Wednesday, March 01, 2006

jux came back frm w0rk. damn tired. m0ve e sh0es up tuh 0ur b0utique frm isetan. tml 0ff. sat ishx van didi bdae lerx. celebratin wif him after mua w0rk. ytd went tuh t0wn find d0do. she finish dyein hair. ii 0so ken dye fer free! hahax. at t0ni n guy. but mux wait e pers0n kall bahx. save m0ney if n0rt mux dye again 0so. =) den we g0 sh0p arnd l0rx. evenin tym she g0 k0rean less0n ii mit ba0beix at tm watch m0vie. went back gib daddy lecture. ba0beix has been saein mie 2dae c0s ii din xplain tuh dad wat happened all dat.

babyy.. s0rriex.. n0e eu kare. but eu n0e mie. ii rather kip quiet n take all e blame den tuh quarrel wif him. summ0re ishx late at nyyte. iim used tuh carryin all e blame lerx. th0u feel pressurised. but ii hav eu byy mua side. n dats enuff. reali enuff...

prisc.. dunn0 aniting dun anih0w sae lahx. knn! eu reali make mie damn angry. dun tink eu r 0lder den mie den ii hav tuh respect eu. fark. tink urr e queen 0f e hse?? tink eu n0e evriting abt mie?! wtf. wat e hell eu n0e? jux kip quiet n shut up. n0e h0w tuh sae mie. last tym eu w0rkin we kip sae eu eu g0t listen? ii w0rkin n0w ii stil g0t gib dem m0ney h0rx. even eu n tricia 0so g0t 0kaex. eu lehx???? wat e hell eu gib tuh dem wen urr w0rkin??? nth!!! stil bluff us sae eu g0rt gib dad n mum m0ney. shyt lahx! ii ask mum 0ready n she sae eu din even gib dem ani m0ney eva since eu started w0rkin l0rx. farkin hell. ii 0ni came back 11+ 12. dat tym eu w0rkin wat tym eu came back??? 2+am. n0e h0w tuh sae mie dunn0 h0w tuh sae urrself?? ask mie save m0ney fer p0ly. ii did save s0me. 0nli eu all dunn0. sh0 shut e crap up. dun act as if eu n0e evrting. lyk eu g0rt save m0ney ferr urr ite lidat. make mie wanna luff mua head 0ut. startin 0f sch 0nli take frm daddy dunn0 h0w much. stil take frm mie. tired 0f urr n0nsense lahx. dun evritym n0rt happi wif mie den take mua bf 0ut n sae 0kaex?!!! even if ii g0 back earli evri0ne wil b slpin l0rx. evri0ne slp sh0 earli except tricia. h0w tuh ask 0r t0k tuh dem? tink dun nid tym tuh take bus all dat h0me? n0 nid eat wen iim hungry???? eu all sae ii g0 0ut late. but wat abt mua frenx? dun ii nida c0ntact wif dem?? neva mit dem sae ii change. g0 back 0so lidat. n0 tym mit bf 0so lidat. dere`s 0nli 1mie n sh0 mani 0f eu. h0w d0 eu expect mie tuh separate mua tym???? iim n0rt evriting. even th0u ii din g0 d0wn c j0ey, ii stil ask arnd tuh n0e wats g0in 0n wif herr l0rx. sae ii neva g0 d0wn. eu ask irene lahx. where g0t tym tuh g0 d0wn?? dey full-tym 1week 2 dae 0ff lehx. ii part-tym nid c0ver their shift 1 wh0le week w0rk full 0nli 0ff 1dae lehx. h0w ii get e tym tuh d0 sh0 mani tingx? use urr brain n tink lahx. ii g0 h0me earli eu all nag. evri0ne naggin at mie. lyk evriting mua fault. but hav eu all w0ndered y ii dun wanna g0 h0me earli n rather let muaself b tired?? ishx c0s dis h0me ishx n0rt a h0me tuh mie! eva since ii w0rk ii g0 back earli ishx listen tuh mum nag n mum questi0nin. if n0rt ishx quarrel wif all 0f eu, blamin mie dis n dat. wats e pt?? might as well g0 back late n prevent all dis. wen iim reali d0wn 0r wat hu reali help mie? its n0rt eu all. ishx all mua frenx n bf. wen ii cried after ii quarrel wif eu e 0ther tym hu ishx dere tuh c0nsole?? tricia sae mie cryin n jux walk 0ut e r0om. ishx zha0 hu c0nsole mie n evriting. wen iim w0rkin sh0 tired n fed up hu n0es? 0nli him. hu iin dis family eva ask mie abt mua w0rk?? n0 0ne! sh0 n0w eu expect mie tuh g0 arnd n ask dem wats g0in 0n? d0 ii hav e energy? w0rk til dun feel lyk w0rkin but hav tuh... but hu n0es?? eu all gib up h0pe 0n mie. ii 0so hav given up h0pe 0n dis family. mua resp0nsiblity ferr w0rkin ishx tuh brin inc0me tuh e family. but hav eu eva th0t dat after gibin all 0f eu m0ney ii dun hav much left? ii dun even take a cent frm e family n0w. ask urself.. dat tym wen eu w0rk h0w much eu take? eu tink 0utside eat sh0 cheap?? 1dae ken spent 0ver $1o jux 0n f0od lehx. n transp0rt lehx? even if ii buy tingx 0so ferr p0ly all dat. eu tink ii buyy zha0 neva sc0ld?? dis few daex ii at w0rk been eatin maggie mee hu n0es?? jux tuh save e farkin m0ney up. sh0 dat eu all wun sae ii anih0w spent.

wateva lahx. sae sh0 muchh 0so n0 use. t0o tired 0f evriting. evri0ne wans mie tuh put muaself iin their sh0es. but hu e hell wil put demselves iin mua sh0es? dey r human beins. but m ii n0rt??