yr shall b a special yr t0 c0untd0wn yeahx?? h0pe ii wun get wet =P anyway, d0do c0nfirm wif mie if eu`re c0min wif us asap kaex??

xmas dunn0 wanna take half m0rnin nt. if nt get n0on shift. den eve play lyk mad! wakakax. dis xmas dun lemme enj0y nvm. new yr dae ii`ll sure get 0ff! hack kare. dun gimme 0ff ii take mc. tirin w0rk t0dae. 0nli 3pers0n in sh0p n all 0f us r w0rkin FULL shift 0kaex. n guess e sales?? $4k. each pers0n $1k+?? mad! each shirt is 0nli $12, s0 eu ken calculate h0w many shirts we`ve s0ld! DM c0me d0wn kp lahx. shit dem. cant c we s0 bz arhx. stil c0mplain sae ii din smile. wtf?? smile wat?? smile t0 e cl0thes?? damn. break tym cant even eat pr0perly. had t0 cut sh0rt 0ur break n serve all th0se STUPID IDIOT IRRITATIN F*** NO-MIND-OF-THEIR-OWN DE CUSTOMERS!

dun understand th0se ppl. ppl take wat dey c wat. den dey s0 CUTE siax, 1 design ken c dunn0 h0w many tymx. ii f0ld bac dey take again n put d0wn. f0ld again dey take again. F**K. n s0me dun understand english. tell dem e price s0 many tymx, e sign put dere s0 big, still kip ask. lyk ii`ll lie t0 eu lidat?? w0rk n w0rk n w0rk. im al0ne servin all e cust0mers in SK n IP. d0minic n chee kian was at e cashier. well, ii did n0 serving. dunn0 h0w t0 serve. stand in e middle c g0t ppl sh0plift nt, den e cust0mers will appr0ach mie aut0matically. hahax.

tml g0nna w0rk lyk hell again. cant wait ferr thur t0 0ff. my legs g0nna break s0on..... =X

2006-12-18T23:21:00.000+08:00

durin my exams had been keepin granny c0mpany. hahax. evri0ne praised im s0 guai, l0lx. bhb ii n0e =P fri after my last paper went t0 tm wif granny, sis, uncle n babyy`rik0! wahahaax. we went t0 eat. den ii br0ught her t0 e-z0ne. g0d, she`s damn playful. clingin 0nt0 e machine wen we wanna went 0ff. had t0 pull her away frm it. den g0 uncle hse. was s0 tired dat ii slept. but babyy`rik0 dun all0w mie! she kips c0min int0 e r0om n disturb mie! 1st she pull e wh0le b0x 0f tissue 0ut 0n e fl0or n drag it. den later she wanna climb e chair. nxt she turn e chair r0und n r0und. makin mie awake. fed up wif her. but she`s cute =) nyte tym mit up wif c0usins n relatives g0 eat. celeb aunt`s bdae.. s0 xin teng wen baby finished w0rk s0 late n s0 hungry. br0ught f0od t0 his hse. wen he`s 0n e bus he was s0 tired n asleep dat wen ii kalled him he din even picked up! *hart pain*

sat, my dae wif d0do n juan instead 0f darlinx. kekex. PS him g0 0ut wif dem. hahax. went far east den bugis. at bugis saw c0usins dey all. hahax. juan finally saw babyy`rik0. but she suay, rik0 wasnt feelin gd m0od. s0 she jux wun smile n0 matter h0w ii played wif her. hahax. e gers b0ught their stuffs t0dae, n ii b0ught my new b0ots =) its e cheapest n m0st c0mfy 0ne 0ut 0f all e b0ots ii`ve b0ught, n its pretty! ken make int0 3 different kind 0f styles. l0ve it! cant wait t0 wear it, but g0nna leave it ferr new yr.. after e gers left ii mit darlinx, alan, wen ba0, ke0ng n michelle. den g0 play billiard. th0u n0e michelle frm last tym, but n0w seems lyk nth t0 t0k t0 her. hahax. she`s e 0ne kip t0kin t0 mie. but she`s still nice.. =) finally ii`ve g0t a c0mpani0n wen ii g0 0ut wif dem. kekex.

t0dae went t0 darlinx w0rkplace wait ferr him t0 finish w0rk. den we went marina sq watch m0vie `erag0n`. thumbs up! tink dere`s g0nna b a part 2 c0min up! kekex. been enj0yin myself e past few daex. g0nna buy darlinx`s xmas present s0on! im g0in br0ke. faster gimme my pay! hahax. but im guai, savin ferr japan. s0 n0 m0re cl0thes, access0ries 0r wateva n0w! except ferr new yr cl0thes =PpP

2006-12-14T18:51:00.000+08:00

finally, im left wif e last paper, 0pen b0ok test. kinda crap, but ii lyk dis kind 0f test =) nt lyk im n0t g0in t0 studi, im still insistin t0 mem0rise e f0rmula later as it saves tym t0 flip n flip thru e b0ok s0 thick lahx. its 0nli a 1 hr paper. h0w much tym t0 waste flippin pages??

anyway, after ytd t0rture 0f mem0risin tw0 subs in 0ne nyte, its finalli 0ver. damn dat bl0ody MBS n e teacher! wat a GOOD revisi0n lecture yeahx?? made us studi all e tings eu c0vered. end up?? all th0se dat werent c0vered came 0ut. WTF?? was crappin all e way thru0ut e paper if eu asked mie. write crap. hahax. fun??

sick hasnt rec0vered. y?? l0ved hubby s0 much. he 0wayyx help mie g0 t0 places t0 buy e tings dat ii wan =) appreciate e eff0rt al0t babyy, mmuackkx! verlyn l0ve ya~~ =P

2006-12-13T12:49:00.000+08:00

my sickness s0rt 0f rec0vered ytd. but guess wat?? tink it g0ne w0rst t0dae.. haix. c0ughin n c0ughin. well, a gr8 dae ytd spent at h0me.. m0rnin after my ec0ns test ii acc granny g0 market buy f0od. im a gd ger ryte?? th0u market stinks but ii lyk t0 acc granny after e h0spital ting. wanna spend m0re tym wif her..

reached h0me n babyy`rik0 came my hse. played wif her. g0d, she`s gettin m0re n m0re fun! hahax. n0e y?? ii was h0ldin a cup 0f ice-cream n she`s standin 0n e s0fa walkin arnd. s0 ii tell her, `rik0, sit n yi yi gib eu mum mum.` n she reali sit! she sits d0wn facin mie wif e bac 0f e seat besides her. s0 ii tell her, `rik0, sit pr0perly n lean 0n e chair` n0e wat she d0?? her head lie 0n e bac 0f e s0fa n she lay dere smilin t0 mie. cawaii nehx! she`s sl0wly learnin e tings we taught her. ii carried her n put her in e right p0siti0n 0n e s0fa. wen she`s impr0perly sittin d0wn, ii tell her t0 sit n lean. den v0ila! she did it c0rrectly. clever ger indeed~ =)

intended t0 studi. end up watchin `bleach`. its sumting lyk narut0 s0 ii lyk it! hahax. cant st0pped watchin lahx. babyy came my hse eat t0o after his w0rk. n guess wat?? he t0ld mie a gd news! acheri its tw0. firstly, he asked his in-charge if he ken 0ff 0n xmas dae n new yr dae, n his in-charge sae he ken request f0r 0ff! damn happi. kekex. c0s ii`ve planned ferr dis tw0 maj0r daex c0min up!.......... e 0ther news- nxt yr im g0in 0n a h0lidae wif his family n mayb s0me 0f his frenx! YEAHX! n guess wher`re we g0in??? JAPAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! g0d, my fav c0untry! h0pe its reali happenin. if nt ii`ll b damn disapp0inted. n0w ii mux save m0ney ferr my air-tickets n buyin 0f my stuffs dere. e rest lyk l0dgin n f0od n transp0rt dere?? his mum sae she`ll pay ferr mie! thanks auntie! =)

2006-12-11T22:37:00.000+08:00

sch`s s0 near, n ii`ve t0 take cabby t0 sch?? well, w0ke up late wen ii had my test at 9am. 8.45am ii leave hse urgently. s0 had t0 take cabby. acc0unts test sux! last min ferg0t evriting. haix. prayed ferr jux a Pass.

im still SICK! damn bl0ody runnin n0se n s0re thr0at. v0ice cant b pr0jected. tink ii g0nna l0se my v0ice s0on?? giddyness pls st0p pesterin mie! keep feelin sleepy alth0u ii kept sleepin in e n0on.. g0nna bec0me a sleepin beauty s0on.. hahax. mayb sleepin ugly lahx =X

g0nna c a d0c s0on ii tink. h0pe ii fall real sick 0n thur den n0 nid take OB n MBS TEST! =X im mad..

mishin my b0ii lately. tink due t0 him w0rkin n mie havin exams. hardly get t0 t0k t0 him. s0bs =(

2006-12-10T14:28:00.000+08:00

declared sick... wen my exams start tml! g0d, d0 ii nida MC??

2006-12-08T12:57:00.000+08:00

im tired.. damn tired.. tired as in physically n mentally. physically mentally meant dat ii`ve n0t slept enuff each dae. 5hrs 0f slp evridae. chi0ngin my tut0rials n evriting. spendin tym wif my darlinx as n wen ii ken.. mentally as in BEIN ANGRY WIF DIS FAMILY!

dunn0 wat e f*ck is happenin t0 dis family. dun wish t0 get inv0lved in aniting anim0re. m ii in e wr0ng t0 request dat sis n james dun slp t0gether durin e weekdays? m ii WRONG??? feel lyk askin eu, y in e w0rld wil eu asked mie `Y?` wen ii request dat?? WHY??? she`s 0nli a 15yr 0ld ger[underage!] n eu let her slp wif her bf side by side?? even all0w her t0 g0 hk wif him n stay at her hse? its nt a matter 0f "im feelin unfair c0s im n0t given e same treatment even th0u im 0lder" OKAEX??? its a matter 0f her bein y0ung n might get cheated in terms 0f aniting! s0 wat if james is 26 yrs 0ld?? MEN R STIL MEN MIND EU!

dem slpin t0gether 0n e mattress wen dere`s such a big bed f0r sis t0 slp 0n e bed! shldnt eu b 0pposing all dis?? n dey`re bl0ckin my way 0ut wen im in a hurry t0 sch evri m0rnin. dey slept lyk pigs n n0 matter h0w ii KICKED DEM dey wun even wake up! m ii in e wr0ng t0 request such a simple ting??

wen ii request t0 g0 0n a h0l nxt yr, eu all0wed, BUT eu asked mie t0 save my 0wn m0ney. WTH IS DIS?? sis ken g0 hk wif e sp0nsors 0f eu n ii HAV TO USE MY OWN MONEY???!!!!! g0d.. WAT E HELL IS HAPPENIN?? Y DO MY MUM BECOMES SO COMPLETELY DIFFERENT FRM OTHER MUM????

im really tired. ACCOUNTS IS KILLIN MIE, MBS IS SENDIN MIE TO HELL. . . cant seems t0 get e facts ryte wif dese 2 subs. but tanks charlie f0r teachin mie acc0unts. made mie understand better. g0 take a nap..

2006-12-05T23:22:00.000+08:00

nth much t0 bl0g abt. jux n0rmal lifestyle. anyway, bad news jux n0w wen ii went t0 S&K. well, tml ii wun b at tm derx. instead ii`ll b bac at suntec. s0bs. nida rush t0 w0rk after pr0j again. sianx. mit up wif yiqi n huili ferr e past 2 daex. ytd eat dinner wif dem.

t0dae mit dem up t0 buy e presents f0r d0do. we b0ught her bel0ved strap! tink she`ll b veh happi if she saw it. wanna buy e earrin she saw. but it ended up t0 b meant f0r b0dy piercing wan lahx. hahax. s0 we went t0 c e skull necklace she saw e 0ther tym. OUT OF STOCK! sianx. but b0ught an0ther wan 0so nice nice derx =)

den we mit up juan 0n bus. headed 0ff t0 d0do`s hse. planned evriting wif her family. her granny damn cute lahx. lucky we asked her sis sms her. if nt we dunn0 she`ll b bac s0 s0on. was damn excited abt e plans. afterall im e 0verall 0rganiser! hate t0 c my plans fail c0s ii planned it s0 hard n wasted l0tsa sms n kalls t0 gather evri0ne n get tings d0ne 0kaex..

BooOoO! d0do was bac n we managed t0 sh0cked her by hidin in her granny`s r0om den jumped 0ut. her sis lied t0 her sae black0ut. d0do cried! cried wif tears 0f happiness! kekex. 0ur plan is a success! th0u dere`s 0nly a few 0f us. but we enj0yed 0urselves thru e pr0cesses. ate e cake, n watched e vide0 dat we rec0rded wif e help 0f her sis, us saein w0rds t0 her, n take pics!

yahx, felt a sense 0f achievement. n im s0 happi. 1st tym planned a surprise party lahx. th0u abit 0f l0oph0les, but ended up gleefully. d0do, l0ve eu yeahx?? rmb dat. hahax. dun w0rriex wz wun angry wan. hahax. glad eu LOVED E STRAP! heng eu din b0ught it. acheri intend buy e bag ferr eu dat eu saw. last min changes in plans s0 n0 tym g0 buy. after mid-sem ii`ll plan an 0uting again. take it dat we all celeb 0nce m0re f0r ur bdae kaex?? neva g0 0ut h0w ken ryte?? =P ii n0e eu l0ve us al0t! wahahahx. shy shy. but glad t0 c eu smile. c eu s0 stressed 0ver e past few daex. dun w0rriex abt mid-sem. its 0nli a test! im w0rried myself th0u. l0lx. faster 0ver den faster ken plae~~ shall miss ya ferr 1week+. dun miss mie t0o much.. l0lx. =PpP huggiex!

peeps, nxt fri`s my last paper. th0se wh0 wanna mit up pls sms mie e date yeahx? s0rriex c0s ii nida planned my schedule in advance. ziting if eu saw dis sms mie kaex? wanna mit up wif eu 0ne dae. l0ng din c eu lerx =) nu-er!!!!!!! hahax. 7dwarfs+evilqueen ii`ll planned n let all 0f eu n0e. my p0lymates. n a ktv-in sessi0n!

2006-12-04T18:43:00.000+08:00

gr8 dae 0ut 0n sat.. din managed t0 mit up wif mummy dey all. n din managed t0 catch a m0vie. went t0 ntg instead at nyte. darlinx played mahj0ng while ii watched him play. was s0 sleepy by 12+am dat ii slept 0n darlinx sh0ulder. went t0 sit 0n e s0fa, den e d0g jumped 0nt0 mie! sh0cked mie till ii screamed. darlinx frenx all luffed at mie =X

sun went t0 bugis juncti0n relief as winnie was sick. fun w0rkin dere. in-charge was nice =) n e ppl treated mie veh gd. nu-er saw mie n acc mie g0 eat my lunch. t0k t0 celest 0n e f0ne after w0rk ferr quite l0ng. mish her.. pity ger.. wanna transfer bac tamp 0so ken0t. wed ii`ll b w0rkin at tamp. ppl c0me find mie! kekex. c0me pei mie eat dinner. will b w0rkin 2/C. sianx..

mid-sem tests c0min up. after dat will b w0rkin n w0rkin. pr0j n pr0j. wanna buy m0re 0nline cl0thes! ii wan m0ney $$$$!!! h0pe tml will b sm0oth. h0pe dat stupid fren 0f mine wun make mie angry! c0s ii reali feel lyk sc0ldin him 0ff n rem0ve his name away in e pr0j!

2006-12-01T23:09:00.000+08:00

为何你总是让我失望呢？
心好痛，好想就这样放手。
也许当初我们就不适合。
胡思乱想，这滋味你知道吗？
回想到过去。。有得重新再接受一切。
为什么？？？
为什么我们之间一定要有这一切？
为什么你要让我承受这一切？
好不公平，真的好不公平。
你根本无法了解我的感受。。

花了这么长的时间，现在又回到原点。。
这是一场考验吗？
还是一场游戏？
无法分辨是真是假。。
我已没有力气继须下去。。
希望这一次是最后一次。。
希望我能克服一切。。
但觉得好难。。好难。。。

had been l0okin f0rward t0 t0dae`s 0uting. but.. DISAPPOINTED is wat ii ken sae. made e eff0rt t0 plan evriting in advance. evri0ne said yes, ken, n0 pr0blem. end up?? dere is s0me0ne wh0 din c0me wif us n went wif 0thers. n dere is s0me0ne hu 0so went t0 e 0thers` side after dat. n s0me0ne hu left wif bf. wat happened t0 wat ii`ve planned?? WASTED.. waste 0f sms, waste 0f tym.. mayb ii shld hav cancelled evriting if ii n0e dis will b e 0utc0me. . .

left mie n d0do. s0 we went t0 bugis but 0nly eat n sh0p awhile. den ii hav t0 rush bac tamp mit mama dey all. end up dey sae ken0t g0 temple =X well, played wif babyy`rik0. wahahax. made her luff till she gives 0ut th0se sharp laughter. l0lx. s0 cute! she`s gettin better n better at walking lerx. walk ar0und evriwher n bl0ckin 0ther ppl`s way. l0lx.

h0pe tml will be a w0nderful dae 0ut wif darlinx.. den after g0 mit mama dey all awhile. =)

2006-11-30T22:59:00.000+08:00

ytd after bai j0ey went h0me t0 change n mit prisc jie at inter. we went t0 sh0p awhile, n ii b0ught a t0p dats damn cheap! g0d. n ii l0ved it! hahax. went t0 w0rk. b0rin is wat ii ken sae abt w0rk ytd. but ii learnt sumting new, learnt h0w t0 st0ck 0ut t0 0ther 0utlets. kekex. w0rk wasnt sm0oth mayb c0s e relief in-charge jinx e sh0p. sales was bad, den we cant find 0ur st0ck, many things t0 d0, paper r0ll kena jammed, cashier ken0t 0pen. after evriting, nets t0tal l0st, n jas0n[relief in-charge] f0rg0t t0 take e dae b4 derx frequency! bad luck uhhs?

mit ba0beix again n we went h0me t0gether. p0or baby, w0rked till his hands full 0f scratches. lyk c0olie lidat. haix. h0pe 1st in-charge kena transfer t0 0ther 0utlets. ii wan winnie t0 stay! pls PLS dun transfer winnie~

t0dae`s ba0beix big dae.. pr0m! sumting bad happened which ii dun wish t0 t0k abt it anim0re. guess he`ll stunned e cr0wd wif his charming cl0thes n l0oks?? hahax. HE`S MINE!!!!

its e will n l0ve dat pull us t0gether despite evriting.
but if quarrels neva end, energy will b drained away frm us.
by den, will we b able t0 c0ntinue with0ut energy?
b0th 0f us r tired.. we n0e it..
but we stil ch0se t0 h0ld 0nt0 each 0ther.
is dis e POWER of l0ve??
0r we`re jux stubb0rn?

你让我好心疼。。
你不知道你受伤会让我难过。。
你的手，是多么重要。。
希望你能好好照顾它。。
什么事情若发生，我不知道能不能继续下去。。

2006-11-28T22:11:00.000+08:00

finally dere`s tym f0r mie t0 bl0g t0 kip my preci0us readers updated wif my life..

sun w0rkin lyk hell. w0rk n0on shift frm 1.30pm till midnight. g0d. im damn tired. c0s 0f e stupid c0nversi0n evri0ne had t0 g0 bac late. hate th0se cust0mers ii tel eu. e cl0thes ii f0lded dey make it messy again. asked mie t0 take all e cl0thes end up after findin it, dey n0e e price n dun wan it again. fark. packed all e st0ck n rem0ve e 0ld st0cks till arnd 11.30pm. den we went t0 eat as after midnight take cab e fare ken claim frm c0mpany. hahax. reached h0me damn tired.

tml`s j0ey sis 1ooth dae. missed her.. haix. granny was tinkin abt it eva since last week. ytd after w0rk mit darlinx den we g0 eat 2gether b4 g0in h0me. was t0o tired. s0 t0day skipped my mbs tut0rial n lect. went t0 sch f0r 0b n bus stats lect in e n0on. slept 12hrs n im stil s0 tired!

lukin f0rward t0 fri`s ktv n sat 0ff dae wif ba0beix. nxt week will b takin exam leaves as my mid-sem test is c0min!

2006-11-25T22:46:00.000+08:00

l0ve sh0ppin! kekex. m0rning had tut0rial n lect. wasnt feelin well. st0mach upset. did abit 0f pr0j, den mit d0do g0 pasir ris c0llect 0ur cl0thes. l0ve e cl0thes! sis cant wear 0ne 0f e dress den she gimme~~~ kekex.

ii went bac h0me wait f0r ba0beix. waited f0r him f0r 2+hrs?? he`s damn sl0w! g0d. was r0ttin at h0me n angry-in wif him. lyk a zar b0r lidat kip m0h m0h m0h.. hahax. after `c0ld war` f0r abt 5daex, we finally mit up n hav a real date.

huggied him tightly. felt s0 blissed in his arms. felt his l0ve 0nce again..

ii b0ught 2m0re watches. kekex. n0w t0tal tink ii`ve g0t 7pairs 0f watches 0ready! wakakakakax. im mad lahx. anyway, watched `9.56`. e endin sucks lahx. stupid endin. hahax. den acc ba0beix h0me t0 change int0 his unif0rm b4 c0min t0 my hse stay.

sumh0w feelin dat we werent dat cl0se anym0re.
n0 l0nger feel lyk a c0uple.
e way we t0k s0meh0w misleads mie t0 tinkin we`re veh gd frenx.
my hart`s bec0min unstable n0w.
dun dare t0 tink abt anything.
n eu dun seems t0 c0ncern mie much anym0re..
n0 l0nger kares if im al0ne..
n0 l0nger kalls mie wen ii finish w0rk.
n0 l0nger rmbs dat ii din sms eu wen ii reached h0me...
all dis small lil tings... make mie feel s0 unc0mf0rtable.
s0 frightened, t0 fall s0 deep...
deep in l0ve wif s0me0ne wh0m ii dunn0 l0ves mie e same way ii d0 n0w..

2006-11-23T20:11:00.000+08:00

终于一切都结束了。
我和你，还能回到过去那原来的样子吗？
能有未来快乐的日子吗？
似乎已经看不到终点了。。

late f0r tut0rial dis m0rnin f0r 1/2hr. lucky teacher listen t0 my explanati0n n mark mie late ii tink. haix. c0s ii 0nly managed t0 catch 4hrs 0f slp. den 8+am had t0 rush t0 sch. g0d, im damn tired~~ after w0rk reach h0me its arnd 12am.

t0day was my big day.. jap presentati0n! damn nerv0us lahx. stupid teacher ask mie d0 geisha. den my fren 0so. end up my pics same as her, inf0 0so abt e same. den she present first. wen its my turn, ppl at e fr0nt sae `ehx, e pics all same wan..` ended up ii jumble up my w0rds. haix.

tml`s my 0ff dae! g0in 0ut!! yeahx! ken rest lerx. n c0llect my 0nline cl0thes! nt veh happi wif dat ger. c0s ii 0rdered 8cl0thes n 2bags. 0nli g0t 4cl0thes! e rest all 0ut 0f st0ck l0rx. n she din even tel mie. fark. ANGRY!! h0pe tml tings g0 0ut sm0othly n well. n0 m0re quarrels ii h0pe..

ppl hu wan w0rk tell mie. my c0mpany needs m0re staff!

2006-11-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

一年六个月，就在冷漠又悲伤的情况下度过了。。
越来越不明白你到底在想什么。。
心好痛，只想抱紧你，但那距离好远。。
眼泪流下来了。。
为何你不懂我在想什么？
为何对我不理不睬呢？
觉得很孤单，很想你。。
虽然你已在我身边，但我的泪水，你却看不见。。
我很想你。。
想你的这颗心，希望你能听见。。

好伤心好难过，有谁能听到？
我的心再哭。。
为他而哭。。
好累好累。。谁的肩膀能给我依靠？

im gettin t0o tired.. my hart is t0o numb f0r everything..
h0w ii wish ii c0uld just sleep like dis f0rever. . . . .

2006-11-21T23:53:00.000+08:00

怎么办？心情好乱哦。。
忽然之间，很没有安全感。。
我好害怕会失去他。
我的心一直在摇动，很不安。。
这段爱情会结束吗？
他会一直这样爱我，永不变吗？
我无法肯定地回答自己。。
只希望一切一直是一场梦。。
让我能一睡不醒。。
那该有多好。。

tired.. skip mbs lecture dis m0rnin. after all e less0ns at 6pm ii went t0 bugis al0ne. b0ught my sh0es n went t0 sis sh0p acc her. helped her arnd in e sh0p as e new girl dun even n0e wat t0 d0. n dere`re l0tsa ppl dere. den meet ba0beix 0utside his sh0p, after dat ke0ng drive c0me find us wif s0me0ne. yahx. ke0ng spent nearly 0ne hr driving arnd bef0re he f0und e highway g0 bac tampines. hahax. went t0 eat prata. nice feelin t0kin t0 dat s0me0ne. din n0e we g0t s0 many things in c0mmon =)

did my tut0rial n jap presentati0n pr0ject. left OB n ECONS pr0j nida d0. n ECONS n ACCS tutorial.. die. tml w0rkin n0on shift. g0nna g0 w0rk wif ba0beix ii guess??

2006-11-20T23:29:00.000+08:00

s0rriex n0 updates frequently 0ready. BUSY is wat ii describe my life n0w..

w0rk wasnt as bad as ii th0t. mayb c0s e 1st in charge wasnt here bahx. c0lleagues treated mie quite well. yahx. g0t 2sets 0f 'unif0rm'. jux ch0ose e t0p n b0ttom dat ii lyk n change int0 it immediately. l0lx. dats MY unif0rm. weird huhx? nida buy sh0es. tml g0in buy lerx. sianx. will b g0in sh0ppin ALONE. ppl eu`ll tink its a miracle ryte? n0 ch0ice. c0s after dat g0 d0wn find ba0beix n wait f0r him t0 finish w0rk =)

fri is my 0ff dae!! ii mean wen ii finish sch earli lahx n n0 w0rk. wakakax. managed t0 0ff 0n dat dae. DODO PLS FIND PPL GO KTV! IM GOIN CRAZY!! hahax. THOSE WHO WANNA GO SMS MIE OR DODO. . . c0s currently 0nli we tw0. l0lx. heng t0day g0 w0rk g0t jasmine acc mie take bus. n we werent late f0r w0rk~ th0t we will. but heng e bus fast. kekex. l0tsa l0tsa tings t0 finish. pr0js esp ECONS n OB!! CHARLIE RAO LERX WO BAHX! he`s stressin mie s0 much wif `wher's urr article??, g0 bac mux find examples t0 supp0rt 0ur p0ints` n evriting...!!

P.S: pics will be updated asap. but f0r n0w, ph0tos ken b viewed thru my frenster.. 0r frenx bl0gs.. s0rriex..

2006-11-20T00:56:00.000+08:00

UPDATES..

sat.. quarrelled. but end up fine after dat. went 0ut t0 viv0city wif him n his frenx. ate Earle swensen. g0d. if ken dun eat dere! its much much m0re expensive den n0rmal swensen. n e servings is smaller! g0d. we 5pers0n eat $150?? walk walk awhile. den e sh0ps cl0ses. c0s we reach at evening tym. went t0 c e scenery n play p0ol. den midnight g0 watch m0vie at GVmax, `casin0 r0yale 7`. nice nice nice! thumbs up f0r e m0vie~

n, we quarrelled AGAIN. yeahx. mum n sis w0ke up lahx. as ii bang e d0or. ended up slpin at 5am after evriting...

sun.. helped mum wif e hsew0rk. im a gd ger =) den mit juan dey all at tamp. headed d0wn simei after celest`s w0rk. mit up wif 4e3 n mr crabby ang! l0lx. had 0ur buffet dinner at han`s river. n a sh0ckin call ii received, had t0 w0rk frm tml 0nwards at suntec! g0d. haix. in a dilemma whether t0 w0rk 0r nt. as ba0beix 0so w0rkin frm tue 0nwards. den 0ur tym t0gether will be much m0re lesser c0s ii still g0t sch. haix. LOVE EU BAOBEIX. . .

t0ok l0tsa pics wif e gers. mish dem l0ads. wanna g0 KTV!!! d0do ji0 ppl pls~~!

2006-11-18T13:52:00.000+08:00

y d0esnt he n0e wat she wants?
y d0esnt he understand her?
e past 18mths, wat r dey t0gether f0r?
y isnt dere any telepathy between dem?
y. . y. . y. . . .???
s0me0ne PLS tell her y.
y such a simple ting ken b s0 c0mplicated?
y such a simple wish ken b s0 hard t0 understand?
she just wish f0r m0re time t0 acc him.
but he d0esnt n0e.
nth m0re t0 sae, nth m0re t0 carry 0n.
if dis is wats called e END, s0me0ne pls h0ld 0nt0 mie.

im fallin frm high ab0ve.. fallin HARD...

2006-11-18T01:35:00.000+08:00

t0day was a gr8 dae!

wasnt late f0r tut0rial dis m0rning! miracle * wh0oooh0oo.. fun d0in acc0unts =X l0lx. after sch did mbs pr0j. den went bac h0me waitin f0r prisc jie t0 c0me bac. 0n e way bac saw ziting 0utside jyss. t0k t0 her awhile. mish her l0ads. find 0ne dae g0 0ut ger, eu`ve g0t a date wif mie! =) fell asleep lahx. hahax. t0o tired. den we prepare n meet tricia n li r0ng at mrt stati0n. wif baby`rik0! g0sh. dey dressed her up all pinkish! cawaii nehx~~!

l0lx. went t0 far east kfc. meet yu ling n ell0na dere. had 0ur dinner n we went t0 sh0p awhile. reali awhile lahx. haven 1/2hr we leave n went t0 heeren lerx. t0ok pics n ne0prints! fun siax. l0lx. sh0p awhile den went cine. den went bac t0 uncle`s hse put rik0.

my hands damn pain n0w after carryin e HEAVY rik0. 0mg. its time she l0se weight lerx! hahax. but t0day she`s s0 cute. g0 everywhere ppl will l0ok at her n t0uch her. l0lx. but she abit scary lahx. dia0 tw0 ang m0h 0n train just n0w. hahax. shall p0st up e pics wen im free. veh tired wanna slp lerx..

2006-11-16T14:22:00.000+08:00

0kaex, guess wat?? ec0ns tut0rial was cancelled last min!! n n0w.. ii hav 5hrs 0f break b4 e nxt tut0rial starts!!!!! g0d~ f***in tut0r.

well well, guess its r0ttin time f0r mie. been hungry since 11am. hahax. nth f0r mie t0 eat. if ii n0e h0ney will be up early ii shld hav g0ne 0ver t0 his hse. at least dere is him t0 acc mie. at h0me?? n0 0ne. s0bs.

dunn0 wats wr0ng wif mie. been slpin f0r 12hrs f0r 2daex.. n im stil tired???? shld ii g0 n c a d0c?? c0s im tired. n my head keeps pain!! haix.... pr0jects pr0jects.. hate eu! anyway, e3 gatherin dunn0 im g0in n0t.. c0s my name is n0t 0n e list! sumh0w dey missed 0ut my name lahx. n dey already b0oked e table lerx. sadx. s0 dun blame mie girls if ii din g0.

my 0nline cl0thes finally arrived s`p0re!!!!!!!! wh0oohooox!! damn happi siax. n g0t 5% disc0unt s0mem0re. l0lx. w0nderin whether wanna buy e dress nt. hmMmx, shall wait till dis batch 0f cl0thes arrived b4 ii decide bahx. scarly ii cann0t wear. hahax. cant wait!

2006-11-15T21:32:00.000+08:00

* SICK *

had a heartful meal ytd wif family n c0usin. yupiex. b4 dat went t0 watch `material girls` wif darlinx. saw yiqi =)

yupiex. n headache has been kn0ckin 0n my d0or since ytd. s0 t0dae ii really cant take it. skipped stats lecture. acc darlinx g0 interview n den g0 his hse. sick s0 gd. darlinx 0rdered pizza wen ke0ng c0me 0so. l0lx.

pr0jects n h0mew0rk!! hate it!

2006-11-13T23:23:00.000+08:00

nightmares haunting.. w0rries.. wher`s e eu??

find it s0 hard t0 t0k t0 eu n0wadays. even just a simple call is like s0 disturbin t0 eu, s0 difficult t0 get 5mins 0ut 0f urr fun time.

playin while im mishin eu all e time.

playin while ii`ve g0t t0ns 0f w0rds t0 sae t0 eu.

playin while im plannin wen t0 meet eu, den eu`ll tel mie `ii`ve make plans wif frenx`.

playin while im waitin f0r urr call.

wats all dis wif playing? s0 many things t0 sae, but n0 time given t0 mie.

feelin s0 l0nely right n0w. . feelin s0 depressed. . feelin s0 *dumped. .

2006-11-13T22:12:00.000+08:00

fun family dinner just n0w!

went 0ut wif dad n mum, sis n c0usins, uncle n aunt t0 tm just n0w. had 0ur dinner at pizza hut =P damn full after eatin s0 many things. hahax. played wif babyy`rik0. g0d, she`s gettin m0re n m0re cute!!! juan, envy n0t?? wan c her?? hahax =P n she keeps making the piggy face making every0ne laughed. l0lx. but rik0 fell frm bed e 0ther dae. since den she keeps v0mitting. lucky her v0mitting st0pped. but she fell d0wn while walking just n0w. hahax. she`s s0 cute!! cawaii nehx~~

anyway, sis b0ught a hangbag. n im c0nsidering whether t0 buy e 0ther white 0ne. if n0t ii`ll share wif her e pink bag =) s0 many things t0 buy.. s0 lil m0ney. h0pe e pers0n will call mie n asked mie w0rk!!!

2006-11-12T19:24:00.000+08:00

hate walkin viv0city n0w. c0s it makes my feet hurts!

ytd went j0lene`s sal0n at stamf0rd hse. g0d, damn high class! find 0ur way dere. den she cut my fringe n asked mie t0 g0, din wanna charge mie =) thanks ger. den mie n ba0beix headed d0wn viv0city. find Tingtingg. mish her l0ads man. e hunt f0r pr0m cl0thes starts!

weee... f0und ba0beix blazer, heng e pers0n find staff c0up0n. den we g0t 3o% disc0unt =P hahax. n after buyin s0 much, ba0beix g0t TOPMAN disc0unt card! wakakakax. n he has a 2o% c0up0n wif mie. c0s its his birthday mth. hmMmx, wat shld ii use it 0n???

watched `e final call`. nt t0o bad e sh0w. abit gr0ss lahx, n zek ark. e bunch 0f frenx had t0 kill each 0ther in 0rder t0 save themselves. s0bs. but e endin`s sad. after m0vie ate carl`s jr. den went dh0by ghaut find ke0ng, jun n bin. ke0ng drive us g0 bed0k eat. after eatin we went bac while e rest g0 0ut again.

fri night..

sat night..

beautiful scenery..

c 0ur blue n 0range eyes?

ba0beix playin my puzzle bubble. l0lx.

scenery at viv0city. sent0sa n merli0n..

e cable cars! nice!

taken t0day n0on at ba0beix hse.
scary right e sky?

dere r lightnings t0o. but din take a pic 0f it.

2006-11-11T01:09:00.000+08:00

im s0 damn bl0ody TIRED!!~~

f0rgive mie f0r e vulgar. hahax. c0s im reali l0sin my mind. hasnt been slpin well n en0ugh ever since last week. sch is killing mie. 1-5pm, 9-6pm, 9-7pm. . . g0d. . just thinkin 0f all dis timings make mie feel s0 tired. pr0js n tut0rials r killin mie!! been pia-in my acc0unts pr0j e past 2weeks. yahx, 0ur gr0up kiasu, next yr`s deadline we n0w finishin part 1 already. haven started 0n OB. n MBS!! stupid MBS! =X

just came bac frm viv0city with d0do n juan. had fun sh0pping n WALKIN. c0s e place is s0 big. n e air-c0n is s0 c0ld~~ makin my feet c0ld till it kips crampin lahx. pain like hell. b0ught a necklace same as d0do. we`ve g0t same taste as usual. wahahax. just h0pin dat we dun wear it at e same time lyk always lahx. l0lx. tried necklaces, c earrings, shades n everything. kekex. FUN is wat ii describe t0day`s feelins.. =)

after reachin tamp meet h0ney n frenx. den dey g0 play billiard while ii g0 h0me. finalli finished GOONG!! stupid endin!! ii th0t ken c a baby. end up dun hav! sianx.. tink tml g0in viv0 again?? hahax. an0ther t0ugh walkin dae t0 g0. c0s h0ney wan find his pr0m cl0thes~~

btw, taka called mie asked mie g0 bac w0rk f0r nxt week. h0pe dey`ll put mie 0n w0rk f0r even 1 day ii`ll b veh happi! ii need CASH!

2006-11-09T14:06:00.000+08:00

jux nw de jian, adeline n shujuan came t0 my hse slack. hahax. f0r 45mins 0nly. played UNO lahx. nth t0 d0. hahax. den sis sae internet xpl0rer c0rrupted. damn it. dunn0 g0t virus 0r n0t. restart c0m den 0kaex.

later g0t jap tut0rial n lect. sianx. but aniway, tml g0nna mit up wif d0do n juan g0 viv0!~ l0ng time din c dey all lerx. n a class gatherin s0on wif 4e3s! mr crabby will 0so b dere! he`s treatin us. whahahax.

darlinx hasnt wake up yet. slpin like a pigggggg.....

2006-11-07T19:04:00.000+08:00

p0nderin 0ver s0me w0rds. w0rds 0f.. will mie n him last l0ng? will we b able t0 get past all e 0bstacles n still b 2gether 10yrs d0wn e r0ad?

startin frm n0w, if darlinx din d0 well f0r o levels, he`ll b enr0lled in e army. mie? will b in p0ly. in 2yrs time, wen he came 0ut 0f e army n after re-taking his o levels, ii`ll graduate frm p0ly n headin t0 maybe Uni?? by e time he graduates frm p0ly, if he can g0 t0 Uni, ii`ll graduate Uni n enter e s0ciety t0 w0rk. will 0ur times b sufficient f0r relati0nship? will we distanced since den?? if darlinx g0t int0 engineering n ii bec0me an acc0untant, will 0ur t0pics match? wat ii sae he wont b able t0 understand n vice versa.

dreaded t0 tink 0f all dis. f0r n0w, ii 0nly wish dat darlinx passed his o levels wif flying c0lours n we`ll den b able t0 g0 t0 e same sch n get rid 0f all e 0bstacles. . .

2006-11-06T17:41:00.000+08:00

bac wif s0mem0re ph0tos. im a ph0to-freak ii n0e! =X
e ne0prints r updated except f0r a small 0ne stil wif ba0beix. hahax. den e rest was taken ytd after m0vie `DOA`. nice sh0w. e girls in e m0vie seems like guys t0 mie. l0lx. c0s dey`re str0nger den e guys! g0d~

ba0beix sae mua bag in e pic l0oks s0 cute =P

big-headed creatures! n ii l0ve e cherry!
c0s 0f e cherry made mie l0se time t0 dec0rate e rest. s0bs.

taken in cabby.

0kaex, ii n0e im zi lian =X

dis pic l0oks scary t0 mie. l0lx.

kkaex, en0ugh 0f rubbish. wanna cut my fringe!! c.. its l0ng right??! h0pe wed can g0 cut. den ii can st0p pin-in up my fringe c0s its s0 ma fan~~

2006-11-05T13:53:00.000+08:00

finalli its babyy`s 18th bdae t0dae..

祝你生日快了老公!!

2nd yr celebrating urr bdae wif eu. m ii lucky 0r wat?? yupx. in between days n times, we b0th tried givin up 0n each 0ther when we cant take it anym0re e quarrels n e jeal0usy. but, each time such incident happens, we`ll always tink 0f ways n give in t0 each 0ther. many times urr e 0ne wh0 give in m0re. n f0r dis, ii wanna thank eu darlinx. never 0nce in my life did ii ever met s0me0ne like eu. s0me0ne wh0 d0te 0n mie e way eu d0, give in unc0nditi0nally n l0ve mie wh0le-heartedly. c0untless 0f girls better den mie f0r eu t0 ch0ose. but, im e lucky 0ne t0 get h0ld 0f urr hart. 谢谢你宝贝,谢谢你让我成为这世上最幸福的人。。=) tml eu`ll start urr 1st paper lerx. all e best n gd luck!! GAMBATTEH KUDASAI~~ ii believe eu ken d0 it derx! *mmuackkx*

anyway, fri`s night at chalet was terrible. n0thing t0 d0. c0s is lihan`s dad birthday. s0 we 0nly went t0 eat n play p0ker dere. left at 1+am as ii was t0o tired. ytd m0rning cant wake up. even if its 12+pm already. but had t0 wake up lahx. meet darlinx at 2.3opm. den we went t0 bugis. c darlinx`s birthday present. but cant seems t0 find it. t0ok ne0prins. s0rry h0ney ii din dec0rate finish all. c0s n0 time =( but even th0u dere r less dec0rati0ns but e ph0tos still lo0k nice =P

headed t0 street after dat. e pants dat ii saw e sh0p finally 0pen lerx. but darlinx dun like e pants. haix. felt s0 depressed c0s its his birthday n ii haven even b0ught him e pants he wanted. but end up we saw 1 pants at spade. wahahax. g0t darlinx size n he like it!!! b0ught it f0r him kekex. meet up with ke0ng passed him PSP. ii b0ught 2earrings. n we went back parc0. darlinx b0ught his PSP c0ver n mmc.

had dinner at aji-tei. e dessert was nice!! l0ve it! den we went bac tamp watch m0vie `e c0venant`. it wasnt as nice as wat ii expected. e ending abit sux lahx. t0ok cabby d0wn chalet. n dey played m0nop0ly? while ii watched tv. im their banker. hahax. but c0s ii was t0o engr0ssed with s.h.e 0n e tv, kena sc0lded by them. l0lx. t0ok pictures, j0kes, drink n play. dis is wat ii called CHALET.. =X

wen it passed midnight 12am, darlinx turn 18! wished him, den we cut e cake. kena sab0 by dem[which ii th0t nth t0 sab0 but im wr0ng]. use e ch0colate 0n e cake n asked mie n darlinx t0 eat 2gether. idi0tic. still t0ok d0wn e picture 0f it. hahax. den its like ph0to sessi0n lahx. evri0ne take ph0tos. evri0ne s0 0n. kekex. n e cake was nice th0u its very hard! like st0ne like dat wen darlinx first cut it. after all e fun, ii was t0o tired. fell asleep 0n darlinx arnd 2+am. tink ii slp 1hr bahx. c0s wen darlinx wake mie up, its 3+am lerx.

s0 n0w, im at ba0beix hse.. kekex. s0 fast, e dae im l0okin f0rward t0, has arrived. my babyy b0ii has gr0wn up, turned 18. ba0beix g0t his PSP lerx! s0 gd. hahax. n ii still did s0mething additi0nal f0r darlinx. lied t0 him n he din even realised! s0 ii managed t0 finish e present f0r him. . .

*** PICS UPDATED ***

ii give hubby`s derx present!

V harts R

e KEY of HEART . .

wrapped myself =)

fri night g0in chalet..

preci0us b0ii n mie..

sat while playin m0nop0ly

e birthday cake!~

cant c e sm0ke..

wishes wishes. may urr wish c0me true *

*h0ooo0o*

verlyn n birthday b0ii..

e bunch 0f br0thers..

e gang..

e cake is hard! c e strength dat baby needa use t0 cut..

sab0tage time~~

l0vin us..

darlinx`s hands damn l0ng right?? =X

after e cake-cutting sessi0n `

babyy`s present. stil g0t m0re but din take. hahax.

wif mua present n his preci0us PSP..

2006-11-03T21:13:00.000+08:00

daddy all0w mie t0 stay tml at ba0beix hse!!!! wh0ooohooox!!! daddy wan sui~~! =PpP

2006-11-02T21:10:00.000+08:00

decided t0 bl0g.. c0s after t0dae til sun, dun tink ii`ll b bl0ggin bahx. t0dae will b e w0rst mem0ries in my p0ly life. quarrelled n sh0uted at my classmates after tut0rial just n0w. well, its ONLI a pr0j gr0up like what eu all said. den wats e pt 0f keep saying eu all wanna draw l0ts n change gr0up?? fark. ytd every0ne agreed with e gr0upins. n LINDA DAT GROUP din stayed bac after lect. we gr0uped f0r eu. EU CANT BLAME US RIGHT??? THINK B4 WHAT EU SAY B4 SAYIN ME OK!! damn it.

im e 0ne wh0 sh0uted with linda. wh0 ask her s0 xialan. make mie d****n 0nly. but wanna ap0logise t0 ade, shujuan, dj n charlie. f0r sh0utin at dem t0o, esp charlie. g0men nasai~

jap was fun t0day. learnt h0w t0 intr0duce 0urselves n ask 0thers simple Qn. hehex. tml n sat will b at darlinx chalet. m0stly lahx =) h0pe daddy all0w mie t0 t0n 0vernight at darlinx hse 0n sat c0s ii wanna b e 0ne t0 c0untd0wn his bdae!!

waiting f0r my 0nline cl0thes t0 arrive!! cant wait t0 wear them!! where`s my dresses~!! my t0ps~! my bags[actually is sis`s bags. but nvm, we can share... ]~!

darlinx asked mie wat w0uld ii want f0r my birthday present next yr.. chalet 0r S.H.E`s c0ncert ticket $148[b0th r my dreams!]
guys, if eu were me, wat w0uld eu ch0ose??

2006-10-30T22:14:00.000+08:00

just bl0ggin t0 tell e ppl wh0m ii`ve t0k t0, c0nsoled n been angry at..

eu guys hav my supp0rt n0 matter wat happens. but ii really h0pe eu all can b str0ng n carry 0n. dis is 0nli an 0bstacle f0r e tw0 0f eu, as f0r e 0ther darling, eu tired lerx must tell mie =) but all 0f eu, smile pls. t0k t0 mie if eu guys need t0. dun keep things inside eu kaex?? l0ve eu guys! rmb dat verlyn is always behind eu all~

2006-10-29T17:29:00.000+08:00

ytd was a fun n happi dae. m0rnin g0t lecture, but ii din turn up f0r it. c0s ii was t0o tired. cant wake up. hahax. w0ke up met yiqi t0 pass her disc. ger, just h0pe eu really tink it thru carefully n make dis decisi0n. get bac t0 mie wen eu nid ani help 0r advice. takairex kaex??

den meet up wif ba0beix. went t0 bugis t0 buy ba0beix his pants. BUT, e sh0ps`s under ren0vati0n!!! s0bs. kinda sad lahx. c0s wan buy f0r him f0r his birthday derx. haix. n0w needa wait till e sh0p 0pen lerx. haix. nvm.

ate s0me snacks. den went t0 far east. ba0beix b0ught a necklace f0r sis f0r her bdae. went t0 cine after dat help ke0ng find his piggy bank. but dun hav. den we`ve n0wher t0 g0. sh0 went bac far east darlinx b0ught mie e t0p ii`ve eyed 0n =) xie xie ni darlinx.

den mit ke0ng n jun at h0ng k0ng cafe at cine. we ate 0ur dinner. n went t0 play games. c darlinx dey all d0ta till 12+am. den mit alan, his gf-t0-be, n bin. n we went t0 watch m0vie `0perati0n underc0ver`. n0t t0o bad e sh0w. kekex. watch da0 lai 0ready midnyte 3+am. t0ok cabby bac h0me.

2006-10-27T19:23:00.000+08:00

sis acc mie g0 t0wn t0dae. we t0k, we share evriting. had fun wif her =) l0ng tym since we went 0ut lyk dis. but a pity, n0 tym ferr ne0prints as she hav t0 rushed t0 w0rk. din even get t0 take a picture usin 0ur hp. s0bs. nvm. b0ught a hair-clip n a bracelet. l0ve it!! =P n sis b0ught l0tsa things. hahax. n we 0so saw things but n0 m0ney buy lerx.

nw at babyy`s hse. mish him t0o much lerx =X finally realised he`s e 0ne ii cant live with0ut with. after th0se 风风雨雨, 吵吵闹闹的日子, we`re stil 2gether, cant bear t0 give up each 0ther, cant bear t0 leave. b0th cant bear t0 leave e mem0ries behind n just walk away like that. thats c0s dere`re stil l0ve in 0ur harts. never wanna hav an endin, ii wan 0ur st0ry t0 c0ntinue, 10yrs d0wn e r0ad, 20yrs, ii h0pe we can still b able t0 walk hand in hand t0gether. lookin int0 each 0ther`s eyes, n smile like we`ve never smiled bef0re. dere`s never g0nna b ~~gd-byes~~ anym0re. . . =)

对眼泪说再见吧 ! !

2006-10-27T13:50:00.000+08:00

ytd had jap tut0rial. damn lahx, c0py e r0om din c0py e sch. end up findin my way 0ut in biz sch wen my tut0rial is at ENG sch!! spent 1/2 hr in e wr0ng sch findin a class dat dun exist. stupid me ryte?? heng ii saw d0reen n her frenx. n dey helped mie. called bac h0me n after c0untless 0f ph0ne calls, y0ungest sis finally t0ld me e c0rrect venue. rushed t0 ENG sch n f0und my class. 45mins late!! g0d, e teacher hear my explanati0n. but stil mark me absent. damn teacher. 1st tut0rial 0nly mahx. haix. walked in n settled myself d0wn beside le0n, wif every0ne`s eyes 0n me lahx. feel like digging a h0le in. lucky le0n is same class as me. if n0t ii`ll b a l0ner in class. jap`s fun!! hahax. e numbers killed me lahx. need t0 say dunn0 h0w mani w0rds t0 f0rm 143. l0lx. but pr0jects c0min up t0o. sianx. as well as tut0rial w0rk.... -.-ll

g0in 0ut s0on. say0nara ppl. bl0g wen ii`ve time. ja mata!!

2006-10-25T21:37:00.000+08:00

saw jyss band t0day 0utside century. felt abit weird dat dey`re playin dere. afterall, n0 0ne g0es dere unless t0 take cab 0r eat bahx. hahax.

saw s0me jyss ppl. saw kaili~!! mish her!! l0ng time din c her lerx. kekex. den saw yiqi 0so. s0 qia0. went t0 help sis buy glass b0ttle, n S.H.E is c0min t0 tampines plaza 0n e 29th!!!!! ii wanna g0 n c dem!! darlinx dun like lahx, sae s0 squeezy. but ii dun care! =X

RED DAE! hate it. 1st time it hurt s0 badly dat ii hardly can stand. felt s0 weak. thanks darlinx, f0r bein my pillar 0f e day. hahax. finally it started raining lerx. l0ve rainy days! rain m0re pls!~ kekex. l0ve e feeling 0f hidin under e c0vers 0f blanket during rainy days. it feels s0 warmth n nice...

sch FINALLY started. nth much. had my jap less0ns t0day. s0bs. lecture din n0e e ppl. 0nli n0e selina. but lucky same lecture as her =) tml will be my jap tut0rial. h0pe my class is nice. pray pray pray hard!

2006-10-25T11:40:00.000+08:00

at dat very m0ment, ii felt s0 blissed,

wif L-O-V-E . . . wif E-U . . .

n0thing matters t0 me n0w, except f0r eu by my side.

thank eu b0i, 0nce again, eu did it.

eu warm my hart wif l0ve, l0tsa l0ve.

ii never wanna sae ~~gd bye~~ again, never ever.

wanna be with eu till e end 0f tym,
till 0ur hair turns white,
till e day we die. . .

2006-10-24T20:22:00.000+08:00

wan him bac.. ii wan him bac.
y dun eu kare?? y wun eu understand?
tried tuh b hartless, tried nt t0 kare.
but ii fail, fails deeply.

脸上带着笑容, 心却碎了.

伤痛的心,漠糊了视线.
是雨水, 还是泪水, 巳经无法分辩.我的你, 巳越走越远.......

2006-10-24T02:24:00.000+08:00

ha0 xing ku, ha0 xing ku. . .
y0u shui neng zhi da0 w0 da0 di zai xiang shen me??
ni bu guan w0, mei ren li w0.

im fallin, but n0 0ne`s dere t0 catch mie fall.
wher`s evri0ne?? wher`s e kare??
ii nid l0ve, nid kare, nid c0ncern.
eu fail t0 d0 dat. . .

hart`s br0ken, pieces fallen.
hu`s dere t0 mend it bac? hu`s dere t0 h0ld mie bac?
l0st, l0st in darkness, 0nce again.
h0ld mua hands n lead mie 0ut.

wil eu. . . .??

我真的受伤了. . .

2006-10-22T20:38:00.000+08:00

eva since sh0 mani tingx happened, destiny changed, life has 0so changed ferr mie. n0 l0nger tinks dat havin fun ishx dat impt. in e past, ii leave evriting bhind- family, hsew0rk, n wat else. but e past few daex wen granny went in e h0sp. ii started tuh realised, its tym tuh gr0w up. ii HAV tuh gr0w up n0 matter h0w muchh ii reluctant tuh. enuff 0f plaein, enuff 0f fun. as each dae passes, daddy n mummy r gr0win 0lder, their health starts deteri0ratin.

w0nderin, wat if granny leaves us?? ii reali dunn0, wat wil happened tuh 0ur family, c0usins, uncles n aunts. dreaded tuh tink 0f dis dae. j0ey sis ishx enuff ferr us tuh take it. pls g0d, ii h0pe eu wun take awae 0ur preci0us granny, 0ur 0ne n 0nli granny left nw. . .

0ur family hav been d0wn 0n luck ferr yrs. since uncle passed awae wen ii was stil in sec sch, deaths neva fail tuh drag us d0wn. c0usin`s baby passed awae t0o. den. . . mum n c0usin. . . n c0s 0f dis, dad n mum had tuh b under medicati0n. den. . . granny passed awae. f0llowed by j0ey sis. n nw an0ther granny t0o.

d0 g0d hav tuh t0rture us dis wae?? takin awae 0ur bel0ved 0ne by 0ne. causin hurt n pain in us?? g0d, ii cant tink 0f it anim0re. . . . . . . . . .

2006-10-22T13:03:00.000+08:00

dun quite feel lyk bl0ggin.. mua bl0g seems sh0 dead. tagb0ard 0so DEAD.

finalli b0ught mua new swimsuit ytd. celebrated 0ur 17mth anni. t0ok ne0prints. TWICE. s0rriex darlinx. c0s e first tym ii press wr0ngly evriting. end up all n0rmal pics. veh sadx. sh0 t0ok sec0nd tym. went tuh find sis n c0usins dey all at marina. ask mie carri babyy`rik0 g0 buy swimsuit while dey g0 walk walk. dia0x. rik0 din even wan darlinx tuh carri. n ii cant try mua swimsuit c0s she 0nli wans mie. had tuh c0ax her lahx. hahax. n she cry lyk mad wen ii came 0ut c0s e cust0mers dat came int0 e sh0p carried her. hurried tuh find mua sis wif rik0 kip cryin. ppl th0t it was 0ur babyy??

aniwae, its a tirin dae. fun, quarrels, sadness, anger. all s0rts 0f feelins.

t0dae im a GD GER. c0s ii helped mum tuh change evri0ne`s bedsheets n helped wif e hse ch0res. kekex. felt sh0 happi. n tired t0o =X den darlinx t0ok cab n fetch mie tuh his hse. went swimmin. n slack l0rx. b0di achin. hahax.

tml sch startin lerx. haix. sianx. dun feel lyk g0in sch lahx!!!!!!! but heng tue n thur n0 sch. wahahahax =P

2006-10-20T21:13:00.000+08:00

YEPPIEX~~~!!!!! grandma`s discharged!! =)

evridae slp 4-5hrs 0nli. n0w finalli ken rest lerx. t0dae 8am w0ke up n t0ok cabby tuh bed0k l0mpang ah bee jie jie. den we went d0wn TTSH. n ah ma sae she ken g0 bac 0ready as her brain scans n thr0at scans r 0kaex. shall wait ferr an0ther app0intment n den grandma had tuh check her hart n bl0od vessels lerx. but e d0c t0ld mie dat if she g0rt str0ke in e future, it wil b m0re seri0us den b4. haix.

went tuh temple n bai j0ey sis 1st. den t0ok cabby tuh uncle`s hse. plae wif babyy`rik0. make her slp, den ii was slpy t0o. sh0 t0ok a nap. yahx. darlinx din eat lahx. sh0 ii da ba0 gib him =P

2006-10-20T01:36:00.000+08:00

earli in e m0rnin mit irene sis at inter n we t0ok cabby tuh san qing g0ng tuh bai j0ey sis. f0lded all e incense paper b4 burnin it tuh her. den t0ok cabby again tuh bed0k l0mpang ah bee sis n headed d0wn tuh TTSH, wher ah ma ishx stayin.

b0ught her f0od n desserts n evriting. ate 0ur brunch t0o. n prisc jie ask mie acc her tuh t0a pay0h. went dere buy watch. n 0so b0ught cups n mani m0re tingx. ii b0ught a necklace t0o. g0rt ma0 ma0!! kekex =P

den mie, prisc jie n tricia mei g0 mrt stati0n n ii mit juan dere. went tuh bugis wen sis left ferr li0n dance. its JIU WANG YE dae again! b0ught 3 jeans sh0rts!!! l0lx. ferr us 3 sistax lahx. hahax. heng mua sis ken wear e size ii b0ught =) c0s its cheap cheap!! $1o 0nli n ii lyk it!

find yiqi at OG. waited ferr her tuh finish w0rk. n d0do, huili n kaiying came d0wn n mit us t0o =) had dinner at aji-teh. nt bad lahx. but nt veh nice seri0usly. hahax. n exp.. dia0x. while yiqi n huili went tuh buy black sh0es e rest 0f us went bac h0me.

g0rt bac tym table lerx. s0bs. thur had tuh studi til 6pm!! in between g0rt 4hrs break. haix. sianx.. g0nna g0 slp nw. stil nid wake up earli g0 d0wn h0sp. tatax evri0ne. takairex!

2006-10-18T23:38:00.000+08:00

granny in h0sp. h0pe she`ll b 0kaex..

2006-10-17T17:49:00.000+08:00

bac frm sh0ppin wif nu-er =)

nu-er b0ught a dress, nice nice. hahax. n ii b0ught e jacket dat ii eyed 0n l0ng ag0. its sellin at 0nli $8.9o!! g0sh.. cheap cheap~ t0k wif her, alm0st evriting under e sun. l0lx. fun fun fun.. kekex. had 0ur luffs wen takin ne0prins. whahahax. climb here n dere. den nu-er g0 bac sch while ii went tuh take mua permanent c0ntact lens. BLUE COLOUR!! while, at first c abit scary lahx. c0s different frm th0se dat ii usualli iwear. c0s dis ishx single c0lour. but frm far stil 0kaex =)

mishh mua h0ls. dun wan sch tuh re0pen lahx. haix. haven had enuff fun!

2006-10-15T12:13:00.000+08:00

happi bdae sis!!! l0ve ya~~

kekex. was 0ut all dae ytd. went tuh marina sq wif h0ney. n dere, we started g0in int0 branded sh0ps. even th0se dat was t0o expensive ferr us tuh aff0rd we went in n take a luk. l0lx. c0s mayb h0ney wil b g0in dinner t0dae. sh0 had tuh luk ferr f0rmal wear. n 0so e cl0thes n0w wil b ferr pr0m derx.

was lukin arnd n havin fun. hahax. den headed d0wn tuh plaza sing wher we c0llect 0ur m0vie tix n went in ferr m0vie `death n0te`. had tuh wear specs ferr quite sumtymx. frm last sat til n0w. each tym ii wear c0ntact lens, mua eyes hurt n started tuh reddened. ii w0nder if its due tuh e haze?? haix. death n0te was nice!!!!!!!!!!!! but halfwae thru e m0vie e screen suddenly shut 0ff lahx. den c0mmotion all dat. but e technical ppl sae wil resume e m0vie in 2mins tym. l0lx. hai we all tink dat nid wait ferr death n0te 2 tuh c0me 0ut den ken c e endin. l0lx.

aniwae, e m0vie ii tink reali g0rt part 2 bahx. h0pe it d0es!! c0s e st0ryline was interestin n unique~~ =P

den went tuh mit de0n n g0rt mua cheque!! payslip!! finalli ii g0rt it!! whahahax. sh0 happi. g0 taka buy vanilla pancake wif red bean =) n h0ney frenx kalled n sae dey`re g0in d0wn e weddin dinner. sh0 last min sh0ppin ferr h0ney. managed tuh buy a t0p at TOPMAN. wanna buy tie derx. but end up din. g0nna luk fer betta 0nes. headed tuh wisma beetlebug, saw xia0ling n eileen. kekex. h0ney b0ught his f0rmal sh0es dere. g0rt 15% disc0unt. after all e sh0ppin, I DIN GET TUH SHOP MINE FER E 1ST TYM ON SAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =X

hahax. nw ii n0e h0ney`s pain, mua g0 arnd seein mua tingx wif mie evri week. l0lx. ii jux went arnd t0wn wif him sh0ppin ferr his stuffs n im tired. hahax. weak mie~~

den went tuh ate dinner, den mit c0usins n sis n mani m0re at century sq ferr an0ther m0vie `silk`. nice nice!!! scary summ0re. hahax. t0tal g0rt 12 0f us. ken g0 fight 0ready. l0lx. den walked bac h0me wif sis dey all.

fun dae, happi dae =) l0ved dem all.

2006-10-13T17:01:00.000+08:00

ii cant luk int0 urr eyes n sae th0se w0rds, c0s ii reali l0ve eu...

im s0rriex, cant bear tuh leave.

yet, hurtin w0rds r wat ii sae.

y wld ii treat eu dis wae??

e reas0n ishx simple..

ii wan eu tuh held mie in urr arms tytely, make mie feel l0ved by eu . . .

2006-10-12T22:41:00.000+08:00

ytd was fun, t0dae was 0so FUN!!!

met up wif d0do, juan n celest 0n e bus. n we headed d0wn tuh cine level 8 ferr k. whahahax. pity e waitress. c0s e tidbits we kip finishin it. n e p0or ger had tuh c0me in n refill it all e tym. e last tym tink she fed up bahx, straightawae place 4 b0wls 0f tidbits n leave e r0om. we was lyk luffin all e wae. l0lx =P

had fun singin k. n im sh0 happi dat darling`yiqi ken c0me n find us!! mit her at cine n we g0 heeren. sh0p arnd. den g0 taka find d0do derx supervis0r dey all. had 0ur dinner dere. nice nice yummy!! chatted, den headed 0ff bac h0me lerx.

aniwae, 7dwarfs+evil queen, hu ken make it 0n nxt thur, 19/1o, c0ntact mie pls. ii nida 0rganise e 0utin.

sis helped mie kalled manager n sc0lded him. c0s til t0dae, he STIL HAVEN SEND MIE MUA PAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
g0d, its been 1week 0ready, fark. n we threaten tuh kall e p0lice lahx if dey din send mie. but dey sae dey`ll transfer tml. s0bs. dat means nxt m0n den ken get e m0ney!!!!!!!!!! h0w m ii g0in tuh get thru sis bdae! haven buy her pressies yet lahx..... =(

* PICS UPDATED *

l0ved dis pic =)

d0do felt sh0 strangled. l0lx.

evil queen, y r eu e 0ne hu ishx cr0wned?? =X

2006-10-11T21:37:00.000+08:00

bac frm family 0utin.

0verall?? FUN!!!!!!!!~~~~~~

aniwae, mit nu-er at inter, but b0th mie n darlinx was late lahx, ferr 45 `sec0nds`. hahax. s0rriex nu-er, made eu waited pathetically. but nxt tym 0utin, dun b sh0 punctual!!

had 0ur brunch at pizza hut. n darlinx 0rdered t0o muchh til we had tuh squeeze all e f0od in. l0lx. den headed d0wn tuh ECP ferr cycling!! heng e weather was gd, c0s it seems lyk its g0in tuh rain, but it din =)

rented e bike dat 2 ppl ken cycle, cycle wif darlinx while nu-er had her 0wn bike. l0lx. c0s we din try e bike b4. whahax. reached bed0k jetty, den had 0ur c0conut drinks, den wanna g0 big splash, but e r0ad was bl0cked. sh0 0n e wae bac we settled d0wn 0n th0se c0ncrete chairs b4 returnin e bikes. had sh0 muchh fun =P

n, tankx nu-er ferr e burberry p0lo tee ferr his la0dou. n ii simplyy l0ve e bracelet eu br0ught ferr mie!! xie xie ni!! intended tuh buy 1 bracelet, c0s ii l0st mine e 0ther dae. but cant find ani dat ii lyk, den v0ila~~ eu gimme 0ne dats sh0 nice!! g0d!!

2006-10-10T20:47:00.000+08:00

bac frm bugis, wif darlinx acc mie. darlinx b0ught his slippers, n ii b0ught mua grey vest!!! YEPPIEX! hahax. sh0 happi tuh buy tingx. dat damn bl0ody b0ss stil haven transfer mie mua pay!!!! fark. aniwae, realised dat its a WONDERFUL ting dat ii ken buyy cl0thes. hahax. darlinx asked mie, `wil eu b happi if eu g0rt m0ney 0r cl0thes dat eu lyk?`. n mua reply was, ii`ll b happi wif cl0thes. l0lx. weird mie ryte?? ii n0e m0ney ken buy e cl0thes ii lyk lahx. but if ii g0rt m0ney, sure spent til n0 m0ney buy cl0thes derx =P aniwae, jux went ferr a swim durin 8pm. burrrrr... its c0ld. but, ii tink we din swim ferr l0ng b4 ii felt weird. n dats wen ii quickly get up frm e p0ol lahx. s0rriex darlinx.

juan, tink eu ken c0me mua hse lerx. tink babyy`rik0 might b stayin here?? hahax. c0s n0 0ne takin kare 0f her sh0 mayb she`ll b put at mua hse ferr e tym bein. l0lx. happi?? whahahax.

2006-10-10T12:27:00.000+08:00

tml wil b mua family dae wif nu-er n la0pa!! hahax. after which mayb g0in celeb bin`s bdae.

thur wil b ktv dae wif d0do, juan n celest!! wh0ooho0.. sh0 l0ng din c dem lerx. aniwae, ferr e rest 0f e gang, dun b s0rriex dat eu cant make it, ii understand dat eu all hav sch. but ii`ll try n fix 0ne m0re dae ferr all 0f us tuh gather n hav a perfect `girls dae 0ut!` yeahx? mishh e rest 0f eu!

fri n sat, wil b celebratin sis bdae. g0in sent0sa?? ktv?? haven c0nfirm lahx. hahax. but its g0nna b a big gang 0f us.. since a l0ng tym eva since we gather lyk dat. lukin ferward tuh it.

n lastly, shall make 0ne dae free wher we 3sistax n mayb 0ur bfs wil g0 jur0ng east ferr a swim. wanna g0 Wild Wild Wet lahx. but james dun wan. idi0tic him =X

hahax, schedule`s all fully b0oked. my g0d. n ii`ll neva ferget tuh leave daex ferr eu darlinx, tuh teach eu urr chem n maths!!

2006-10-08T22:11:00.000+08:00

went swimmin jux n0w. saw a mad guy lahx. went arnd askin ppl `eu n0e h0w tuh swim freestyle n0rt??`. craziee. aniwae, he swims til damn farni, n mie n babyy was lyk, wat e hell ishx he swimmin?? l0lx. evri0ne wh0 was at e p0ol luffed, even e kids.

damn tired after swimmin. was darker n0w. but a few daex later, im stil bac tuh e whyte mie. l0lx. tml wil b j0ey`s 49th dae. mishh HER. ha0 xiang ta. suddenly, a pang 0f sadness n mem0riex starts fl0odin mua mind. st0p it!!!!!!!!!!! dun wish tuh tink abt it!!

ii dun wanna cry muaself tuh slp, dun wanna tink abt HER.
sis, h0w ii wish eu were stil here.
ii reali wish all dis were jux a dream,
wher wen ii wake up tml, ii`ll stil c eu alive,
standin infr0nt 0f mie, smilin lyk eu 0wayyx d0.
dere`re sh0 mani tingx eu pr0mised us,
n eu din fulfil it, n... eu`re g0ne.
tuh a w0rld full 0f suspense.
r eu g0in 0n happily?? hav eu met grandma, grandpa?
eu neva left 0ur harts, wanna ap0logise here tuh eu,
dat its been a l0ng tym since ii went tuh pray tuh eu.
but dun w0rriex, tml im g0in d0wn,
wif e rest 0f e family, n eu`ll c us all.

we LOVE eu JOEY, rmb we 0wayyx d0, even til n0w,
it`ll neva change, e l0ve wil 0wayyx b dere. . .

2006-10-08T17:26:00.000+08:00

VIVOCITY-- e largest sh0ppin mall in s`p0re!

went ytd =) th0t ken make it tuh e 0penin 0f GV Viv0city.

end up dere r sh0 mani ppl dere 0ready wen we reach dere.

sh0 mie n deariex b0ught tix `w0rld trade center` at 11.3opm.

it ishx GVmax, e largest cinema in s`p0re.

wh0oohoo!! dere r 0so GV Gold n evriting.

g0nna g0 GV Gold wen we g0rt m0ney.

c0s 1tix c0st $3o. l0lx.

aniwae, e sh0ps dere arent fully 0pened yet.

but its huge lahx.

all types 0f sh0ps, branded n evriting.

e sh0ppin mall even hav TANGS! 0mg.

n s0me sh0ps r newly launched in s`p0re!!

mie n deariex g0rt l0st in e sh0ppin mall lahx.

dunn0 wher we were at c0s e sh0ps g0 r0und n r0und.

but, DO NOT GO DERE WIF A HUNGRY STOMACH..

n0 f0od ferr eu!! e f0od c0urt aint 0pen.

same g0es tuh all e restaurents.

after expl0rin, went tuh find ting ting at anna sui.

mishh her sh0 muchh!! n she makes mie tink 0f ziting..

den we went tuh marina sq.

ate 0ur lunch, n ii b0ught a t0p.

c0ntinue tuh sh0pped. til evenin tym n we went bac tuh viv0city.

b0th 0f us r tired. slack at e seats dere.

ii fell asleep. l0lx.

den g0 find tingting again.

til 11.3opm, we went int0 e cinema.

g0sh, e 1st m0ment wen ii stepped in,

ii feel its sh0 n0rmal.

den, we had tuh walked d0wn e stretch 0f stairs tuh find 0ur seats.

as e ppl started fillin in e cinema, ii luk bac.

its big!! acc0modated 6oo ppl!!!

e screeeeeeeeeeeennn ishx 0so bigggggg!!

n e seats r slanted, sh0 e fr0nt ppl wun b bl0ckin urr view.

e seats r l0ng, even deariex 0so ken rest his head 0n it.

dere`s enuff legr0om tuh walk, dun w0rriex.

n e handles ken b pulled up~

WTC was a gr8 m0vie! t0uched mua hart wif their c0urage.

but felt disgusted byy their hurts.

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since fri, e last dae 0f w0rk, s0rt 0f mish e w0rkin daex.

ken earn m0ney, tym passed faster.

n ii felt lyk a `human`.

n0w?? slackin all dae.

felt lyk jelly, sh0 w0bbly n all, nth tuh d0.

haix. haven get mua pay.

n ii spent 0ut 0f mua budget.

ii mishh mua frenx, mua darlings!!

wh0 wanna g0 ktv? juan?? huili??

2006-10-04T23:58:00.000+08:00

bac frm w0rk.

"steal" sh0 mani f0od frm w0rk. l0lx.

brin bac m0chi, ferr mie n family, n ba0beix.

1 piece $1.8o.

ken eu imagine ii t0ok 18piece????

hahax. damn exp. n ii t0ok free jellies 0so.

gib s0me tuh d0do 0so. kekex.

h0ney came at evenin tym n waited til ii finish w0rk at 9.3opm.

xie xie ni darlinx!!

den t0ok e durian m0oncakes frm shar0n`s bf.

br0ught sh0 mani f0od h0me.

n it makes mie feel sh0 happi wen mum n ah ma ate e m0oncake,

n dey sae its nice!! =)

but, mua pay wasnt enuff ferr mie tuh use lahx.

haix.

th0u its 0ver a th0usand, but after clearin mua debts,

pay mua c0ntact lens, savins, gib dad n mum $$,

ii din left muchh ferr muaself. s0bs.

felt lyk ii w0rked ferr nth. haix.

aniwae, happi bdae tuh desm0nd--4 0ct `o6.

n happi bdae tuh sweebin--5 0ct `o6.

ii wanna g0 KTV!!! hu wanna g0 kall mie!!

n g0 z0o, n g0 WILD WILD WET!!

2006-10-03T23:44:00.000+08:00

sun.. went tuh bugis wif babyy. we had squabblins again.

walked apart, fr0nt n bac..

0n e streets wher ppl r all arnd, he was n0rt beside mie.

mua hart s0ften, n ii held his hand..

tingx was fine again..

been gibin in al0t.. but isnt it supp0sed tuh b lyk dis?? =)

walked arnd, saw tingx dat ii cant buy =(

h0w ii wish ii was a milli0naire yeahx??

went tuh taka n find d0do.

e 1st ting she t0ld mie.. `eu all luk lyk devils`

0mg, wasnt a gd ting yeahx??

hahax. we R DEVILS~~!!! kareful d0do!!

l0lx. lame -.-ll

b0ught 8 green tea m0oncakes frm her.

made her sh0 happi. hahax. ii sh0 gd ryte?? kekex.

den b0ught e vanilla pancake.

went tuh eat swensens. den g0 watch `r0b-b-h0od` at cine.

e babiee sh0 cute!!! 0mg!!!

makin mie w0nder if ii`ll eva had such a cute babiee!!

hahax. aniwae, it was a gr8 m0vie, acti0ns n all.

t0uchin, c0s ii cried al0t thru e m0vie =X

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t0dae was mua 0ff dae, thur g0nna 0ff again.

den............. FRI ISHX E LAST DAE!!!

YEAHX!! lukin ferward tuh get mua PAY!!

jux n0w went tuh babyy`s hse n we g0 century watch `stay alive`.

n0rt bad lahx. n0rt veh scary. hahax.

mie wearin sis specs. hahax. nerd!!

2006-10-01T01:12:00.000+08:00

was sick durin w0rk t0dae.. had fever, felt nausea, n mua head was painful.

but.. ii stil managed tuh survive e nxt 8hrs at w0rk frm 2+pm.

n e farni ting was, wen ii wanna 0ff, dey dun all0w.

wen ii dun wanna 0ff, dey asked mie tuh 0ff??

ii was sick!! n dey asked mie tuh w0rk tml!!

FARK dat bl0ody c0mpany.

e ppl dere r insane.

HACK!

ii dun kare if ppl r w0rkin tml. BUT IM NORT GOIN WORK!!

if mua fever subsided, shall g0 0ut wif deariex tuh bugis n t0wn~~

2006-09-28T23:58:00.000+08:00

ytd was mua an0ther 0ff dae. yahx. kip 0ff-in n0n-st0p yeahx??

m0rnin at ba0beix hse, din managed tuh swim lahx. s0rriex darlinx. c0s we w0ke up quite late. sh0 after eatin nida prepare g0 0ut lerx. s0rt 0f quarrelled wif him. im s0rriex, din mean it. but im sh0 glad, dat 0ur quarrels din turn 0ut big. its 0nli tantrum lahx. aniwae, we went tuh marina sq kb0x tuh sing 0ut harts 0ut. b0mb-in all e new s0ngs!!!! who0ooho0x~~~

hahax. after dat, we walked arnd, n ii saw 1 dress which ii lyk al0t!! its 0n sale lahx. but ii din buy. n0 m0ney haven take pay yet.... s0bs... =(

watched m0vie `lil miss sunshine`. 0mg. eu cant believe h0w e gerx.. includin mie.. luffed in e cinema. hahax. c0s e sh0w was damn farni!!!! l0lx. n e last part.... eu wun b able tuh st0p luffin! even after ii finished e sh0w, all 0f us r stil luffin. whahahax...

tml w0rkin, dunn0 sat n sun ken w0rk nt. h0pe ken, c0s ii wan reached mua target amt 0f m0ney. dun wan w0rk c0s ii wan pei h0ney, tink he g0in craziee c0s he wan mie acc him g0 swimmin!!! l0lx.

2006-09-27T00:39:00.000+08:00

bac frm w0rk, currently at ba0beix hse. stayin 0vernyte!!

daddy all0w lahx, but he sae ii`ve g0rt limited chances tuh stay here. n ii`ve used up 2chance lerx. sh0 0nce ii reach e n0. 0f chances, dats it, n0 stayin 0ver ferr mie anim0re. s0bs.

tml`s mua 0ff dae. AGAIN.. yahx, aniwae, ferget it lahx. dat st0opid ger was late ferr w0rk ytd n t0dae!! makin mie damn angry. we start w0rk at 9.3oam, she came at 1o.o5am ytd. t0dae??? bl0ody hell late ferr 2hrs?? leavin mie al0ne in sh0p tuh set up evriting??? fark eu bytchh..

aniwae, tml g0in swimmin, den g0 sing k wif ba0beix, mayb g0in watch m0vie?? hmMmx, hahax. im br0ke lahx. c0untd0wn tuh nxt fri wher its mua last dae 0f w0rk, mua pay dae, n mua last dae tuh c dat GER!!!

PICS UPDATED *

0n 0ur 16mth anniversary...

cute?? hahax. ii din erase pr0perly. sh0 s0me speckles r 0n 0ur face.

2006-09-24T18:45:00.000+08:00

spent all mua 0ff daex wif ba0beix. g0 swimmin, g0 0ut, watch tv, slack at his hse.

ytd went 0ut tuh marina sq. den g0 walk walk n plae p0ol. mua p0ol sux after sh0 l0ng din plae lerx =X grab a bite at e f0od c0urt den g0 t0wn find d0do lerx. wait ferr her tuh break. den we g0 eat 2gether. acheri she eat lahx. hahax, c0s mie n ba0beix n0rt hungry. den we headed 0ff tuh heeren. den 8.3opm we g0 watch `miami vice`. st0opid sh0w. dun understand wat dey t0kin. rated it 3/5.

den we went h0me lerx.

steven kalled jux n0w n t0ld mie tuh g0 w0rk tml. tink shld b w0rkin al0ne wif dat bytch. damn her. asked dem ferr e wh0le week schedule. but dey sae haven c0nfirm??? scarly ii w0rk tml 0nli. haix. ii wan m0ney m0ney m0ney lahx!!

mua preci0us nu-er g0 h0ngkong lerx. s0bs. hahax. aniwae, ii h0pe after mua w0rk ends 0n 6 0ct, ii ken mit up wif all mua PRECIOUS ferr e last tym b4 ii start schh.. wan g0 ktv!!! =P

2006-09-22T19:14:00.000+08:00

jux finish swimmin at ba0beix hse. learnt al0t 0f tingx t0dae. kekex.

den watch `ai sha 17` in ba0beix br0 r0om. excitin!!! sh0ckin lahx. c0s use pr0ject0r tuh c. den e s0und system damn p0wer. drag ba0beix watch wif mie. l0lx.

im hungry!! later eatin spaghetti ferr dinner... yummilici0us~~

tml g0in 0ut wif h0ney. mayb tuh marina square bahx. den g0 t0wn find d0do, acc her eat dinner, bu ran ta hen sianx. dun hav mie pei her. l0lx.

2006-09-22T12:55:00.000+08:00

t0dae til sun, wil b mua 0FF DAE..

y??

c0s ytd sales was bad.

n 0ur pay ishx $7o per dae.

c0mpany n0 m0ney pay.

sh0, ask mie take 0ff.

WTF????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

damn dat bl0ody ger, damn dat bl0ody c0mpany.

0f all 4ppl w0rkin dere, y mie???

c0s, e ger bacstab mie!!!

FARK.

$21o g0ne. t0tally g0ne.

I WANNA WORK!! I WAN $$$!!!!

2006-09-18T23:43:00.000+08:00

finalli im here tuh bl0g. BUT, NOBODI MISHES MIE!!!

s0bs... ='(

ii`ve MANAGED tuh clinch ONE OFF DAE.

acheri ishx 3daex, but ii gib 0ne tuh de0n. N...

dat bl0ody BYTCHHHH snatch mua 2nd OFF DAE ON WED!!!

evridae w0rk frm 9.3o-9.3o.

reach h0me dunn0 wat tym 0ready.. slp a few hrs, n nida wake up again ferr w0rk. wif lack 0f slp, n slept 0n e train 0n e wae tuh w0rk.

reach w0rk. saw dat bl0ody bytch. 2dae stil bacstab mie, sae tingx dat ii DIN EVEN DO!!! FARK EU FARKIN BYTCH!!!

cashier l0st $1oo. n dat farkin bytch wan us tuh pay??? she 0so g0rt t0uch e cashier but she claims dat she wun make mistake!! knn!!!

im reali angry lahx. makin mie fed up durin w0rk.

cried 0n e wae tuh w0rk.
read e bl0g.
dunn0 y, e tears jux fall.
n ii suddenly mish HER al0t.
ii wan her bac by mua side.
in e past, she`s 0wayyx dere,
listen tuh mua c0mplains n evriting.
n0w dat she`s g0ne, e feelin`s terrible.
its up tuh eu tuh blame mie 0r wat.
im tired 0f it.
ii dun wish tuh sae much.
jux leave mie al0ne.
sc0ld mie all eu wan.
ii dun KARE anim0re.

tired, sick, stressed, fed up, attitude *

im s0rriex darlinx...

2006-09-13T23:54:00.000+08:00

1st dae 0f w0rk n0rt t0o bad lahx. but e st0opid manager. asked mie 9am mux reach. ii reached at 8.45am. end up e rest 0f e staff 9.15am lidat den reach. n ii waited ferr sheena til 1o.1oam b4 ii went intuh taka!!! wtf. wasted mua preci0us tym tuh slp!!

e f0od was delici0us. n minus-in mua break tym, ii 0nli nida w0rk 11hrs. minus e tym ii drink, eat n t0k.. ii dunn0 h0w mani hrs ii reali w0rk. hahax. c0s its reali relax dere lahx. fun n evriting.

tankx ba0beix ferr c0min d0wn tuh fetch mie after w0rk even wen eu had exams. but PLS DUN DO DAT AGAIN!! im s0rriex ii din hear urr explanati0n n ii blame eu ryte awae. dui bu qi!!

st0opid TP webby!!! ken0t g0 in n check mua results!!! evri0ne hav checked their results 0ready!! n ii stil dunn0 mine siax. fark! nida wake up earli tml m0rnin n check lerx.

2006-09-12T12:11:00.000+08:00

damn bl0ody tired. slept 0n e train while 0n e wae tuh taka jux n0w?? standin?? yahx. n mua legs kip gibin wae. hahax. h0pe e ppl arnd mie din luff at mua acti0ns. f0und a j0b[tankx tuh d0do]. n ii cant g0 in after reachin taka at 8.5oam!!! c0s ii dun hav e staff pass. kalled mua manager. n he said passed him e printed IC n ii ken g0 bac! start j0b tml! idi0tic.

b0ught 2 bracelets 0n e wae h0me. hahax. n ii saw 1 NORMAL t0p-$1o4.9o!!! bl0ody exp. hahax. waitin ferr babyy tuh finish exams. den acc him h0me.

wun b bl0ggin muchh til ii end mua w0rk 0n 6 0ct. c0s im w0rkin FULL SHIFT WIF NO OFF DAEX frm n0w 0n. 9am-9.3opm~~

wish mie gd luck yeahx?? g0nna b tired n dead after dat =X s0rriex darlinx ii cant watch m0vies n g0 0ut wif ya lerx. c0s im lackin 0f slp... dui bu qi!!

gallery-mie n darlinx, babyy rik0 n tianeng!!

at babyy`s hse..

accept mie ferr hu ii m..

dun eva d0ubt mua l0ve ferr HIM *

happily 2gether..

babyy`s breakfast.. he g0rt xtra bread n h0td0g!!

n dis ishx mine. =P

"ii wanna eat DIS!"

"im fallin but ii lyk it.."

"c.. im sh0 cute ryte??"

"ehh? wats dat? ii wan.."

"hmMmx? dun hav 0ready?"

"humph! ii sae ii wan dat!"

tr0phy 0f 2oo6 traditi0nal li0n dance c0mpetiti0n

durin e t0p 8..

finals..

tianeng n jingshan

e champi0ns-tianeng li0n & drag0n dance!

2006-09-11T12:37:00.000+08:00

dese few daex had been kipin babyy c0mpany. scared later if ii reali start w0rk n0 tym ferr him lerx. n n0w, babyy ishx currently stayin at his br0 c0ndo. til dec ii tink. but ii tink he m0stly stayin here ferr gd?? l0lx. its betta here!! ii lyk it t0o. nice view n evriting. kekex.

sat went 0ut wif him tuh marina sq. n ii b0ught 2heels!! hahax. cheap cheap siax. $4o+ ferr 2 =) n babyy made mie sh0 happi. ii buy tingx he din sc0ld. n we were lyk mad lidat luffin all e wae. kekex. n ii went int0 all e branded sh0ps tuh find e t0p dat ii wan. f0und 0ne. but din managed tuh buy it =( but im g0in tuh buy it 0ne dae!!! =P

ate shihlin, share wif babyy. den we went d0wn tuh cafe n mit ke0ng, alan, bin, jun, andy, lihan n his stead. sing ktv dere. n celebrated alan bdae. hahax. he kena sab0 lyk mad siax. l0lx.

den arnd 11+pm mie n babyy went tuh 8o2 tuh eat n den babyy send mie h0me.

sun, which ishx ytd, went tuh babyy hse earli in e m0rnin. n ii made breakfast ferr him!!! yummy-lici0us~~ hahax. dats wat ii feel lahx. l0lx. 0wayyx buyy breakfast ferr him. n0w dis ishx e 1st tym ii made 0ne fer him. kekex.

after eatin we went tuh far east tuh change mua leather b0ots. felt dat e size wasnt ryte. but e ger insist its e c0rrect size. n dey lied tuh us. babyy was angry n argued wif dem til dey g0rt nth tuh sae. end up?? din managed tuh change it =X

went tuh marina s0uth n mit e same gang[0n sat derx] ferr steamb0at. den went arcade awhile. dey had sh0 muchh fun siax. hahax. was late ferr m0vie `hei bai da0` at 9.15. we reached at 9.45pm siax. den c e m0vie ferr 1hr 0nli -.-ll heng ii ken g0 in. c0s its M18 sh0w mahx. den babyy frenx sh0 bad siax. sae buy m0nster hse tix gimme if ii cant g0 in. hahax.

after e m0vie ii left mua leather b0ots in e cinema. rushed bac n take it siax. den babyy send mie h0me. asked dad if ii ken g0 babyy hse stay. n he sae yeshx!!! hahax. damn happi siax. l0lx. we were hungry. sh0 ii c0oked maggie ferr e b0th 0f us. blast music in babyy`s r0om n he plaed his game. n ii fell asleep. hahax. t0o tired.

sh0 n0w, im at his hse waitin ferr MS HUANG SHUJUAN tuh get ready as we`re g0in d0wn tuh aljunied ferr a j0b interview!! its 2pm n its g0in 1pm n0w!! tink we`ll b late. c0s we stil nid take bus at aljunied, n walked in =X

later c0min bac tuh babyy hse n we`re g0in swimmin!!

2006-09-09T15:53:00.000+08:00

b0ught breakfast ferr bibix. hahax. c0me all e wae tuh his br0 c0ndo siax. earli in e m0rnin. ii sh0 gd ryte darx?? kekex.

wen eu t0ld mie th0se w0rds, eu t0uched mua HART again.
ii finalli understand y eu acted dat wae e past few daex,
wen im t0o tired n ii failed tuh kall eu.
eu said eu wanna pr0tect mie, kare ferr mie,
eu mishh mie, n l0ve mie.
after all th0se happenins n w0rk, eu`ll brin mie 0ut,
tuh enj0y muaself tuh e max.
tankew darlinx, ii`ve neva felt sh0 l0ved b4.
im s0rriex dat im upset abt e tingx dat had happened.
n thus ii ~~vent e anger n sadness~~ 0n eu.
but neva 0nce did eu grumble abt it.
instead, urr dere tuh acc mie thru it all,
c0nsole mie, listen tuh mie.
eu asked mie n0rt tuh leave eu.
n darlinx, n0w ii`ll tel eu truthfully.
dat ii`ll NEVA EVA LEAVE EU.

trust mie, n take mua hand wif eu,
tuh whereva places eu wanna g0.
ii`ll 0wayyx b wif eu byy urr side.
jux lyk h0w ii pr0mise eu frm e start..

0n e date 22o5o5, im `urs ferr ehh verx *

pics 0f s0me mem0ries..

la0gongx make ferr mie derx. nice!!

0ur 15mth anni derx ne0print..

2006-09-09T01:45:00.000+08:00

GD NEWS ! ! ! !

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ytd traditi0nal li0n dance c0mpetiti0n at ngee ann city,

champi0n ishx TIANENG!!!

c0ngrats guys. s0rriex ii din make it!!

N . . . . . .

ii`ve quitted mua j0b!!

bl0ody hell ryte?? its 0nli mua 3rd dae dere.

yahx. but if eu n0e e amt 0f $ dey pay mie..

n e n0. 0f hrs ii`ve tuh w0rk each dae..

n e ch0res ii`ve tuh d0 evridae..

eu`ll run awae t0o~~!!

c0s ii w0rk 11hrs a dae, wif n0 break-tym 0r wats0eva.

dat means, ppl buy urr f0od, eu eat n dats it.

0ut eu g0 tuh w0rk.

remainin tym?? 1ohrs 45mins standin dere.

d0in nth. carryin HEAVY tingx dat ken make mie sprain mua bac.

n hurtin muaself c0s 0f it.

FARK.

im tired lahx. nid a break.

but, f0und 2 0ther j0b. n0w decidin which tuh take.

tankx darlinx ferr helpin mie buy mua leather b0ots!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeettttttttttt~~~~~~~~~~

ii l0ve eu!! hahax. =P

2006-09-08T00:55:00.000+08:00

jux gimme a break...

izzit w0rth lettin dis frenship g0??

ii reali dunn0..

its been 5yrs??? frm sec 1 til n0w.

n we 0nce went thru e laughters, e fun 0ut 2gether ferr sh0ppin n m0vies..

e sad tymx n e tr0ubled tymx we passed..

mem0ries filled mua mind. n its 0nli past few daex wen ii th0t if dere`s a p0ssibility tuh b lyk e past again.

im reali tired abt evriting dat has happened lately.

understand mie guys. ii nid urr understandin.

frm 22o8o8, eva since SHE left us 0n dat dae,

we cant even get her 0ut 0f 0ur minds.

cried hardly. each tym ii th0t 0f her.

even til n0w, wen im bl0ggin, tears wanna fall.

f0llowin dat peri0d 0f tym, ishx exams.

after exams?? quarrels n evriting 0ccurs.

breakup between us. din eat n0r drink.

cryin mua eyes 0ut evridae.

quarrels subsided. n ii STIL din get tuh rest.

n n0w.. ii`ve started w0rkin.

N?? ii l0se dis frenship.. ='(

leave mie al0ne ppl if eu dun understand.

blame mie all eu wan, push all e faults 0n mie.

ii wun b0ther tuh KARE anim0re.

c0s ii`ve cried ENUFF.. ii`ve had ENUFF 0f all e criticisin n blamin.

if such tingx din happened, wil ii l0se dis frenship???

ii hav a chance tuh salvage it. but d0 ii reali wan??

c0s ii n0e e tingx eu said bhind mie.

urr character n evriting, ii n0e eu well.

even th0u we seld0m c0ntact, ii stil understand eu.

c0nfused.. upset.. hurt.. dilemma..

mixed up feelins within *

hu`s dere tuh help??

2006-09-07T01:05:00.000+08:00

wat a dae at w0rk?? 0r tuh start e 1st dae 0f w0rk???

im damn sianx 0ver dere!! ppl c0me find mie!!

g0nna w0rk frm 11-1o evridae!!!

im g0nna die.. but.. ii nid e m0ney..

h0pe ii ken get dat th0usand bac.. reali h0pe sh0..

pls.. DUN deduct mua cpf.. ii dun wan..

2006-09-05T23:02:00.000+08:00

tingx r finalli settlin d0wn. e bytches finalli made deariex sc0ld vulgar 0n regina`s bl0g.. n asked dem 0ut tuh t0k. end up?? regina cl0sed her bl0g. wat d0es it mean?? its up tuh eu guys tuh tink abt it...

had fun wif d0do n jaslyn at kb0x 2dae. yupiex im late again =X hahax. sh0 l0ng din sing 0ready siax. b0mb all e new s0ngs!! lalala~~ =P well, e f0od sux lahx tuh mie. c0s we sing klunch. had tuh wake up sh0 earli siax. tired!!

mit deariex at inter. den he acc mie tuh bai mua c0usin n ah ma. b0ught f0od ferr her. yahx. n ii g0rt e sh0ck 0f mua life wen ii finish bai-in mua ah ma. c0s ii saw a shad0w fly past! ii cried n run 0ut 0f e hall n hug deariex tytely wen ii saw him. dunn0 if its g0nna b lyk e past.. ii h0pe n0rt..

gd news ishx.. ii tml start w0rk!! bad news ishx..... ii cant 0ff til nxt sat!!! n frm den 0n, evri sat will b mua 0ff dae.

im s0rriex deariex. ii n0e eu dun lyk mie tuh w0rk dere. but ii`ve g0rt n0 ch0ice. eu n0e ii nid m0ney. n ii dun wanna take frm mua parents. esp wen its h0ls n0w. e m0re ii wun take frm dem. ii rather ii spent dis h0ls w0rkin n earn e m0ney. den save it n buy e tingx ii wan instead 0f takin m0ney frm dem. ii reali h0pe eu ken understand kaex?? if eu dun wan mie tuh w0rk, at least lemme w0rk 1mth. 1mth later if eu dun wan ii`ll quit n n0rt w0rk part-tym wen sch re0pen 0kaex?? l0ve eu deariex..

2dae at kb0x. hehex.

mie n deariex bac 2gether again..

2006-09-03T11:11:00.000+08:00

a hectic weekend ferr mie?? bz sc0ldin ppl hu tink dey`re ryte??

if eu dunn0 wat im t0kin.. g0 tuh dis link..

http://blossom-memories.blogspot.com/

n c h0w 2 st0opid unrelated ppl, wh0m ii dun even n0e.. step int0 dis pr0b n t0k abt mie??

n dey`re usin e w0rds `im jux gibin a passin remarks`

yucks.. dun dey n0e dat passerbys r supp0sed tuh b fair n square n n0rt 1-sided??

n dey side e mastermind 0f evriting.. regina??

wat kind 0f passerbys r dey??

n im damn bl0ody disapp0inted in adeline.

e 0ne ii th0t mayb ishx e gd n e fair 0ne am0ng dem.

end up she`s e 0ne hu influence all 0f dem tuh HATE mie??

m ii dat hatin??

dun even n0e wat ii`ve d0ne wr0ng 0r sae wr0ng.

c0s adeline acts infr0nt 0f WZ n sae gd tingx abt MIE.

n behind 0ur bac, she`s spreadin w0rds 0f hatred abt MIE.

2headed snakes, B-Y-T-C-H.

ryte n0w.. feel dat im ready tuh break d0wn 0r sumting??

but wz ishx bac again byy mua side. dats a gd ting yeahx?

th0se wh0`s ready tuh fight e battle wif mie if tingx g0es w0rse,

prepare e arm0urs, sw0rds n guns!!

=X

2006-09-02T20:28:00.000+08:00

im tired.. haw wei n0e abt it. n ii h0pe he dun blame himself 0r regina..

her fren makes c0mments.

but y cant dey jux understand dat dey`ve hurt ppl wif wat dey sae??

instead 0f pr0tectin demselves n make 0thers luk guilty??

d0 dey hav a human hart? 0r r dey jux r0bots?

ii`ve had enuff 0f cryin.. but ii cant st0p..

2006-09-02T11:06:00.000+08:00

qing ai de ba0 bei,

gan xie ni gei gu0 de yi qie.

w0 men de shi yan yi jing mei ren zai qu ji nian.

w0 ceng jing yi wei xing fu hui pei w0 zhi da0 y0ng yuan.

zen me zai zhuan yan de shun jian, ni yi bu jian.

zhi ya0 zai yi bian, rang w0 kan ni zui h0u yi yan.

ni de yan shen qian d0ng w0 de ling hun.

ke f0u zai yi bian, rang w0 gan sh0u ni de ti wen,

ni de xia0 r0ng, wen nuan w0 de shi jie.

m0u yue m0u yi tian, ni dai z0u w0 gei de yi qie.

ni ba meng da sui, zhan xian ni de y0ng bu h0u hui.

w0 ceng jing yi wei w0 men de sh0u hui w0 da0 ming tian.

na zhi da0 zhuan yan de shi jian ni yi z0u yuan.

take me away and take my love away

mei y0u ni de ye wan shi meng mei.

i'm miss you baby i wanna kiss you again

bie dui w0 shu0 ni kan bu jian..

she has been cryin ferr 7hrs frm last nyte til midnyte 4am.

its reali 0ver.. nth else ishx left.. nth..

eu said s0rriex, but wats e pt 0f saein s0rriex after EU sae th0se w0rds??

hurt mie n a s0rriex ken heal e w0unds??

ii din even offend EU.

n n0w, jux c0s 0f wat EU wryte.. it break US up.

r EU happi n0w?? happi????!!

if EU wanna c0ntinue n hate mie den GO AHEAD..

n0 pt pretendin tuh lyk mie 0r wat.

ii dun even n0e wat ii`ve d0ne wr0ng tuh get urr criticisin in return.

tuh get urr hatred in return.

dun even n0e EU, t0k tuh EU.

cant imagine EU affected mie sh0 muchh . .

im s0rriex tuh run 0ut last nyte.

evri0ne ii caused w0rriex in.. im reali s0rriex.

but ii cant k0ntrol muaself tuh stay at h0me n cry.

ii jux cant.......................

im feelin sh0 hart-br0ken..

ii dun hav e strengths tuh carri 0n with0ut HIM..

cant imagine with0ut HIM..

EU`re t0o cruel, tuh treat mie dis wae.

reali cruel.. ii cant believe its EU..

hu r t0kin tuh mie.

wanna b al0ne. eyes r sw0llen. wan HIM bac *

2006-09-02T00:04:00.000+08:00

ken ii dun b b0thered abt HER?? y cant ii jux get HER w0rds 0ut 0f mie?? its hurtin.. im angry, but e hurt ishx m0re. n im cryin...... al0ne cryin.........

wher ishx e EU n0w?? y d0 EU behave dis wae??

e wae ii cant rec0gnise dat its EU?

EU hurt mie wif ur w0rds t0o. it added tuh e pain.

im feelin lyk a FOOL bein hidden frm sh0 mani tingx.

n it seems lyk evri0ne n0es but dey kept it frm mie??

n ii cant believe EU`ve g0rt n0 reacti0n tuh dis...

y did EU sh0ut at mie? wen all ii nided was silence, kare, n listenin??

y cant EU understand h0w ii feel??

bein said byy HER dis wae??

EU pretended dat nth had happened.

n d0es dis means EU all0w HER tuh c0ntinue saein mie dis wae??

if EU stil treat HER as urr FREN, den wat m ii tuh EU??

wat m ii reali tuh EU??!!

she nids strengths tuh carri 0n.. wher`s e strengths??

ppl arnd HER dun UNDERSTANDS her feelins.

IT REALI HURTS..............

im breakin d0wn.. im tired... ii mishh her.. im cryin ferr 2+hrs.

n im stil cryin..

y??

ii nid a sh0ulder... dun wanna b al0ne...

but wher`s mua pillar???

eu`re g0ne... ii cant sense urr l0ve anim0re.

ishx dis reali g0in tuh b e end????

ii hate HER, e BYTCH OF EVRITING..

im dead..... dun b0ther abt mie.. c0s eu wun understand h0w ii feel.

2006-09-01T01:27:00.000+08:00

was supp0sed tuh b a happi dae t0dae. c0s ii did saw mua teacher, yahx, ms ne0 lahx, e b0bd0g. hahax. n mua fell0w klassmates!! n its e last dae 0f mua exams!!

ii met up wif d0do n kaisin tuh g0 bac jyss t0gether. den after all e gatherin we went tuh inter wher ii mit darlinx g0 c0llect his hp. den we went tuh eat n find d0do dey all. acc d0do g0 cut hair while darlinx g0 bac h0me. we SLACK ARND.. yahx. at TAMPINES??? its lyk, dere`s nth tuh sh0p n n0wher tuh slack!! but we managed tuh passed e tym n its 4.3opm finalli wen celest kalled n mit us. went tuh watch e m0vie `e devil wears prada`. n0rt tuh bad. l0ve e CLOTHES!!

intended tuh g0 t0wn tuh watch e m0vie but evri0ne was t0o tired lahx. shall mit up wif e guys sumdae again!!

sumting terrible happened tuh 0ne 0f mua buds. ii h0pe he`s fine. but ii d0ubt sh0. dunn0 h0w tuh c0nsole him 0r wat.

n in e mean tym, wr0ng tym, ii f0und 0ut sumting!!! dat all e while e p0st dat she p0st ishx referin tuh mie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FARK~!!!!

ii din even 0ffend her, BLOODY HELL. n dere she ishx, criticisin mie frm head tuh t0e!! wtf?? urr nth betta den mie l0rx seri0usly. eu tink eu ken p0rtray urself betta?? den pr0ve it tuh mie!! its 0nli urr jeal0usy dat eu cant wear dat c0s urr n0rt even SUITABLE FER IT!! evri0ne has their pers0nal style 0f fashi0n 0kaex??!!! urs ishx ii dunn0 wat shyt lahx. but mua style ishx mine. eu DUN EVEN HAV E RYTE TUH CRITICISE OR COMMENT ANITING!! t0k infr0nt 0f mie n n0rt BHIND mua bac eu bl0ody bytch.

damn it lahx. sp0il mua m0od n evriting. knn. but lyk wat d0do sae, ii shall b muaself. dun let 0thers affect mie!!!! n n0rt LET HER IN PARTICULAR!! ii cant believe wat she hav sae in her bl0g. n im g0nna rmb it 0wayyx deep in mua hart, cursed n swear her tuh HELL!~

if eu dun lyk mie jux SHUNNED, ii`ll neva h0ld eu bac!!

2006-08-30T14:17:00.000+08:00

1 dae tuh g0!!!!!!!!! FINALLI!! =)

g0nna chi0ng acc0unts. after sh0 l0ng, deariex derx hp finalli ken b c0llected later!!! yahx, its under repair ferr abt 1mth?? wth. sh0 deariex sis kall e n0kia kare center n sc0lded n c0mplained abt their service!!!! whahahx..

im deat beat after slpin at 3+am last nyte. finished studyin at 1+am lahx. den t0k tuh sis, til we b0th wanna cry?? yahx, menti0ned abt mua c0usin again. after dat ii went packin mua cupb0ard?? ken eu imagine?? in e middle 0f e nyte durin exam peri0d ii take 0ut mua cl0thes n pack?? hahax. c0s mua sis br0ught bac e CLOTHES DAT I ORDERED FRM HER SHOP!!! l0lx. n0 space in mua cupb0ard 0ready lahx. I WAN A BIG BIG CLOSET FER MUA CLOTHES!!!

new s0ngs d0wnl0aded. s0bs. 0nli ken hear frm hp lahx. speaker sp0il, haven take g0 repair. aniwae, sh0 mani ppl din g0 bac sch tml. esp th0se jc? yahx. nvm. shall mit e rest after e celebrati0n.

was lukin thru mua past updates, n f0und a p0em ii created ferr darlinx last yr?? kekex.

since her 1st l0ve iin e past, ~~sadness~~ 0wayyx fills herr hart.
true l0ve she dare n0rt ask, ~~tears~~ makin herr fall apart.
wen h0pes 0f l0ve r given up, eu went tuh herr n brin herr up.
eu brin c0lours she`ve neva seen, n laughters dat ishx neva f0und.
sh0 n0w she has fallen deep, iin sum0ne wh0 makes her w0rld g0 r0und.
she v0w tuh heaven sincerely, n0rt tuh leave eu wen iin nid.
tuh g0 thru thick n thin 0f e j0urney,wif hands h0ldin 0n 2gether tytely.
urr e lyte 0f herr darkness, e angel 0f herr l0neliness.
~~s0rr0ws~~ hav left herr since 22may, happiness has f0und herr 0n dat dae.
she pr0mised tuh l0ve eu til e end, gibin eu all e l0ve she ken.
she l0ve eu, r0dric 0ng, truly n h0pelessly.

2006-08-29T16:27:00.000+08:00

finalli csa paper ishx 0ver. yupiex, im sh0 relieved n0w dat e tw0 maj0r papers r n0rt t0o bad lahx. shld b ken pass =) same ting, lenny aw was sh0 GD tuh GIB US E HINTS!! n ii 0nli studied e hints lahx. l0lx.

tml ec0ns paper, den ACCOUNTS!! h0pe acc0unts ii`ll b able tuh finish, n h0pe it`ll n0rt b t0o t0ugh?? nahx, ii dun tink sh0. c0s mua teacher sae `acheri e paper isnt difficult, but eu wun hav e tym tuh check n e tym tuh tink abt e f0rmat. eu c e Qn eu d0`. wtf??? sure n0 tym finish derx... =(

2m0re daex n ii`ll b g0in bac tuh c evri0ne includin mua bel0ved frenxxxx n teacherssss!!! im sh0 excited~~ LALALA.. =P

n den........................

its h0ls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tym ferr mie tuh rest... hav fun, n ~~m0ve 0n~~???

mayb im e 0ne hu kares t0o much. but ii din meant it.
shld ii kare?? 0r dun kare??

2006-08-28T13:34:00.000+08:00

tankx shar0n, ferr gibin e hints ytd, all her hints came 0ut t0dae ferr exams. yahx, ii 0nli studied her hints. was carryin e th0t `its mua luck, either it c0mes 0ut n ii passed, 0r it din turn 0ut wat ii expect n retake supp`. sh0, ii guess, mayb mua c0usin ishx dere tuh help mie??

went tuh cut mua hair in e evenin at BUGIS?? went dere last min wen h0ney kalled n sae he`ll acc mie tuh g0 n cut. p0wer arhx mie?? felt sh0 nei jiu c0s j0lene w0rked OT ferr mie jux tuh cut mua hair=X n j0lene asked us a Qn, which ii din th0t 0f ferr n0w, n its w0rth tinkin abt it. `hav eu tw0 eva tink dat urr g0in tuh get married??` n mua ans ishx n0. all ii tink 0f ishx n0w. yahx, e present.

suddenly had a f0olish th0t, dat wat if h0ney leaves mie?? lyk mua c0usin did?? wat`ll eva bcum 0f mie?? wh0 m ii g0in tuh depend 0n? hu`ll b e 0ne tuh acc mie tuh places ii wanna g0, tuh hav fun wif mie n xpl0re e w0rld wif mie?? ii wish eu`ll neva eva leave.... cant imagine mua life with0ut EU..

hmMmx, im hack-karin e exams ferr n0w. its either a pass 0r a fail. lyk wat ms g0h sae, studies ishx nth but a stati0n we hav tuh get thru in life. y stress 0urselves up n ferget abt 0ther m0re impt tingx in life??

im lukin ferrward tuh 31aug wher ii`ll get tuh mit mua preci0us n all.. hav learn tuh appreciate n treasure e tym wif ppl hu means al0t tuh mie. h0pe dis h0ls ken b a bz 0ne tuh av0id mie frm tinkin sh0 muchh bahx. sh0 peeps, ask mie 0ut weneva eu all ken?? ii wanna b 0ut 0f e silent state n int0 e enj0yin state..... =(

w0 hen xiang nii.. j0ey sis, urr n0, urr evriting, ishx stil in mua hp, in mua mind, in evriwher dat has 0ur mem0ries. h0w ii wish urr here again tuh beat n make fun 0f us.. h0w ii wish ii ken turn bac e tym...

s0me f0tox in e past few weeks.. *updated*

taken at esplanade durin firew0rks..

rena, shar0n, verlyn

at li sheng jie c0ncert in tp..

0ur anniversary..

new hair cut taken ytd..
j0lin perm abit mua hair at e ends. sh0 ugliee!

xie xie ni h0ney, ferr acc-in mie e past few daex..

2006-08-27T17:11:00.000+08:00

verlyn misses eu *

eu din even gib us a chance tuh tel eu dat we l0ve eu..
n dere, eu went awae, disappearin 0ut 0f 0ur sight,
carryin 0n wif urr path.. in an0ther w0rld,
sh0 distant, sh0 far, frm us..

ii cant c0ncentrate, cant studi..
ii dun wanna b al0ne``
wh0`s dere ferr mie??
wh0`s dere tuh acc mie??

[ lukin at urr f0tox taken durin urr bdae last yr, tears r0lled d0wn+ ]

2006-08-25T15:53:00.000+08:00

ii mishh herr.. al0t al0t ='(

after 3daex 0f cryin, her funeral is 0ver. tym seems sh0 sh0rt ferr us t0 b wif her even ferr 1 m0re sec0nd. ytd is e w0rse dae 0f all. wher earli in e m0rnin we`re cryin l0udly. g0tta h0ld 0n t0 mua sis. c0s she`s t0o agitated dat she tried t0 get near e c0ffin n kip sh0utin dat she wans her t0 c0me bac. s0bs. dad pull her 0ut n she`s numb frm head t0 t0e, n her hands were cramped at e m0ment. grandma was t0o sadx. haix. she had been cryin sh0 0ften. e th0usands 0f paper crane we`ve f0lded ferr her wen she`s in e h0spital, we sticked it t0 her c0ffin ytd.

was standin infr0nt 0f her pics wen ii th0t 0f e past mem0ries wif her. sh0 mani places, sh0 mani stuffs we did 2gether. tampines t0 jur0ng, suntec t0 w0odlands 0r ani place, we`ve been dere 2gether. new yr c0untd0wn, xmas xchangin 0f gifts, c0untd0wn, ktv, m0vies, sh0ppin, swimmin, slackin at starbucks.. t0o mani mem0ries, t0o much sadness, ii`ll neva eva ferget....

she`s 0wayyx mua c0usin, 0wayyx she`ll b. n0 0ne ken replace her, n0rt even e mem0ries she left wif us. tankx al0t ferr evriting. we`ll rmb eu, l0ve eu, lyk we 0wayyx d0.........

din manage t0 apply ferr e supp exams n n0rt take e main exams. sh0 ii g0tta start muggin n0w. lackin 0f slp, slp 1st den mug bahx. h0pe ii ken c0ncentrate 0n mua studies 1st n n0rt tink abt her lerx bahx. gimme enc0uragement!!! c0s verlyn had 0nli less den 3daex t0 studi ferr 4papers!! n 0ne 0f e killin paper is ACCOUNTS! n0rt fergettin CSA!

bye t0 bl0ggin n e net w0rld ferr e tym bein. after nxt thur ii ken finalli rest.. shall luk ferward t0 dat dae bahx.

ii reali mish eu, regretted dat we din hav e chance tuh tel eu h0w muchh we l0ve eu....

2006-08-23T09:01:00.000+08:00

gd bye tuh eu.. eu`ll 0wayyx stay in 0ur harts.. ferr ehh verx.. neva wil eu eva leave. its a sudden news ferr all 0f us. but eu`re g0ne.. ferr gd. n we hav tuh accept e news n0 matter wat. tankx ferr bein such a w0nderful pers0n in 0ur lives. eu br0ught us e j0y n laughter.. rest in peace.. evri0ne 0f us wil pray ferr eu. ferr ehh verx n ehh verx, eu`ll 0wayyx b 0ur bel0ved-j0ey....

th0se hu n0e her n wish tuh g0 d0wn e funeral ferr e last tym.. ken gimme a kall..

P.S: nu-er xie xie ni, eu take e tr0uble tuh c0me d0wn n help us ytd. n ii was t0o bz n neglected eu. aniwae, reali tankx ferr urr enc0uragement..

2006-08-21T08:43:00.000+08:00

ken eu believe ii acheri wake up sh0 earli??? its 7+am in e m0rnin! all tankx tuh DARLINX!! he w0ke mie up all 0f a sudden at 7+am c0s he wanna g0 sch n ask mie tuh 0pen e d0or ferr him... n dats wen ii did, n ii cant get bac tuh slp...... =X

w0nderin y l0ve always seems t0 make ppl si qu hu0 lai?

2006-08-20T14:19:00.000+08:00

wat a dae tuh start e celebrati0n 0f 0ur 15mth anniversary.... =(

ii AP-ied deariex lerx. im s0rriex. but ii din meant it. c0s eu left mie al0ne tuh g0 h0me muaself wen im at uncle`s hse. which ii HATED. end up n0 nid g0 h0me lerx[ferr s0me reas0ns ii nid g0 h0me, but ken0t sae wat. hahax.], tankx tuh prisc jie. HATE MUA AUNT!! damn her!! mei li ma0, anih0w c mua sis hp. fark.

mit deariex at mrt stati0n. n 0n e wae tuh bugis we t0k abt mani tingx. yeahx, s0me argument again.. n we quarrelled AGAIN wen we JUX reached dere ='( evri0ne was lukin, castin weird glares at us. n dere we r, standin in e midst 0f e cr0wd, saein nth at all. ii HATE DAT FEELINS..

managed tuh yi ren rang yi bu after saein hurtin w0rds tuh each 0ther. n dere, at e ne0print sh0p, deariex hug mie tytely. n mua anger diminished wif his hugs.. t0ok pics ferr 0ur 15mth anni. den went tuh bugis st. ate, sh0p n buy tingx! hahax. sis g0nna buy e dress ferr mie. n ii b0ught a necklace.

reached far east. n ii saw sh0 mani tingx ii lyk!! but ii cant buyy. s0bs. envy ppl hu hav l0tsa m0ney n spent. ken spent all dey wan with0ut w0rriex. n0rt lyk mie. haix. DEARIEX MAKE MIE JEALOUS!! b0ught 2 limited editi0n tees at $138!! 0mg. he`s damn rich. hahax. g0rt e privilege card n a free necklace w0rth $39. he g0rt da feng sh0u siax. hahax. n k0r k0r sms-ed mie ask mie eat dinner. n deariex make mie cry lerx. his w0rds hurt mie lyk needles.

left far east n we QUARRELLED AGAIN~ ii dun wan deariex tuh g0 plae mahj0ng at nyte. but he wanted. n we started quarrelling. frm far east tuh cine. haix. n ke0ng kalled n LIED TUH MIE dat it was th0mas bdae?? wtf. h0w ken ii n0rt b angry???

went tuh c0llect 0ur tix ferr `gh0st game` n straightawae g0 in e cinema lerx. rated e m0vie ****. n0rt bad. scary..

we mished e last train. n ii ap0logise tuh desm0nd im n0rt able tuh make it ferr urr bdae celebrati0n =X s0rriex. c0s n0 train tuh g0 d0wn pasir ris 0ready. t0ok bus65. n deariex sae break again.

cryin lyk mad, eyes pain.
wet n dry? wats dat feelin??
hart breakin, wif urr w0rds.
im s0rriex tuh treat eu dat wae.
but urr e 0ne hu sae break.
n ii`ve g0rt nth else tuh sae..

deariex f0rced mie tuh turn n face him. n with his gentle hands, he wiped mua tears awae, makin mie cry m0re. feelin sh0 st0opid, y d0 we sae break n hurt each 0ther wen we dun even wan t0?? t0k tingx 0ut. n realised dat it ishx 0wayyx c0mmunicati0n breakd0wn btween us. ii sae e reas0n y ii dun wan him tuh g0 at e end--dat ii`ll b al0ne at h0me, sis n0rt arnd, n after watchin a gh0st m0vie, he expects mie tuh stay al0ne?? n deariex realised his mistake. c0s he th0t mua sis wil b h0me n th0t im jux bein unreas0nable.

tingx were s0lved. n he sc0lded ke0ng dey all ferr lyin tuh us dat it was th0mas bdae. happi endin at e end.. n ii n0e ii cant live w/o HIM.........

s0me zi lian pics again...

t-shirt n jeans--simple mie..

2006-08-18T23:25:00.000+08:00

happi bdae tuh eileen, mua c0usin!!

had a small argument wif ba0beix dis m0rnin. c0s, 0nce again, he DIN TURN UP FER SCH! din n0e wat tuh sae. sh0 ii decided tuh kip quiet all e while til he msg mie. n ii stil din even b0ther tuh reply him muchh. enuff 0f all e unbr0ken pr0mises he made!!

but as usual, iim n0rt angry ferr l0ng. finalli finished mua last pr0j! sh0 happi siax. l0lx. walked 0ut 0f sch wif adeline n saw shujuan. sh0 we t0ok f0tox! c0s adeline sae its e last dae 0f sch wan ji nian. hahax. lame -.-ll

went tuh babyy hse. den waited ferr him tuh plae game while ii eat maggie mee. p0or ting ryte?? frm m0rnin til 4+pm ii 0nli ate sandwich!! was rushin mua pr0j mahx sh0 ask charlie tuh da ba0 sandwich int0 e c0m lab ferr mie.

den went tuh uncle`s hse at abt 6pm. had 0ur dinner, sing bdae s0ng, n ate e cake. 9+pm mie n babyy g0 bac lerx. tml stil nida wake up earli!! sadx. but g0in celeb 0ur 15mth!! =PpP

yiqii: dun sh0 sadx lahx. dat tym sae read mua bl0g sad. den n0w eu wryte 0so abt e same ting?? c0ntradictin siax eu. stil rmb e w0rds eu sae tuh mie?? n0w ii sae it bac tuh eu!! dun w0rriex kaex? stil g0rt MIE!! haahx. =P ii mish eu darlins~~

2006-08-17T22:12:00.000+08:00

LI SHENG JIE ROCKS!!

hahax. 0verall e c0ncert was 0kaex. he`s n0rt shuai BUT he`s pr0 in his singin 0kaex.. l0lx. wanna ap0logise tuh ba0beix, c0s he was dere wif mie all e while but end up he cant g0 in!!!!!!!! damn dat bl0ody ger 0kaex!! e guy sae sec sch ez-link ken use but e ger dun wanna listen! fark. end up babyy g0 bac al0ne. s0bs=( dui bu qi darlinx..

tml had a bdae gatherin at uncle hse after sch. h0ney eu betta c0me!! l0lx. mua c0usin invite eu lerx w0rx =P nxt week`s startin mua studi week lerx. mitin up wif de jian, adeline, samuel n mayb charlie? tuh studi 2getherr. n ii cant wait ferr exams tuh b 0ver! h0pe ba0beix g0 tuh his br0 hse tuh stay frm sept 0nwards. den its mua h0ls. den ii ken g0 dere n swim, g0 gym, plae p0ol. kekex. nice wae tuh spend mua h0ls. ii wanna jian fei! hahax =)

2006-08-16T18:57:00.000+08:00

s0rriex d0do, ii nearly make eu cry wif mua w0rds. its n0rt urr fault gerr, reali. ii din blame eu ferr n0rt havin tym tuh acc us. reali. ii understand urr life, n0e urr havin pr0bs wif urr klass n studies. sh0 dun blame urself kaex? *huggiex* eu stil g0rt mie. urr bdae eu wun b al0ne derx=) hahax. lyk ii sae, if ii din acc eu 0n dat dae eu ken strangle mie tuh DEATHHH!!! =P

tinkin bac th0se 0ld daex, wher h0ney br0ught mie l0tsa l0ve n c0ncern n happi mem0ries, ii felt sh0 blissed havin him arnd. n e daex in sec sch, wher in e klass we had fun 2gether, studi 2gether, suan teacher 2gether... e 7dwarfs+evil queen had given mie w0nderful frenship... weneva ii cry, dey r 0wayyx dere, n0rt fergettin e special pers0n, mua nu-er, hu lend mie her sh0ulder in e sch hall 2yrs ag0 wen daddy n mummy b0th fell ill. dat was e darkest m0ment in mua life.. wen im reali l0st n tired..

e daex in tianeng, wif k0r k0r dey all arnd tuh j0ke n crap, bringin awae mua sadness n l0neliness. k0r 0wayyx pat mua head n ask mie, `mei eu eat lerx mahx? , mei h0w`s urr studies?, mei h0w`s eu n wei zha0? , mei did ppl bullie eu?` n mani m0re. didi, ah an n br0ther chuan, e 3 elders in tianeng, hu treat mie lyk their 0wn children, karin ferr mie n takin gd kare 0f mie. ii mishh li0n dance... mishh clubbin wif dem... mishh ktv wif dem... mishh e big gr0up hu watched m0vie 2gether. n m0st 0f all.. ii mishh dem...