Saturday, April 29, 2006

finalli its weekend n0w. slept at 2am last nyte. w0ke at 9.3oam dis m0rnin. sianx. 0rdered mac delivery tuh ba0beix hse. earli iin e m0rnin we quarrelled. alth0u after dat was 0kaex. hate it. 0wayyx had tuh quarrel 0n sat.

babyy, if 0nli eu n0e h0w ii feel.. den mayb eu wil tryy tuh understand m0re. n st0p disapp0intin mie wif wat eu hav d0ne. iim tired 0f unkept pr0mises frm eu...... ii th0t eu wil kip e pr0mise eu made. ii even th0t disapp0intment was 0nli iin e past. but ii guess.. iim veh wr0ng.. =(

g0nna buy mmc later 0n ferr mua hp. mayb thumbdrive 0so bahx. h0pe mua pay ken take lerx. g0nna luk ferr j0bs t0o. xia0ling kalled n t0ld mie l0tsa j0bs dat she has f0und ferr mie. tankx!

p0ly was 0kaex. was hangin 0ut wif shar0n n angelia all e while. was guilty, c0s mua klassmates kip ask mie g0 break wif dem all dat. but ii cant. c0s ii`ve mit shar0n. n even mua n0tes dey take ferr mie. dey r all nice ppl, helpful n karin. h0pe we ken reali click nxt week.

nu-er.. read urr bl0g. felt a sense 0f guilt iin mie. iim s0rriex ii t0ok sh0 l0ng tuh ask ferr urr passw0rd. guess urr veh disapp0inted iin mie bahx. tears filled mua eyes wen ii read all urr updates. iim saein real. c0s ii ken reali sense e helplessness n sadness eu felt. n wat urr g0in thru. ii dunn0 wat ii ken d0 tuh help. h0pe ken mit eu 0ut n eu jux p0ur urr harts 0ut. dats e best ii ken d0. ii wan e 0ld eu back. but ii n0e, n0w, its alm0st imp0ssible. even if it ishx, eu nid al0t al0t 0f tym tuh get past all e hurts n tears. e scar wil stil b dere. nii yi ding ya0 ha0 ha0 derx, ii cant pr0mise eu anitin n0w, c0s ii n0e eu ken take disapp0intment n0 m0re. but ii reali wish tuh b dere ferr eu. n0 matter wat urr g0in thru n0w. past week kalled eu wen ii was at mua ah ma funeral, n wen ii t0k tuh eu iin sch, ii realised eu reali hav changed tuh e gerr ii dunn0. iim l0st iin helpin eu -reali l0st.

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

sum f0tox 0f mie. hahax. zilian. l0lx.

well. back frm sch lerx. 2dae g0rt tw0 lectures. but b0th quite simple lahx. hahax. all klasses c0mbined sh0 ii sit wif shar0n dey all. submit m0ney all dat l0rx. den g0rt al0t 0f n0tes. break tym saw jingx. hahax. he came tuh business canteen. l0lx. e western dere was n0rt t0o bad. had an0ther hr break b4 e 2nd lecture sh0 went tuh find 0thers. l0tsa tingx g0in arnd. hmMmx. dunn0 wat cca tuh j0in siax. s0bs.

tml havin mua c0urse 0rientati0n n b0ok sale. tink wil b g0in back tuh jyss tuh c0llect mua o lebels cert.

sat dunn0 h0w lehx. w0nderin if k ishx stil 0n. n m0n 0so. g0in 0ut wif e gang?? dunn0. hmMmx. but h0pe sat ken acc ba0beix n k wil put 0n sun. c0s sun ba0beix n0rt free. den ii m0n 0so ken0t acc him.

dats all ii guess. tml studi 2hrs ken g0 back lerx! hahax. sh0 gd.

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

taken 0n 11mth anni..

Monday, April 24, 2006

t0dae ishx e last dae 0f funeral lerx. cried lyk hell. haix.

w0rds tuh grandma:after w0rkin sh0 hard ferr sh0 l0ng, its tym ferr eu tuh g0 iin peace. we wil l0ve eu n mish eu derx.

realised mani tingx after grandma ishx g0ne.

-learnt h0w tuh let g0 0f e 0nes we l0ve al0t. c0s dis ishx sumting evri0ne has tuh face s0oner 0r later.

-learnt dat l0ved 0nes wun b replace byy aniting.

n mani m0re. haix. l0tsa feelins n0w. sch, life, mua c0usin n family. evri0ne n0w ishx feelin d0wn. c0s n0 0ne n0es, wen ishx an0ther funeral c0min byy. ii dun wish dat tuh happen. but ii had n0 ch0ice. e d0c has declared o% ferr her rec0very. wat r we g0in tuh d0???

Saturday, April 22, 2006

thur was e 0rientati0n dae. ii was late! e st0opid bus lahx. damn full. we nid tuh reach at 8.3oam. but 8.25 ii was stil near mua hse. decided tuh walk dere. damn h0t l0rx. met d0do n kaisin den we g0 iinside l0rx. registered n we went tuh 0ur klass iin e audit0rium. ii different klass as kaisin. s0bs. but iin e end dey cant find mua klass. sh0 ask mie stay iin 1Ao3 first. saw jenny frm junyuan! she same klass as mie. hahax. we all e while 2gether l0rx. den wen evri0ne gathers sherry n an0ther guy[ii 4g0t wats his name] j0in us t0o. heex. kept cheerin ferr e wh0le dae. damn tirin. went back at 6pm. was at h0me wen sis sms mie n ii was sh0cked.

mua grandma passed awae n0rt l0ng ag0...............

hart sanked. was t0tally blanked abt wat had happened. haix. tink ii was t0o tired 0ut. fell aslp at 9! cant believe it. damn l0ng din slp sh0 earli lerx.

fri went back tuh e 0rientati0n. mua synergy leader[SL] f0und mua klass lerx. ii end up iin o5! damn suay l0rx. 0f all e klass 0nli o1 n o5 ii dun hav frenx! s0bs. had tuh re-intr0duce muaself tuh e 0thers. s0me 0f e gerx luk at mie n sae `y eu f0llow mua SL?`. ii was lyk, wth. t0ld dem evritin n dey finalli understand. duhx. met 0ur c0urse managers n care pers0n. mua kare pers0n was absent. sh0 she din c0me. n0e quite mani ppl iin e klass 0ready. hahax. c0s dey r kinda frendly. ii n d0do n kaisin ran awae at 2.3opm. mit ba0beix 0utside mua sch. den we g0 eat pizza. ii had speech dae tingy but ii din g0. c0s hair mux b natural mine ishx n0rt =\

went back h0me n daddy sae g0 tuh e funeral. reached dere n ii prayed. went iin tuh c grandma. dun dare tuh c. haix. but ii stil f0rced muaself c0s its e last tym ii c her. cried badly. haix. evri0ne was lyk sh0 calm while ii cried lyk hell.

calm muaself n helped tuh f0ld e paper. at nyyte went back h0me.

t0dae.. happi 11mth anni tuh mua ba0beix.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

been g0in 0ut lately. m0n mit d0do n celest we went sh0ppin. ba0beix had his pr0b ytd. haix. went tuh find him iin e n0on at 844 n acc him eat. den find wei dey all awhile. after dat g0 back gate find his frenx n van. he acc mie g0 temple pray den we went tuh tm tuh eat. went back h0me n 5plus mie n tricia went d0wn tuh ttsh. 8plus ii went back tamp n mit van n d0do underbl0ck tuh teach him physics. been 0ut 0f t0uch wif b0oks n0w. but was quite satisfied wif muaself c0s ii stil rmb s0me 0f it. hahax.

t0dae acc d0do g0 take her pay at cck den went bugis ii b0ught a t0p n d0do b0ught her stuffs. mit van again tuh teach him chem. hahax. mani f0tox tuh upl0ad. shall p0st it wen iim free.

damn nerv0us abt tml`s 0rientati0n! wat if ii cant make ani frenx? wat if ppl c mie n0rt unhappi? n mani m0re tingx. haix.

ba0beix, jux wanna sae ii l0ve eu damn l0ads. it hurts mie d0 eu n0e? wen ii heard eu 0n e f0ne"?? ii jux h0pe dis matter wil pass quickly n eu wil listen tuh mie n mua parents. dun make dem l0se faith in eu. ii believe iin eu. sh0 pls dun tink aniting f0olish tuh make mie scared. c0s ii reali dunn0 wat tuh d0 with0ut eu understand? *mmuackkx*

Saturday, April 15, 2006

thur went tuh change mua f0ne! daddy pay. hahax. trade iin mua samsung hp. s0bs. currently usin N323o n0rhx. den 0so celeb daddy bdae. ishx 0n fri. but c0s he 0ff sh0 celeb. heex. treat him g0 eat. den at nyte was watchin `er zu0 ju zhi wen`. nice! but lin yi chen lyk n0rt veh nice 0n e sh0w. ba0beix came 0ver n stay. heex. he b0ught ice-cream ferr mie. kekex.

fri, went 0ut wif ba0beix. ii g0 bugis cut mua hair 1st. change mua style. lyk weird?? e side kinda sh0rt. if ii din put mua hair infr0nt wil luk lyk ii cut sh0rt mua hair =\ after dat decided tuh stay arnd bugis st area. nth tuh d0. sh0 pr0ceed tuh plaza sing tuh c g0rt wat sh0w. b0ught tix ferr `black nyte` at 9.35pm. went tuh starbucks tuh slack l0rx. den g0 sh0p arnd.

went in e cinema. finished e sh0w at 11.3o n t0ok e last train back. e sh0w n0rt t0o bad lahx. but kinda farni. 3st0riee iin 0ne m0vie. hmMmx. dere was a part where sum0ne sh0uted `0mg`. hahax. den e wh0le cinema cracked up. l0lx.

went back h0me after dat. hmMmx.

sh0 n0w at babyy hse waitin ferr him tuh get prepared. later g0 d0wn h0sp awhile den g0 t0wn bahx. g0 find mua ex-c0lleagues. mish dem!

Monday, April 10, 2006

yu gu0 tian qing lerx. finalli.

im s0rriex tuh th0se hu w0rried. yiqi, d0do n kaiying, tankx ferr bein dere ferr mie even th0u ii insisted n0. but eu all stil came. n iim t0uched. c0s its quite late lerx.

darlinx, 0ur pr0mise, h0pe eu rmb it 0wayyx. wil change derx. b0th 0f us mux change ferr e betta kaex? h0pe eu wun let g0 0f mie anim0re. neva again. c0s ii hate it. aii sii ni ba0beix. xi wang nii zhii da0.

ru gu0 bu mian qiang zi ji wang ji, ju wu fa mai xiang xia yi ge zi ji..

Saturday, April 08, 2006

ytd went 0ut wif e 7dwarfs+evil queen! hahax. mishh all 0f dem sh0 muchh! l0ng din mit dem lerx. went tuh bugis st 1st. b0ught s0me f0od n eat. hahax. acc d0do g0 buyy herr tingx. but she cant find ani. hmMmx. mayb n0rt herr dae bahx. den g0 parc0 walk awhile l0rx. went tuh silverline. mua new heels ishx hurtin mie! damn it. g0 dere d0 waxin l0rx. but stil pain lehx. c0s its 0ready injured. s0bs. paste wif plasters. d0do went back at abt 5+. n we sit at e stairs near mrt dere c0s juan g0in at abt 6pm. we t0k al0t. mani tingx. hahax.

juan went back. e rest 0f us pr0ceed tuh marina square c0s celest wanna change her pants. after dat we went tuh hav dinner at swensen. acheri 0nli kaiying eat. e rest 0f us had banana split. hahax. t0ok e shuttle bus tuh city hall mrt stati0n.

dey went back n ii went back tuh bugis tuh find ba0beix. dey plaein billiard sh0 ii sit dere n watch l0rx. mishh e daex ii n ba0beix g0 kat0ng plae p0ol. hmMmx. find 0ne dae g0 plae again hahax. 12+am mie, ba0beix, des n siew mei share cab g0 back h0me while e rest went back demselves.

tttt00000dddddaaaaeeeee.......

w0ke up at 1oplus. 0rdered mac delivery ferr mie, ba0beix n sis. yupiex. ba0beix stayed at mua hse last nyyte. heex. s0rt 0f used tuh seein him earli iin e m0rnin lerx. ate 0ur breakfast n ii prepared. sh0 here ii m n0w, at ba0beix hse waitin ferr him tuh prepare. while at e bus-st0p waitin ferr bus tuh c0me here saw ms h0. den ii sae ferg0t put perfume. den ba0beix th0t ii put lerx. l0lx. acheri ishx ms h0`s perfume =\ l0lx.

g0nna g0 s0on. hehex. takairex guys.

prayin hard ferr *euu..

Sunday, April 02, 2006

lukin at evri0ne`s back, e tragedy ishx back.

saw herr lyin dere, tears f0rmed iin e eyes.

ppl cried n s0bbed ferr herr.

ii w0nderr if she n0es e tingx happenin arnd herr.

0nce, a cheerful gerr. n0w, dere`s n0 signs 0f happiness.

y?? y d0es she hav tuh suffer dis 0ver n 0ver again?

y? y d0es g0d plae a prank 0n herr n gibin us false h0pes?

ii nearly cant rec0gnise herr. e mem0riex wif herr fl0oded mua mind.

wanna cry, but f0rced e tears back.

evri0ne dragged their feet al0ng e gr0und.

as deyy leave e place 0f s0rrows.

j0ey jie, dis msg ishx ferr eu. ii n0e eu cant read it 0ready. but h0pe wat ii wanna sae tuh eu eu wil n0e. its hard ferr eu tuh pull thru e past 5mths. its hard ferr us t0o. n0w, urr c0ndition has w0rsened. n we n0e, as l0ng as eu dun 0pen urr eyes, dere`s nth e d0c ken d0. we ken 0nli prayed ferr a miiracle. e mem0riex wil 0wayyx stay iin 0ur harts. urr parents, sistax, evri0ne n james k0r k0r[herr bf ferr 8yrs], wil 0wayyx rmb eu. tankx ferr all e tingx eu hav taught us. e places eu br0ught us tuh, e f0od eu b0ught. it hurts deeply ferr evri0ne, esp grandma, urr family n james k0r k0r, hu til n0w stil cant accept e fact. but n0 matter wat happens, we wil stil l0ve eu...

n tuh evri0ne else, c0ntinue tuh stay str0ng ferr herr. its hard. but e best we ken d0 ishx tuh acc herr walk thru dis path. n0 m0re tears. smile n let her g0. its e best ferr herr.

Saturday, April 01, 2006

went 0ut wif ba0beix. at first sae g0 bugis den g0 t0wn. iin e end, 0nli manage tuh g0 t0wn. was saddened. c0s sae lerx iin e end 0wayyx din get tuh g0 as e plan. haix.

reach far east. went sh0ppin arnd. b0ught a l0ng sleeved t0p. lyk it. heex. b0ught grey instead. lyk e purple 0ne t0o. but ba0beix sae ii t0o mani purple t0p lerx. kekex.

den we went tuh parag0n tuh ask ferr j0b interview. dey sae wil kal mie. hmMmx, prayin hard. went heeren tuh take f0tox. heex. april f0ol mahx. l0lx. saw yayi jie at ne0print dere. she cant rec0gnise mie! s0bs. hahax. t0k tuh her. den went sh0p again. but sh0p cl0sin lerx. sh0 we went tuh take train g0 plaza. eat n t0ok sum f0tox usin f0ne. kekex. den watch m0vie l0rx. `keepin mum`. well. kinda regret watchin it. c0s at first we b0oked `ice age 2`. dat sh0w sux l0rx. damn b0rin n st0opid.

den we t0ok cab back h0me.

HAPPi APRiL FOOL!!

g0in 0ut.. =)