Wednesday, August 30, 2006

1 dae tuh g0!!!!!!!!! FINALLI!! =)

g0nna chi0ng acc0unts. after sh0 l0ng, deariex derx hp finalli ken b c0llected later!!! yahx, its under repair ferr abt 1mth?? wth. sh0 deariex sis kall e n0kia kare center n sc0lded n c0mplained abt their service!!!! whahahx..

im deat beat after slpin at 3+am last nyte. finished studyin at 1+am lahx. den t0k tuh sis, til we b0th wanna cry?? yahx, menti0ned abt mua c0usin again. after dat ii went packin mua cupb0ard?? ken eu imagine?? in e middle 0f e nyte durin exam peri0d ii take 0ut mua cl0thes n pack?? hahax. c0s mua sis br0ught bac e CLOTHES DAT I ORDERED FRM HER SHOP!!! l0lx. n0 space in mua cupb0ard 0ready lahx. I WAN A BIG BIG CLOSET FER MUA CLOTHES!!!

new s0ngs d0wnl0aded. s0bs. 0nli ken hear frm hp lahx. speaker sp0il, haven take g0 repair. aniwae, sh0 mani ppl din g0 bac sch tml. esp th0se jc? yahx. nvm. shall mit e rest after e celebrati0n.

was lukin thru mua past updates, n f0und a p0em ii created ferr darlinx last yr?? kekex.

since her 1st l0ve iin e past, ~~sadness~~ 0wayyx fills herr hart.
true l0ve she dare n0rt ask, ~~tears~~ makin herr fall apart.
wen h0pes 0f l0ve r given up, eu went tuh herr n brin herr up.
eu brin c0lours she`ve neva seen, n laughters dat ishx neva f0und.
sh0 n0w she has fallen deep, iin sum0ne wh0 makes her w0rld g0 r0und.
she v0w tuh heaven sincerely, n0rt tuh leave eu wen iin nid.
tuh g0 thru thick n thin 0f e j0urney,wif hands h0ldin 0n 2gether tytely.
urr e lyte 0f herr darkness, e angel 0f herr l0neliness.
~~s0rr0ws~~ hav left herr since 22may, happiness has f0und herr 0n dat dae.
she pr0mised tuh l0ve eu til e end, gibin eu all e l0ve she ken.
she l0ve eu, r0dric 0ng, truly n h0pelessly.

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

finalli csa paper ishx 0ver. yupiex, im sh0 relieved n0w dat e tw0 maj0r papers r n0rt t0o bad lahx. shld b ken pass =) same ting, lenny aw was sh0 GD tuh GIB US E HINTS!! n ii 0nli studied e hints lahx. l0lx.

tml ec0ns paper, den ACCOUNTS!! h0pe acc0unts ii`ll b able tuh finish, n h0pe it`ll n0rt b t0o t0ugh?? nahx, ii dun tink sh0. c0s mua teacher sae `acheri e paper isnt difficult, but eu wun hav e tym tuh check n e tym tuh tink abt e f0rmat. eu c e Qn eu d0`. wtf??? sure n0 tym finish derx... =(

2m0re daex n ii`ll b g0in bac tuh c evri0ne includin mua bel0ved frenxxxx n teacherssss!!! im sh0 excited~~ LALALA.. =P

n den........................

its h0ls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tym ferr mie tuh rest... hav fun, n ~~m0ve 0n~~???

mayb im e 0ne hu kares t0o much. but ii din meant it.
shld ii kare?? 0r dun kare??

Monday, August 28, 2006

tankx shar0n, ferr gibin e hints ytd, all her hints came 0ut t0dae ferr exams. yahx, ii 0nli studied her hints. was carryin e th0t `its mua luck, either it c0mes 0ut n ii passed, 0r it din turn 0ut wat ii expect n retake supp`. sh0, ii guess, mayb mua c0usin ishx dere tuh help mie??

went tuh cut mua hair in e evenin at BUGIS?? went dere last min wen h0ney kalled n sae he`ll acc mie tuh g0 n cut. p0wer arhx mie?? felt sh0 nei jiu c0s j0lene w0rked OT ferr mie jux tuh cut mua hair=X n j0lene asked us a Qn, which ii din th0t 0f ferr n0w, n its w0rth tinkin abt it. `hav eu tw0 eva tink dat urr g0in tuh get married??` n mua ans ishx n0. all ii tink 0f ishx n0w. yahx, e present.

suddenly had a f0olish th0t, dat wat if h0ney leaves mie?? lyk mua c0usin did?? wat`ll eva bcum 0f mie?? wh0 m ii g0in tuh depend 0n? hu`ll b e 0ne tuh acc mie tuh places ii wanna g0, tuh hav fun wif mie n xpl0re e w0rld wif mie?? ii wish eu`ll neva eva leave.... cant imagine mua life with0ut EU..

hmMmx, im hack-karin e exams ferr n0w. its either a pass 0r a fail. lyk wat ms g0h sae, studies ishx nth but a stati0n we hav tuh get thru in life. y stress 0urselves up n ferget abt 0ther m0re impt tingx in life??

im lukin ferrward tuh 31aug wher ii`ll get tuh mit mua preci0us n all.. hav learn tuh appreciate n treasure e tym wif ppl hu means al0t tuh mie. h0pe dis h0ls ken b a bz 0ne tuh av0id mie frm tinkin sh0 muchh bahx. sh0 peeps, ask mie 0ut weneva eu all ken?? ii wanna b 0ut 0f e silent state n int0 e enj0yin state..... =(

w0 hen xiang nii.. j0ey sis, urr n0, urr evriting, ishx stil in mua hp, in mua mind, in evriwher dat has 0ur mem0ries. h0w ii wish urr here again tuh beat n make fun 0f us.. h0w ii wish ii ken turn bac e tym...

s0me f0tox in e past few weeks.. *updated*

taken at esplanade durin firew0rks..

rena, shar0n, verlyn

at li sheng jie c0ncert in tp..

0ur anniversary..

new hair cut taken ytd..
j0lin perm abit mua hair at e ends. sh0 ugliee!

xie xie ni h0ney, ferr acc-in mie e past few daex..

Sunday, August 27, 2006

verlyn misses eu *

eu din even gib us a chance tuh tel eu dat we l0ve eu..
n dere, eu went awae, disappearin 0ut 0f 0ur sight,
carryin 0n wif urr path.. in an0ther w0rld,
sh0 distant, sh0 far, frm us..

ii cant c0ncentrate, cant studi..
ii dun wanna b al0ne``
wh0`s dere ferr mie??
wh0`s dere tuh acc mie??

[ lukin at urr f0tox taken durin urr bdae last yr, tears r0lled d0wn+ ]

Friday, August 25, 2006

ii mishh herr.. al0t al0t ='(

after 3daex 0f cryin, her funeral is 0ver. tym seems sh0 sh0rt ferr us t0 b wif her even ferr 1 m0re sec0nd. ytd is e w0rse dae 0f all. wher earli in e m0rnin we`re cryin l0udly. g0tta h0ld 0n t0 mua sis. c0s she`s t0o agitated dat she tried t0 get near e c0ffin n kip sh0utin dat she wans her t0 c0me bac. s0bs. dad pull her 0ut n she`s numb frm head t0 t0e, n her hands were cramped at e m0ment. grandma was t0o sadx. haix. she had been cryin sh0 0ften. e th0usands 0f paper crane we`ve f0lded ferr her wen she`s in e h0spital, we sticked it t0 her c0ffin ytd.

was standin infr0nt 0f her pics wen ii th0t 0f e past mem0ries wif her. sh0 mani places, sh0 mani stuffs we did 2gether. tampines t0 jur0ng, suntec t0 w0odlands 0r ani place, we`ve been dere 2gether. new yr c0untd0wn, xmas xchangin 0f gifts, c0untd0wn, ktv, m0vies, sh0ppin, swimmin, slackin at starbucks.. t0o mani mem0ries, t0o much sadness, ii`ll neva eva ferget....

she`s 0wayyx mua c0usin, 0wayyx she`ll b. n0 0ne ken replace her, n0rt even e mem0ries she left wif us. tankx al0t ferr evriting. we`ll rmb eu, l0ve eu, lyk we 0wayyx d0.........

din manage t0 apply ferr e supp exams n n0rt take e main exams. sh0 ii g0tta start muggin n0w. lackin 0f slp, slp 1st den mug bahx. h0pe ii ken c0ncentrate 0n mua studies 1st n n0rt tink abt her lerx bahx. gimme enc0uragement!!! c0s verlyn had 0nli less den 3daex t0 studi ferr 4papers!! n 0ne 0f e killin paper is ACCOUNTS! n0rt fergettin CSA!

bye t0 bl0ggin n e net w0rld ferr e tym bein. after nxt thur ii ken finalli rest.. shall luk ferward t0 dat dae bahx.

ii reali mish eu, regretted dat we din hav e chance tuh tel eu h0w muchh we l0ve eu....

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

gd bye tuh eu.. eu`ll 0wayyx stay in 0ur harts.. ferr ehh verx.. neva wil eu eva leave. its a sudden news ferr all 0f us. but eu`re g0ne.. ferr gd. n we hav tuh accept e news n0 matter wat. tankx ferr bein such a w0nderful pers0n in 0ur lives. eu br0ught us e j0y n laughter.. rest in peace.. evri0ne 0f us wil pray ferr eu. ferr ehh verx n ehh verx, eu`ll 0wayyx b 0ur bel0ved-j0ey....

th0se hu n0e her n wish tuh g0 d0wn e funeral ferr e last tym.. ken gimme a kall..

P.S: nu-er xie xie ni, eu take e tr0uble tuh c0me d0wn n help us ytd. n ii was t0o bz n neglected eu. aniwae, reali tankx ferr urr enc0uragement..

Monday, August 21, 2006

ken eu believe ii acheri wake up sh0 earli??? its 7+am in e m0rnin! all tankx tuh DARLINX!! he w0ke mie up all 0f a sudden at 7+am c0s he wanna g0 sch n ask mie tuh 0pen e d0or ferr him... n dats wen ii did, n ii cant get bac tuh slp...... =X

w0nderin y l0ve always seems t0 make ppl si qu hu0 lai?

Sunday, August 20, 2006

wat a dae tuh start e celebrati0n 0f 0ur 15mth anniversary.... =(

ii AP-ied deariex lerx. im s0rriex. but ii din meant it. c0s eu left mie al0ne tuh g0 h0me muaself wen im at uncle`s hse. which ii HATED. end up n0 nid g0 h0me lerx[ferr s0me reas0ns ii nid g0 h0me, but ken0t sae wat. hahax.], tankx tuh prisc jie. HATE MUA AUNT!! damn her!! mei li ma0, anih0w c mua sis hp. fark.

mit deariex at mrt stati0n. n 0n e wae tuh bugis we t0k abt mani tingx. yeahx, s0me argument again.. n we quarrelled AGAIN wen we JUX reached dere ='( evri0ne was lukin, castin weird glares at us. n dere we r, standin in e midst 0f e cr0wd, saein nth at all. ii HATE DAT FEELINS..

managed tuh yi ren rang yi bu after saein hurtin w0rds tuh each 0ther. n dere, at e ne0print sh0p, deariex hug mie tytely. n mua anger diminished wif his hugs.. t0ok pics ferr 0ur 15mth anni. den went tuh bugis st. ate, sh0p n buy tingx! hahax. sis g0nna buy e dress ferr mie. n ii b0ught a necklace.

reached far east. n ii saw sh0 mani tingx ii lyk!! but ii cant buyy. s0bs. envy ppl hu hav l0tsa m0ney n spent. ken spent all dey wan with0ut w0rriex. n0rt lyk mie. haix. DEARIEX MAKE MIE JEALOUS!! b0ught 2 limited editi0n tees at $138!! 0mg. he`s damn rich. hahax. g0rt e privilege card n a free necklace w0rth $39. he g0rt da feng sh0u siax. hahax. n k0r k0r sms-ed mie ask mie eat dinner. n deariex make mie cry lerx. his w0rds hurt mie lyk needles.

left far east n we QUARRELLED AGAIN~ ii dun wan deariex tuh g0 plae mahj0ng at nyte. but he wanted. n we started quarrelling. frm far east tuh cine. haix. n ke0ng kalled n LIED TUH MIE dat it was th0mas bdae?? wtf. h0w ken ii n0rt b angry???

went tuh c0llect 0ur tix ferr `gh0st game` n straightawae g0 in e cinema lerx. rated e m0vie ****. n0rt bad. scary..

we mished e last train. n ii ap0logise tuh desm0nd im n0rt able tuh make it ferr urr bdae celebrati0n =X s0rriex. c0s n0 train tuh g0 d0wn pasir ris 0ready. t0ok bus65. n deariex sae break again.

cryin lyk mad, eyes pain.
wet n dry? wats dat feelin??
hart breakin, wif urr w0rds.
im s0rriex tuh treat eu dat wae.
but urr e 0ne hu sae break.
n ii`ve g0rt nth else tuh sae..

deariex f0rced mie tuh turn n face him. n with his gentle hands, he wiped mua tears awae, makin mie cry m0re. feelin sh0 st0opid, y d0 we sae break n hurt each 0ther wen we dun even wan t0?? t0k tingx 0ut. n realised dat it ishx 0wayyx c0mmunicati0n breakd0wn btween us. ii sae e reas0n y ii dun wan him tuh g0 at e end--dat ii`ll b al0ne at h0me, sis n0rt arnd, n after watchin a gh0st m0vie, he expects mie tuh stay al0ne?? n deariex realised his mistake. c0s he th0t mua sis wil b h0me n th0t im jux bein unreas0nable.

tingx were s0lved. n he sc0lded ke0ng dey all ferr lyin tuh us dat it was th0mas bdae. happi endin at e end.. n ii n0e ii cant live w/o HIM.........

s0me zi lian pics again...

t-shirt n jeans--simple mie..

Friday, August 18, 2006

happi bdae tuh eileen, mua c0usin!!

had a small argument wif ba0beix dis m0rnin. c0s, 0nce again, he DIN TURN UP FER SCH! din n0e wat tuh sae. sh0 ii decided tuh kip quiet all e while til he msg mie. n ii stil din even b0ther tuh reply him muchh. enuff 0f all e unbr0ken pr0mises he made!!

but as usual, iim n0rt angry ferr l0ng. finalli finished mua last pr0j! sh0 happi siax. l0lx. walked 0ut 0f sch wif adeline n saw shujuan. sh0 we t0ok f0tox! c0s adeline sae its e last dae 0f sch wan ji nian. hahax. lame -.-ll

went tuh babyy hse. den waited ferr him tuh plae game while ii eat maggie mee. p0or ting ryte?? frm m0rnin til 4+pm ii 0nli ate sandwich!! was rushin mua pr0j mahx sh0 ask charlie tuh da ba0 sandwich int0 e c0m lab ferr mie.

den went tuh uncle`s hse at abt 6pm. had 0ur dinner, sing bdae s0ng, n ate e cake. 9+pm mie n babyy g0 bac lerx. tml stil nida wake up earli!! sadx. but g0in celeb 0ur 15mth!! =PpP

yiqii: dun sh0 sadx lahx. dat tym sae read mua bl0g sad. den n0w eu wryte 0so abt e same ting?? c0ntradictin siax eu. stil rmb e w0rds eu sae tuh mie?? n0w ii sae it bac tuh eu!! dun w0rriex kaex? stil g0rt MIE!! haahx. =P ii mish eu darlins~~

Thursday, August 17, 2006

LI SHENG JIE ROCKS!!

hahax. 0verall e c0ncert was 0kaex. he`s n0rt shuai BUT he`s pr0 in his singin 0kaex.. l0lx. wanna ap0logise tuh ba0beix, c0s he was dere wif mie all e while but end up he cant g0 in!!!!!!!! damn dat bl0ody ger 0kaex!! e guy sae sec sch ez-link ken use but e ger dun wanna listen! fark. end up babyy g0 bac al0ne. s0bs=( dui bu qi darlinx..

tml had a bdae gatherin at uncle hse after sch. h0ney eu betta c0me!! l0lx. mua c0usin invite eu lerx w0rx =P nxt week`s startin mua studi week lerx. mitin up wif de jian, adeline, samuel n mayb charlie? tuh studi 2getherr. n ii cant wait ferr exams tuh b 0ver! h0pe ba0beix g0 tuh his br0 hse tuh stay frm sept 0nwards. den its mua h0ls. den ii ken g0 dere n swim, g0 gym, plae p0ol. kekex. nice wae tuh spend mua h0ls. ii wanna jian fei! hahax =)

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

s0rriex d0do, ii nearly make eu cry wif mua w0rds. its n0rt urr fault gerr, reali. ii din blame eu ferr n0rt havin tym tuh acc us. reali. ii understand urr life, n0e urr havin pr0bs wif urr klass n studies. sh0 dun blame urself kaex? *huggiex* eu stil g0rt mie. urr bdae eu wun b al0ne derx=) hahax. lyk ii sae, if ii din acc eu 0n dat dae eu ken strangle mie tuh DEATHHH!!! =P

tinkin bac th0se 0ld daex, wher h0ney br0ught mie l0tsa l0ve n c0ncern n happi mem0ries, ii felt sh0 blissed havin him arnd. n e daex in sec sch, wher in e klass we had fun 2gether, studi 2gether, suan teacher 2gether... e 7dwarfs+evil queen had given mie w0nderful frenship... weneva ii cry, dey r 0wayyx dere, n0rt fergettin e special pers0n, mua nu-er, hu lend mie her sh0ulder in e sch hall 2yrs ag0 wen daddy n mummy b0th fell ill. dat was e darkest m0ment in mua life.. wen im reali l0st n tired..

e daex in tianeng, wif k0r k0r dey all arnd tuh j0ke n crap, bringin awae mua sadness n l0neliness. k0r 0wayyx pat mua head n ask mie, `mei eu eat lerx mahx? , mei h0w`s urr studies?, mei h0w`s eu n wei zha0? , mei did ppl bullie eu?` n mani m0re. didi, ah an n br0ther chuan, e 3 elders in tianeng, hu treat mie lyk their 0wn children, karin ferr mie n takin gd kare 0f mie. ii mishh li0n dance... mishh clubbin wif dem... mishh ktv wif dem... mishh e big gr0up hu watched m0vie 2gether. n m0st 0f all.. ii mishh dem...

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

damn tired after d0in tw0 daex 0f acc0unts. GST ishx killin mie! exams r c0min in less den 2weeks. n ii haven even started studyin yet. g0rt bac mua p0m c0ursew0rk results. damn sadx. haix, mua test g0rt A. but e 0verall marks g0rt pulled d0wn tuh a C+. n even if ii sc0red full marks ferr mua main exams, ii 0nli ken get a B. cant even get an A. n its jux dat 1-2 marks...

mua acc0unts c0ursew0rk n0rt t0o bad. g0rt a B. but teacher help mie calculated. ii nida get 87 ferr main exams den ken get an A. 87??!!! im n0rt h0pin muchh. jux h0pe e nxt few daex g0rt bac mua 0ther c0ursew0rk grades wun b sh0 sadx bahx.

durin acc0unts tut0r sae l0tsa tingx. n ii tink abt evri w0rd she sae. she`s ryte. dat 0ur life isnt all abt studies. studies may b a part 0f us but its n0rt g0nna b l0ng. life ishx even m0re den dat. mani 0f us 0wayyx th0t dat we mux studi n sc0re well. but all dese tingx makes us ferg0t e impt tingx in life, e fun, e laughter n evriting. sh0 wat if we ken get straight As in 0ur dipl0ma?? sh0 wat if we gr0w up n get 0urselves gd j0bs?? we cant take dese tingx wif us wen we leave dis w0rld. take sumtym 0ff ferr s0me reflecti0ns al0ne. n eu`ll realised e mani w0nderful tingx eu`ve mished 0ut durin 0ur hectic schedules. . . .

*pics updated* scr0ll d0wn fer firew0rks..

e table.. hahax.

ii l0ve dis pic.. babyy`s blurr face =P

e bg nice ryte?? had a difficult tym takin it=X
end up askin 0thers tuh help us. l0lx.

e view durin evenin tym~

sat firew0rks..

e endin. it luks lyk g0ld! h0w ii wish ii ken take it...

Sunday, August 13, 2006

after daex 0f firew0rks, im abit tired 0f seein it. hahax. but regretted dat e past few firew0rks din brin camera. but ii g0rt use mua hp tuh vide0 it d0wn. 0nli ytd derx ii use digicam vide0 it d0wn n t0ok 2 f0tox. c0s n0rt enuff mem0ry=X its nice!!! put e vide0s n f0tox inside c0m lerx. hahax. e vide0 damn clear!! l0lx. but e last part din managed tuh vide0 it. 0nli f0tox. th0se hu wan ytd derx vide0 ken ask mie. e past few daex derx ii 0so ken send, but nid realplayer tuh plae =\

s0rriex darlinx, ytd we quarrelled again. n at e m0ment eu sae s0rriex tuh mie n hug mie, ii cant c0ntrol mua tears. dui bu qi 0nce again, ii wet urr shirt. n im s0rriex dat ii tried tuh gib eu up. tankx ferr evriting. n makin mie sh0 happi after dat=)

w0 men sh0u qian zhe sh0u, yi zhii da0 la0 =P

peeps, n0e mua p0sts caused s0me disturbance in eu all. im n0rt particularly referin tuh hu. its e 0verall frenx. sec sch frenx, li0n dance frenx, frenx 0utside n evriting. im s0rriex. mayb wat eu guys sae r ryte, but dere r jux sumtingx dat pr0ve mie tuh tink 0therwise. tingx dat n0bodi n0es. except mie, muaself....

Saturday, August 12, 2006

bac frm firew0rks. happi dae at e end. startin was quarrellin wif babyy 0ver mua cl0thes. s0bs. went sing ktv t0o!! kekex. sh0 l0ng din sing lerx =)

kena nag n sc0lded byy mum ferr kip usin e c0m. sianx. aniwae, went tuh check mua eyes ytd. astigmatism increase, degree e same. gd news 0r bad news?? dunn0. but g0nna try hard lens. dun tink s0ft lens suit mie bahx. makin mua eyes red n evriting. wan buy heels! im br0ke!! n mua heels br0ke! s0bs. but its a sure ting, c0s its been wif mie fer 1yr+. sadx. c0s its mua fav heels.

ytd had been cryin 0ver sumtingx..
tankx ba0beix, ii wet urr shirt=X
but urr hugs make mie feel betta.

tinkin bac e past daex 0f mua life.. realising e m0st terrible ting..
dat ferr sh0 mani yrs, ii 0wayyx THOT ii had gd frenx n evriting.
but im wr0ng, DEEPLY n TERRIBLY WRONG.
mayb tuh mie, dey`re bl0ody gd frenx.
but in their harts, ii n0e im jux a SUMONE..
wh0m wen dey nid help, dey`ll find mie.
wanna g0 0ut, dey`ll find mie.
but dere r s0me impt daex in mua life, wen ii wish dey were dere,
dey werent EVEN dere.
wen iim sad 0r unhappi, dere`s n0 f0ne kalls 0r wat.
dey wun make a m0ve tuh ask mie 0ut fer a drink 0r a t0k.
nth.. nth ishx d0ne.
n sumtymx ii th0t dat im FOOLISH.
tuh hav been dere ferr dem, tuh gib in sh0 muchh in e frenship.
but e returns dat ii get, ishx silence..
n0rt even a place in their harts.....

take mua 17th bdae as an example bahx.
kena rejected by all 0f dem,
wen ii sae tuh find 0ne dae 0ut tuh celeb mua bdae.
n0 0ne n0es e feelins inside mie.
ii may b smilin 0n e 0utside.
but n0ne n0es, dat e w0rds said had break mua hart.
n 0n mua bdae itself, h0w mani acheri rmb it??
h0w mani acheri make an attempt tuh wish mie?
e 0nes ii th0t wil sms din, e 0nes ii din expect dey acheri rmb.
wat ken ii sae frm all dese????

ask urself, dat h0w mani tymx did eu acheri th0t 0f mie evridae?
1o tymx? 1? 0r n0ne??
n at wat tymx wil eu tink 0f mie?
wen urr sad? happi? angry? l0st? 0r simplyy wen urr b0red?
ii rather hav a few frenx wh0m ii ken kall evridae even tuh c0me 0ut fer a bite,
den hav mani frenx but n0ne 0f dem kares if im alive an0t.

dis feelin hurts l0tsa. n im findin it hard tuh accept.
babyy asked, izzit w0rth cryin fer dem?
n ii 0nli ken cry harder wen hearin dis.
as e truth bites mua hart tuh death..

mayb ii hurt eu wif mua w0rds....... but im saein e true feelins inside mie.

if urr reali mua fren, n eu treat mie as 0ne, eu wil accept e real mie n e ppl arnd mie.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

updates 0n e highlights 0f past few daex!!

tue

did mua excel test-14.5/15! easi test. hahax.

get bac mua p0m pr0ject marks. its shyt ii tel eu. mua gr0up g0rt e l0west in klass as expected. evri0ne was gettin an A, but we g0rt a B. wtf ryte?? but im glad dat e 0nli part dat ii did muaself, teacher sae its gd. n dats e 0nli part dat has n0 err0rs! =P hahax. clever arhx mie? l0lx.

went tuh marina sq after sch. intend tuh watch m0vie at 4. but in e end after ii released reach h0me 0ready 3.o5pm. den prepare da0 lai 4.25. sh0 din watch lerx. went tuh marina sq n walk walk 1st. g0 buy tix ferr `click` at 9.2opm. had 0ur dinner. den went tuh esplanade ferr a gd place. heex. slack dere n mit shar0n, rena n their 2 frenx. at 9pm e firew0rks started. damn ncie!!!!!!!!! hahax. nicer den sat derx. l0lx. l0ve it!

after dat rushed tuh catch e m0vie. farni n t0uchin, ii cried l0rx. in e end f0und 0ut e endin was lyk.. y ii cry siax. hahax. went h0me after dat.

tankx ba0beix. ii scared tuh g0 up al0ne n eu g0t 0ff e cab n send mie bac h0me b4 g0in d0wn again. a simple acti0n byy eu t0uched mua hart. =) ii l0ve eu~

wed

happi 41st bdae singap0re!

wake up at 9+am. st0opid st0mach caused disturbance in mua slp. haix. wasnt feelin veh well=X

ba0beix n his br0 drive n fetch mie. ii was late by 15mins?? hahax. went tuh carlt0n h0tel n had 0ur breakfast at a cant0nese restaurent in e h0tel. yummilici0us! hahax. t0tal spend-$245!! l0lx. exp breakfast wasnt it??

den mie n ba0beix went tuh bugis, t0ok 0ur ne0prints. saw d0do. hahax. pr0ceed tuh marina sq. dese few daex kip g0in dere siax. sh0 sianx. shar0n, angelia n her sis came find us. d0do din c0me=( hahax. saw ba0beix frenx dere 0so.

idi0tic!!! din catch e firew0rks!! its at kallang. fark. last yrr at esplanade put l0rx. sadded siax. haix. went tuh b0at quay find ba0beix br0 again. den he send us h0me. kekex.

deariex sh0 gd siax. if his o levels g0rt 12pts h0rx, he ken get $5ooo!!! ii wan 0so!!

Monday, August 07, 2006

MUA COMM SKILLS TEST GONE CASE!!!!!!!!!! URGH!!!!!!!!!

e teacher ishx mad l0rx. sh0 mani Qn in 9o mins??? e rep0rt wrytin al0ne nids 45mins!! din finish in tym. n ii l0se 2omarks c0s ii mistaken e tym ferr e paper as 11omins! 65mins g0ne n ii th0t ii stil hav 45mins? in e end teacher sae left 3omins. ii was lyk... wtf! stil g0rt secti0n C haven d0!

din managed tuh chi0ng it. haix. sadded. was damn tired. after e test did c0mm skills pr0ject. yeahx.. finalli left 1 pr0j tuh rush. e burdens r g0ne! c0untd0wn 21daex tuh main exams! sh0 mani tingx tuh d0......... sh0 lil tym..............

tym ferr f0tox~ firew0rks festival o5o8o6 . . .

mua hairstyle =)

Sunday, August 06, 2006

ytd was a happi happi dae! hen jiu d0u mei y0u na me kai xin lerx. xie xie ni la0gongx, eu fulfiled mua dae wif a happi hart, a happi smile=)

ii w0ke up earli ytd. at abt 1o+am?? l0lx. qi ji ryte? th0u fri nyte ii had ins0mnia. hahax. prepared tuh g0 0ut while h0ney ishx stil slpin bside mua bed, sh0 s0undly. he`s gettin laziee n0wadaex. slp veh l0ng, g0 0ut wil hear him sae veh tired etc. but he`s mua h0ney, sh0 he hav tuh bear wif dis. l0lx. finalli figured 0ut wat tuh wear after e p0nderin since fri nyte! hahax. wake h0ney at 11.3o n f0rced him up tuh prepare. it was abt 1pm wen we leave mua hse! earli earli=P mit prisc jie at mrt stati0n tuh pass her e charger. she br0ught babyy`rik0 wif her! but rik0 dun lemme carri her. s0bs. she scared 0f h0ney. hahax. pr0ceeded tuh bugis. finalli ii get tuh sh0p bugis after sh0 mani weeks! but s0me sh0ps din 0pen l0rx. saded. th0se r e 0nes ii wanna g0 in n c. nvm. b0ught s0me snacks n eat. den g0 t0wn. had abit 0f argument wif h0ney. but we din quarrel, alth0u h0ney kip sae mie tuh pr0voke mie=)

at far east, 1st ting ishx tuh g0 tuh e sh0p wher ii c mua dress. s0bs. e 1st dress ii saw finished 0ready! but ii f0und 0ne similar derx at e 0ther sh0p. it wasnt dat nice n e price ishx higher! sh0 ii gib up e 1st dress. went tuh an0ther sh0p tuh check if mua 2nd dress was dere! YEAHX! hahax. it was e LAST PIECE =X but e black 0ne was 0rdered by 0thers! sh0 ii t0ok e whyte 0ne. n h0ney b0ught it ferr mie!!!!!!!!!! tankx al0t al0t ba0beix! *mmuackkx*

den we went tuh sh0p arnd. ke0ng kalled n we mit him. 2gether wif his ger derx fren, we went shaw ferr 0ur dinner at mac. after dat mie n h0ney t0ok shuttle bus tuh marina sq. walked tuh esplanade frm dere. e tym we reached was abt 6.15pm. dere were places at e bac but ii pulled h0ney tuh e middle. haahx. c0s ii feel dere wil b a betta sp0t tuh c e firew0rks! we slack arnd, h0ney plaed PSP while ii rest 0n him. c0s e wind ishx bl0win t0o str0ng, makin mua eyes hurt frm e stingin sensati0n. finalli h0ney PSP n0 batt, l0lx. n we t0k n plaed til 9pm. e firew0rks ishx startin. n ii turned n sit 0n h0ney`s leg. felt sh0 cl0sed tuh him. hahax. abt 9.o4pm e firew0rks started! vide0ed it d0wn. n dis ishx e 1st tym we ken acheri c e firew0rks sh0 relaxly, sh0 clearly. it lasted ferr abt 15mins. NICE! =P

saw huili n her b0ii. hahax. slack awhile m0re at esplanade, den g0 plaza tuh c0llect 0ur m0vie tix. eat mac again! ferr e 2nd tym. hahax. its macD0nald`s dae~~ watched `e fast n e furi0us-e t0ky0 drift` at 11.4opm. NICE SHOW! l0lx. h0ney sh0 happi. hahax. t0ok midnyte bus bac h0me. t0o tired n ii fell asleep 0n e bus.. =X

tankx jaslyn, ferr tellin mie e c0rrect inf0 ferr e firew0rks. if n0rt ii wun n0e dat its 0n sat n n0rt sun.

ii felt sh0 w0nderful. finalli, ii ken feel dat we`re sl0wly m0vin bac tuh e past. sl0wly.... bac tuh e mem0ries wher smiles ken b seen n n0rt tears. xie xie ni ba0beix. ii`ll kip mua pr0mise made tuh eu. its n0rt tirin, im n0rt feelin xingku, reali. h0pe ii kip mua pr0mise, eu ken 0so kip urs t0o. ii l0ve eu darlinx....

shar0n`lessy: mua twinnie arhx, mux eat lehx. dun later bcum lyk mie here pain dere pain. understand? aniting sae 0ut pls. dun kip tuh urrself. im here eu n0e?? huggiex.

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st0mach pain again! URGHH!

g0in schh!

sadx.. hahax. damn farni..

twist.. hu m ii lukin at?

Friday, August 04, 2006

gastric pain all arnd mua st0mach.. e left side, center, even mua hart 0so pain. felt lyk e nerve ishx pullin but ii cant d0 aniting. its 7am in e m0rnin. dragged muaself tuh e kitchen n grabbed a piece 0f bread tuh eat. n0 use. ask mummy fer help. she gimme gastric pills. still, it d0esnt help. was t0ssin n turnin in bed, sufferin in ag0ny. finalli, e pain subsided. ii fell asleep. but b4 l0ng, ii w0ke up again at 9+am. rushed tuh e t0ilet. diarrh0ea! haix. e m0rnin ishx n0rt a gd wan. mish excel test. haix. dunn0 e retest wil difficult n0rt =X

ba0beix came mua hse after sch. tankx al0t deariex. acc mie n help mie dis la0 ah ma. l0lx. went tuh e p0lyclinic. e d0c scared mie. hahax. in e end she herself 0so dunn0 wat illness ii g0rt. 0nli gimme gastric pills etc. lukin ferward tuh tml! n n0rt fergettin 9aug!

tankx evri0ne hu kared n enc0uraged mie e past few daex. im sh0 t0uched byy all 0f eu, n ii wanna sae here.. dat verlyn l0ve all 0f eu! eu peeps make a gr8 impact 0n her, lettin her hav e c0urage tuh g0 thru all dese difficulties! she`ll pr0ved tuh all 0f eu dat she ken d0 it! xie xie ni men!

Thursday, August 03, 2006

t0dae reali was a shag dae.. mit beeping n shiying at c0m lab t0dae in e m0rnin. as earli as 1o.15?? tuh mie its earli lahx =P rushed 0ur pr0ject. did e c0untry analysis 0f 26pages??!! t0ld dem n0 nid sh0 muchh. dey insist. sh0 s0on kiat came n we asked him. n he sae n0 nid sh0 muchh! end up spendin 0ur tym deletin e inf0. by e tym we leave e lab its 0ready 11.3oam! wen 0ur presentati0n ishx at 11.35! run tuh ez-printin, printed 0n paper, bind n print 0n transparencies. rushed bac tuh biz sch level 5 fer 0ur presentati0n! n0rt t0o bad arhx mie. e runnin tires mie 0ut! rushed int0 e r0om n present 0n e sp0t. n0rt scared 0f e teacher. hahax. after e PPT den realised ii left bee ping`s thumbdrive n shiying`s ec0ns b0ok at ez-printin! chi0ng! run again. hahax. mit shar0n at lab. den she acc mie g0 century sq repair h0ney`s hp. his f0ne sp0il lerx. s0bs. den went bac h0me. watched `ai qing m0 fa shi`. damn nice! n after watchin.. ii started tuh tink abt mani tingx n realised all e tingx dat ii`ve neglected all e while.

its 0wayyx mie, hu d0 n0rt trust him enuff. its been 1yr+. n e trust had n0rt t0tally been put 0n him. im s0rriex, its mua fault. mua past ishx stil hauntin mie, h0ldin mie bac, castin unwanted th0ts in mua mind. im afraid, deep inside mie im afraid, dat if ii trust him t0o muchh, 1 dae he might turn awae frm mie n neva c0me bac. if dis happens, ii`ll hate muaself ferr trustin him. n ii cant imagine a dae, with0ut him in mua life. im dependent 0n him, dis ishx e fact dat ii did n0rt wanna admit. ii n0e dat with0ut him, ii`ll b in t0tal mess, t0tal l0st 0f e path in life. dats e reas0n y ii tied him sh0 tyte tuh mie.

but n0w ii n0e, dat dis ishx n0rt e wae 0ut. y hav ii changed tuh dis state? y hav ii bcum a w0rse ger fer him? ii failed tuh fulfil mua pr0mise, but ii blame him ferr e pr0mises he din kept. n0w, wen tingx happened in e wae n0rt ii wanted, ii failed tuh tink in his sh0es ferr him. ii let mua mind take 0ver mie, c0ntrollin mie. lettin mua em0tions make tingx w0rse, saein e hurtin w0rds tuh him. e pr0b lies wif mie. ii pr0mise him dat ii`ll sae 0ut mua feelins, but end up, ii sae 0ut e 0pposite 0f wat ii feel. mayb dats e reas0n, dat e relati0nship wil sumh0w w0rsen. ii`ve tink evriting thru, th0t e tingx im determined tuh d0. n ii h0pe we`ll return bac tuh e past, wher happiness n laughter fills 0ur hart, n n0rt sadness. im tired 0f e quarrels, but iim neva tired bein wif eu......

ii h0pe ii ken changed tuh b his betta ger, ani0ne 0ut dere tuh gimme e enc0uragement??

mua hart stil beats ferr eu~~

P.S: f0tox updated! btw, its al0t! hahax. =P ani0ne wanna g0 c firew0rks??

durin P0M presentati0n~