Monday, August 01, 2005

jux l0g in frenster.. n as ii predicted.. e msg were frm herr..

jaslyn.. since ii ken c0nfirm u g0t c0me c m0ii bl0g den ii shall wryte wat ii wanna sae here.. receive urr frenster msg.. well.. dunn0 y u sae u dunn0 ii referin t0 u n0t but iin e end u still sae ii wryte abt u.. sh0 isnt it abvi0us dat u n0e? n u sae u dun kare abt m0ii tingy.. ii 0so nvrr kare abt urr tingy wat.. since wen did ii kare? ii n0e u g0t find d0do.. u evridae 0so g0t find herr mahx.. h0w wld ii n0t n0e? n t0 mie.. karin ferr a pers0n ishx thru e acti0ns u d0 t0 sh0w 0ut.. its n0t iin e hart.. if u kare ferr sum0ne but u nvrr sh0w.. h0w wld e pers0n eva get t0 n0e it? its e same l0gic as u l0ve sum0ne but u nvrr sh0w it 0ut.. h0w will e pers0n n0e it? its n0 use saein u kare ferr herr.. w0rriex ferr herr.. but u nvrr sh0w it.. ii 0so ken sae all dis.. w0rds r easier sae den d0ne.. n w0rds ken b flip here n dere.. u ken sae u kare but iinside u dun wat.. 0ur teacherr wat tym release us ii n0e.. n usualli we r n0t release late.. except ferr a few xcepti0ns.. u sae u saw us wif herr den u fang xin lerx.. but d0 u n0e dat wen she ishx wif us n u suddenly disappear lidat she kips lukin ferr u? if u w0rriex ferr herr b byy herr side t0 let herr n0e.. n0t g0 t0 maggie n leave herr all al0ne.. since u n0e wat 0thers sae abt she dun lyk t0 b wif u durin recess.. den y dun u change ferr e betta? find 0ut e reas0n frm herr n change.. n0t jux believe herr n ferget evriting.. lidat ken0t s0lve e pr0b.. wat she did ferr u u rmb ken lerx.. dere`s n0 nid t0 tell herr u still rmb.. n even if u tell herr.. y will it make tingx w0rse? she will 0nli b happi wat.. y wld she b unhappi wif it? ppl tell u dey still rmb wat u d0 ferr dem den u angry wif dem? wat l0gic ishx dis? eva since sh0 mani tingx happen we neva t0k.. n ii dun c u wantin t0 t0k t0 mie.. u 0wayx claim dat u did tryy.. but n0 0ne saw it.. if u did tryy n t0k t0 mie.. shujuan deyy all will n0e derx.. n if ii neva t0k t0 u back.. deyy 0so will n0e.. c0s dey r fair.. but deyy neva sae aniting.. ii realised sumting.. wat u sae 0wayx c0ntradict urrself.. u sae ii sc0ld u iin m0ii bl0g.. where g0t sum0ne g0 t0k t0 ppl hu sc0ld dem.. dat means u saein u wun c0me t0k t0 mie.. but ab0ve u still sae u did tryy t0k t0 mie.. wat t0kin u? u l0ve urr stead.. treat urr stead gd.. den gd ferr u.. dere`s n0 nid ferr mie t0 n0e.. 0kaex.. u sae u neva c0me here t0 c wats g0in 0n btw ii n him.. but dere`s n0 nid ferr u t0 c0me n c iif ii g0t wryte aniting abt u ryte? sh0 wat if ii did wryte 0r neva? iif u neva did aniting ii dun lyk 0r wat.. y wld ii wryte abt u? ii n0t sh0 b0 lia0 g0 wryte abt u l0rx.. if u treat mie gd ii treat u betta twice.. but if u did tingx dat make mie dun lyk u.. den ii wil treat u d0uble back e same.. sh0 dun make mie hate u.. dis ishx mie.. lyk it 0r hate it its up t0 u.. sh0 wat if u read m0ii bl0g wif urr stead? d0es it matter t0 mie? n0piex.. it d0esnt.. since u n0e urr mistakes iin e past.. y stil dun change? ii n0e ii shldnt sae dis.. but ii tink ii shld.. ii hate ppl hu n0e their mistakes but dun make an eff0rt t0 change demselves.. dey will 0nli make mie luk d0wn 0n dem.. sh0 dun lemme luk d0wn 0n u.. ii dun lyk u.. ii ken tell u truly.. but ishx c0s 0f e tingx u did t0 sh0w u dun lyk mie.. ii n0e u dun lyk mie.. d0do did tell mie dat.. n ii g0t eyes.. ii ken c.. sh0 n0 nid t0 hide n sae till lyk u neva dun lyk mie.. lyk means lyk dun lyk means dun lyk.. dun lyk den sae lahx.. n0 nid act till lidat.. wat ii sae wun affect dem n0 matter wat if dey reali believe u.. wat ferr kare abt h0w 0thers will tink abt u? n0bodi sae u ken0t tell d0do urr pr0bs.. she still will listen ii ken guarantee dat.. n0w iim w0nderin if u reali trust herr n0t.. if u d0 trust herr u wun hesitate t0 luk ferr herr wen u hav pr0bs.. c0s if u believe herr u will n0e dat she will still listen.. she neva treats u c0ld.. ishx u hu r 0wayx neglectin herr n leavin herr al0ne.. u hav aniting u wanna tell mie abt wat ii sae last tym till n0w u stil ken sae.. c0s mayb dere r sumtingx ii did wr0ng abt u.. iim n0t th0se unreas0nable pers0n hu will 0nli stand str0ng 0n m0ii views n dun kare abt wat urr tinkin.. if u xplain t0 mie y u did all dis ii will ap0logise.. but if u dun den dats it.. ii will 0nli rmb e tingx u did e wae ii tink sh0.. its tym t0 gr0w up n mature 0n urr tinkin lahx.. n0e h0w t0 tink.. learn h0w t0 tink.. dun b lyk a kid.. wat urr feelin sumtymx dun hav t0 let 0thers n0e derx l0rx.. esp 0n th0se small tingx.. dis ishx life.. learn t0 tink ferr 0thers.. learn t0 take e pain urrself.. n n0t 0wayx dependin 0n 0thers.. learn t0 admit urr mistakes.. n n0t push e blame all t0 0thers l0rx.. u hav n0t been thru e t0ughest tingx iin life.. u neva did sufferr b4.. urr 0wayx livin c0mfortably iin urr 0wn w0rld.. n takin tingx ferr granted.. but all dis tingx dun last.. e ppl arnd u still will leave u sumdae.. learn t0 cherish e ppl arnd u.. all dis n0 nid mie t0 tell u derx l0rx.. iim tellin u all dis c0s 0f e past xperiences.. but if u c0ntinue t0 b lyk dis den ii reali dunn0 wat t0 sae.. dun disapp0int e ppl arnd u.. if u n0t happi wif wat ii sae 0r wat wan find mie 0ut t0k den find l0rx.. replyy mie back iin frenster..