Saturday, April 29, 2006

finalli its weekend n0w. slept at 2am last nyte. w0ke at 9.3oam dis m0rnin. sianx. 0rdered mac delivery tuh ba0beix hse. earli iin e m0rnin we quarrelled. alth0u after dat was 0kaex. hate it. 0wayyx had tuh quarrel 0n sat.

babyy, if 0nli eu n0e h0w ii feel.. den mayb eu wil tryy tuh understand m0re. n st0p disapp0intin mie wif wat eu hav d0ne. iim tired 0f unkept pr0mises frm eu...... ii th0t eu wil kip e pr0mise eu made. ii even th0t disapp0intment was 0nli iin e past. but ii guess.. iim veh wr0ng.. =(

g0nna buy mmc later 0n ferr mua hp. mayb thumbdrive 0so bahx. h0pe mua pay ken take lerx. g0nna luk ferr j0bs t0o. xia0ling kalled n t0ld mie l0tsa j0bs dat she has f0und ferr mie. tankx!

p0ly was 0kaex. was hangin 0ut wif shar0n n angelia all e while. was guilty, c0s mua klassmates kip ask mie g0 break wif dem all dat. but ii cant. c0s ii`ve mit shar0n. n even mua n0tes dey take ferr mie. dey r all nice ppl, helpful n karin. h0pe we ken reali click nxt week.

nu-er.. read urr bl0g. felt a sense 0f guilt iin mie. iim s0rriex ii t0ok sh0 l0ng tuh ask ferr urr passw0rd. guess urr veh disapp0inted iin mie bahx. tears filled mua eyes wen ii read all urr updates. iim saein real. c0s ii ken reali sense e helplessness n sadness eu felt. n wat urr g0in thru. ii dunn0 wat ii ken d0 tuh help. h0pe ken mit eu 0ut n eu jux p0ur urr harts 0ut. dats e best ii ken d0. ii wan e 0ld eu back. but ii n0e, n0w, its alm0st imp0ssible. even if it ishx, eu nid al0t al0t 0f tym tuh get past all e hurts n tears. e scar wil stil b dere. nii yi ding ya0 ha0 ha0 derx, ii cant pr0mise eu anitin n0w, c0s ii n0e eu ken take disapp0intment n0 m0re. but ii reali wish tuh b dere ferr eu. n0 matter wat urr g0in thru n0w. past week kalled eu wen ii was at mua ah ma funeral, n wen ii t0k tuh eu iin sch, ii realised eu reali hav changed tuh e gerr ii dunn0. iim l0st iin helpin eu -reali l0st.