Thursday, March 09, 2006

sick, sick n sick.

din g0 w0rk. kena sc0ld c0s 0f last min MC.

wtf? h0w ii n0e??

c d0c. luckily wasnt kidney pr0b. scare e hell 0ut 0f mie.

slept n had a nytemare. s0bs.

ba0beix came mua hse after sch.

quarrelled. n ii wanna g0 0ut he dun all0w mie tuh.

quarrel lyk hell. ii decided tuh end evriting.

his reply was sh0ckin. up tuh mie. he was tired.

he has changed. changin sl0wly. y??

wat had ii did wr0ng tuh hav caused e change iin him??

ii n0e he stil l0ve mie. 0nli e wae he treat mie ishx gettin c0ld.

he dun seems tuh kare, dun seems tuh w0rriex abt mie.

he admit it. ii tried tuh lie tuh muaself dat he`s stil e same. but ii cant.

he sae he had changed. dunn0 y wil change.

w0rld breakin d0wn, fallin apart.

realisin evriting arnd mie changes sh0 quickly ii cant accept it.

tears breakin d0wn. e l0ng-kept tears since e tym ii realised evriting had finalli turned unc0ntr0llable.

mind iin a mess. evriting in a mess. even mie, dunn0 hu ii m.

wil eu eva change back mua b0ii?? 0r d0 ii hav tuh accept e brand new eu n0w?

ii dun wan. c0s ii dun understand e eu n0w.

but d0 ii hav a ch0ice tuh ch0ose?? tuh make eu return back tuh mua side??

frenx, where r dey wen ii nid dem? dey hav change t0o.

if deyy diin.. den deyy dun kare anim0re.

evri0ne leads their 0wn life n0w, hu wil f0rk 0ut e tym tuh sh0w their c0ncern?

hu wil b0ther tuh kip iin t0uch??

g0in craziee.. evriting ishx craziee.. even mie.. n mua surr0undins.

ii wan e life back again.. reali wan it. dun wanna breakd0wn. preventin frm breakin d0wn. hard tym............... tuh cling 0n...................