Monday, August 22, 2005

HAPPI 3mTh ANNIVERSARY ba0beix!!

well.. happi dae.. went t0 sch wif ba0beix.. den he g0t exams.. after recess durin chi we went t0 library t0 `studi`.. juan make mie luff till cryy siax.. l0lx.. dun wanna sae wat happened.. c0s she will kill mie.. but its reali farni.. hahax.. den ba0beix after exams c0me find mie l0rx.. went 0utside t0 t0k t0 him.. den he went back.. planned 0ur t0-d0-list ferr e pr0grammes after exams[we seems t0 tink t0o far].. hahax.. well.. will put it up at m0ii `urr c0mfort` dere.. t0 replace e taggie.. aniwae dere 0so n0rt iin use.. sh0 put up m0ii schedule dere betta.. heex..

van didi return mie m0ney t0dae.. wei walk past mie n ask mie g0 c van`s bl0g.. haix.. w0nderrin wat hav ii d0ne wr0ng.. n.. e w0rds dat m0ii frenx sae s0rt 0f hurt mie.. but ii din sh0w it 0ut.. guess its naive 0f mie t0 tink dat wae.. c0s n0 matter wat e ting dat ii wish ferr will n0rt happen.. dey bel0ng t0 tw0 different w0rld.. h0w ken dey b0th exist 2getherr? haix.. f0und it difficult t0 shuffle m0ii tym between m0ii family.. frenx.. l0ve.. studies.. li0n dance.. n mani mani tingx.. its 0nli m0ii wish h0pin dat mayb e b0th side ken c0me 2getherr.. c0s ii reali dunn0 h0w t0 plan m0ii tym 0ut between e tw0.. dere r sum 0ccasi0ns ii reali wish t0 spent it b0th wif u guys n him.. c0s ii hardly had tym ferr u guys.. n its e last yrr.. ii dunn0 till wen den ken we g0 0ut.. mayb nxt yrr all 0f us will distant ii dunn0.. 0nli wish t0 cherish e tym n0w.. but its hard.. nida 0so divide m0ii tym wif ivan dey all.. hardly ken g0 0ut wif dem n0w.. ii felt sh0 guilty evritym ii sae ken0t t0 dem.. li0n dance ii 0so hardly ken g0 lerx.. seld0m get t0 c k0r dey all n g0 0ut wif dem.. haix.. iim s0rriex.. u guys ken blame mie if u wan.. ken sae ii hav changed as u wish.. dere`s n0thin ii ken d0.. wateva ii d0 iim at wr0ng.. haix..

didi: neva did ii eva th0t dat m0ii acti0ns will let u misunderst0od mi.. ii was 0nli actin 0ut t0 pretend ii neva saw u.. but u acheri th0t dat iim ign0rin u? ii feel paisehx? ii dunn0 wat t0 sae.. m ii dat kind 0f pers0n hu kares sh0 muchh abt face? m ii e kind 0f pers0n u th0t iim? ii th0t u n0e dat iim pretendin t0 act da0 0nli.. ii did smile.. ii did c u straight.. u n0e mie.. u n0e iim lidat.. 0wayx plaein arnd.. haix.. ii dunn0 wat t0 sae.. reali dunn0.. wen iim iin bad m0od ii din 0nce threw m0ii temper at u.. ii n0e urr sensitive.. u ken sense it.. dats y ii tryy n0rt t0 sh0w it 0ut t0 u all.. iim w0nderin y dis few daex u neva kall.. ii th0t urr bz.. iim s0rriex ferr n0rt bein able t0 t0k t0 u weneva u kall.. ii d0 feel bad.. haix..

wat e hell ishx happenin t0 mie?? urgh!! ii reali dunn0.. feel dat evriting ishx 0ut t0 0ppose mie n0 matter wat ii d0.. ii nid a break.. ii nid s0me space.. iim a human t0o.. h0w ken ii split m0iiself up ferr sh0 mani 0f u.. ii din ask all 0f u t0 d0 aniting.. ii jux h0pe t0 get urr understandin iin s0me areas.. sumtymx ii 0so d0 nid s0me space ferr m0iiself.. jux m0ii 0wn.. guys.. iim s0rriex..