Tuesday, October 25, 2005

wat hav ii d0ne???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

0nce again, ii caused tears tuhh wet his face. 0nce again, ii saw e smile disappear frm his face.
darlinx, s0rriex.
din mean tuhh.
haix.
wat ken ii sae??
wat ken ii d0 except tuh gib eu a tyte hug??
wat wat wat e HELL m ii tinkin??
i`ve made a TERRIBLE mistake.

pr0mised n0rt tuhh let it affect mie. n iim tryin. but eu th0t dat tingx had affected mie again. it did n0rt. ii swear............... reali. haix.
b0ii, ii n0e wat ii sae tuhh eu jux a few daex b4. ii still rmb it. im n0rt e kind 0f pers0n hu sae 0ne ting but d0 e 0ther. trust mie. ii dun wanna c eu suffer. dun wanna c urr tears. dats y im tryin hard tuh walk past evriting. eu understand? dun lemme b reminded 0f evriting again. c0s ii dun wish tuhh. n ii n0e eu 0so d0esnt wan mie tuhh. eu d0te mie, kare ferr mie, n urr hart aches wen eu c m0ii tears. all dese ii n0e. ii ken feel urr warmth, urr kare n urr evriting. ii ken feel urr anxiousness n w0rriedness. ii wanna pr0tect eu e wae eu pr0tect mie frm harm. sh0 ii will b str0ng tuhh take evriting. ii`ve learnt mani tingx. ii`ve learnt tuhh b calm even wen mua mind ishx c0nfused. ii`ve learnt sumtymx e m0re ii sae e m0re ii will hurt eu. thus ii remains quiet even if eu wan mie tuh scream 0r sh0ut. ii`ve learnt tuhh b str0ng tuhh catch eu fall wen eu r tired. dere r t0o mani tingx ii`ve learnt frm eu. n ii wanna understand eu m0re. im s0rriex dat at tymx e silence ii gib eu ishx unbearable. but im jux havin tym al0ne t0 s0rt 0ut mua th0ts. sh0 dun anih0w tink. dun leave mie kaex ba0beix??