Wednesday, August 02, 2006

im s0rriex ferr n0rt updatin, but e p0st dat ii wanna update was g0ne wen ii tried tuh p0st n e c0nnection was d0wn! sh0 ii shall n0rt p0st muchh bahx....

ii dun wish tuh hear urr name again ken?? 0wayyx ii hear e tw0 0f eu. jux lyk t0dae wen ii saw e tw0 0f eu. e wae eu act infr0nt 0f mie, ishx dat reali h0w urr actin bhind mua bac?? its t0tally different as wat mua sis t0ld mie weneva she saw e tw0 0f eu 2gether. ii rather eu STOP E ACT infr0nt 0f mie!!

ii dunn0 y ii`ll feel dis wae, 0ver a pers0n hu ishx n0rt even a SOMEBODI in mua path 0f life. n y mux ii 0wayyx b e 0ne sufferin it al0ne?? ken eu tink 0f mua feelins wen eu make a decisi0n?? eu sae eu will, but eu 0wayyx din d0 it. ken eu sense e disapp0intment eu caused in mie?? eu wan mie tuh kare, but eu wan mie tuh gib eu urr freed0m, den wat m ii supp0sed tuh d0??! ishx FREEDOM ALL EU WAN n ii cant even b WORTH URR FREEDOM?

w0rds piercin straight thru mua hart lyk needles. ii cant st0p e tears, cant st0p e hurt im feelin.... eu sae dey dunn0 h0w iim feelin dats y dey`re actin dis wae, but evri0ne had feelins. cant dey tink ferr mie?? if dis ishx e case, shld ii jux name 0ut their names 0r tel dem straight in e face dat ii mind??!

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im tired 0f karin sh0 muchh, tired 0f e quarrels.
y cant eu kip e pr0mises eu made?
if eu n0e eu cant, y stil b0ther tuh pr0mise mie?
in e end sadness ishx stil wat eu`ve given mie. ken eu sense e feelins inside mie??
ii 0nli blame muaself, ferr l0vin eu sh0 muchh.
even m0re den e l0ve eu sh0wer mie wif.
in e past, dere r happiness m0re den sadness.
n0w, quarrels seems e evridae ting we did.
dis ishx n0rt wat ii wan, n0rt wat ii wish ferr.
ii ken c e c0lours n lyte in mem0ries.
but ii 0nli c darkness n fears n0w in reality.
shld ii c0ntinue 0n, n endure evriting?
0r shld ii st0p evriting, st0p muaself frm e burden?