Saturday, August 12, 2006

bac frm firew0rks. happi dae at e end. startin was quarrellin wif babyy 0ver mua cl0thes. s0bs. went sing ktv t0o!! kekex. sh0 l0ng din sing lerx =)

kena nag n sc0lded byy mum ferr kip usin e c0m. sianx. aniwae, went tuh check mua eyes ytd. astigmatism increase, degree e same. gd news 0r bad news?? dunn0. but g0nna try hard lens. dun tink s0ft lens suit mie bahx. makin mua eyes red n evriting. wan buy heels! im br0ke!! n mua heels br0ke! s0bs. but its a sure ting, c0s its been wif mie fer 1yr+. sadx. c0s its mua fav heels.

ytd had been cryin 0ver sumtingx..
tankx ba0beix, ii wet urr shirt=X
but urr hugs make mie feel betta.

tinkin bac e past daex 0f mua life.. realising e m0st terrible ting..
dat ferr sh0 mani yrs, ii 0wayyx THOT ii had gd frenx n evriting.
but im wr0ng, DEEPLY n TERRIBLY WRONG.
mayb tuh mie, dey`re bl0ody gd frenx.
but in their harts, ii n0e im jux a SUMONE..
wh0m wen dey nid help, dey`ll find mie.
wanna g0 0ut, dey`ll find mie.
but dere r s0me impt daex in mua life, wen ii wish dey were dere,
dey werent EVEN dere.
wen iim sad 0r unhappi, dere`s n0 f0ne kalls 0r wat.
dey wun make a m0ve tuh ask mie 0ut fer a drink 0r a t0k.
nth.. nth ishx d0ne.
n sumtymx ii th0t dat im FOOLISH.
tuh hav been dere ferr dem, tuh gib in sh0 muchh in e frenship.
but e returns dat ii get, ishx silence..
n0rt even a place in their harts.....

take mua 17th bdae as an example bahx.
kena rejected by all 0f dem,
wen ii sae tuh find 0ne dae 0ut tuh celeb mua bdae.
n0 0ne n0es e feelins inside mie.
ii may b smilin 0n e 0utside.
but n0ne n0es, dat e w0rds said had break mua hart.
n 0n mua bdae itself, h0w mani acheri rmb it??
h0w mani acheri make an attempt tuh wish mie?
e 0nes ii th0t wil sms din, e 0nes ii din expect dey acheri rmb.
wat ken ii sae frm all dese????

ask urself, dat h0w mani tymx did eu acheri th0t 0f mie evridae?
1o tymx? 1? 0r n0ne??
n at wat tymx wil eu tink 0f mie?
wen urr sad? happi? angry? l0st? 0r simplyy wen urr b0red?
ii rather hav a few frenx wh0m ii ken kall evridae even tuh c0me 0ut fer a bite,
den hav mani frenx but n0ne 0f dem kares if im alive an0t.

dis feelin hurts l0tsa. n im findin it hard tuh accept.
babyy asked, izzit w0rth cryin fer dem?
n ii 0nli ken cry harder wen hearin dis.
as e truth bites mua hart tuh death..

mayb ii hurt eu wif mua w0rds....... but im saein e true feelins inside mie.

if urr reali mua fren, n eu treat mie as 0ne, eu wil accept e real mie n e ppl arnd mie.