Thursday, August 03, 2006

t0dae reali was a shag dae.. mit beeping n shiying at c0m lab t0dae in e m0rnin. as earli as 1o.15?? tuh mie its earli lahx =P rushed 0ur pr0ject. did e c0untry analysis 0f 26pages??!! t0ld dem n0 nid sh0 muchh. dey insist. sh0 s0on kiat came n we asked him. n he sae n0 nid sh0 muchh! end up spendin 0ur tym deletin e inf0. by e tym we leave e lab its 0ready 11.3oam! wen 0ur presentati0n ishx at 11.35! run tuh ez-printin, printed 0n paper, bind n print 0n transparencies. rushed bac tuh biz sch level 5 fer 0ur presentati0n! n0rt t0o bad arhx mie. e runnin tires mie 0ut! rushed int0 e r0om n present 0n e sp0t. n0rt scared 0f e teacher. hahax. after e PPT den realised ii left bee ping`s thumbdrive n shiying`s ec0ns b0ok at ez-printin! chi0ng! run again. hahax. mit shar0n at lab. den she acc mie g0 century sq repair h0ney`s hp. his f0ne sp0il lerx. s0bs. den went bac h0me. watched `ai qing m0 fa shi`. damn nice! n after watchin.. ii started tuh tink abt mani tingx n realised all e tingx dat ii`ve neglected all e while.

its 0wayyx mie, hu d0 n0rt trust him enuff. its been 1yr+. n e trust had n0rt t0tally been put 0n him. im s0rriex, its mua fault. mua past ishx stil hauntin mie, h0ldin mie bac, castin unwanted th0ts in mua mind. im afraid, deep inside mie im afraid, dat if ii trust him t0o muchh, 1 dae he might turn awae frm mie n neva c0me bac. if dis happens, ii`ll hate muaself ferr trustin him. n ii cant imagine a dae, with0ut him in mua life. im dependent 0n him, dis ishx e fact dat ii did n0rt wanna admit. ii n0e dat with0ut him, ii`ll b in t0tal mess, t0tal l0st 0f e path in life. dats e reas0n y ii tied him sh0 tyte tuh mie.

but n0w ii n0e, dat dis ishx n0rt e wae 0ut. y hav ii changed tuh dis state? y hav ii bcum a w0rse ger fer him? ii failed tuh fulfil mua pr0mise, but ii blame him ferr e pr0mises he din kept. n0w, wen tingx happened in e wae n0rt ii wanted, ii failed tuh tink in his sh0es ferr him. ii let mua mind take 0ver mie, c0ntrollin mie. lettin mua em0tions make tingx w0rse, saein e hurtin w0rds tuh him. e pr0b lies wif mie. ii pr0mise him dat ii`ll sae 0ut mua feelins, but end up, ii sae 0ut e 0pposite 0f wat ii feel. mayb dats e reas0n, dat e relati0nship wil sumh0w w0rsen. ii`ve tink evriting thru, th0t e tingx im determined tuh d0. n ii h0pe we`ll return bac tuh e past, wher happiness n laughter fills 0ur hart, n n0rt sadness. im tired 0f e quarrels, but iim neva tired bein wif eu......

ii h0pe ii ken changed tuh b his betta ger, ani0ne 0ut dere tuh gimme e enc0uragement??

mua hart stil beats ferr eu~~

P.S: f0tox updated! btw, its al0t! hahax. =P ani0ne wanna g0 c firew0rks??

durin P0M presentati0n~