Wednesday, August 31, 2005

wat a bz dae? read it n u`ll n0e..

after yest strugglin t0dae finalli ken relac lerx! had 0ur chem test earli iin e m0rnin wen 0thers were plaein game.. cher was gd.. hahax.. c0s she gib us 0nli MCQ ferr test.. ii n d0do after finish we discuss e ans.. l0lx.. aniwae cherr 0so dun kare.. den went d0wn t0 find e rest 0f e dwarfs.. after dat went back t0 klass t0 hav e party.. we t0ok f0tox n plae games.. had fun.. den later we all dwarfs n evil queen wanna take f0tox.. den juan jkjk sae dun wan take wif mie.. den ii jkjk angry l0rx.. hahax.. dis tym ii manage n0rt t0 luff 0ut 0r wat.. n dey th0t ii reali angry.. iin e end ii still luff 0ut. l0lx.. s0rriex guys.. played a prank 0n all 0f u.. kekex. arnd 1o+am we went t0 e hall.. ivan ask mie g0 sit wif him.. sh0 ii g0 l0rx.. den ask d0do 0so.. hmMmx.. t0k t0 him abt mani tingx.. den tym ferr 0ur klass t0 perf0rm.. sh0 damn paisehx! face dunn0 wan thr0w where siax.. saw weijie.. he came back.. sh0 t0k t0 him awhile.. hahax..

m0ii f0ne had been ringin since b4 ii went up stage n after ii came d0wn.. sh0 mani ppl b0mbin m0ii f0ne.. manage t0 pick up 0ne kall.. den sms e rest 0f dem.. receive prisc jie sms n ii was sh0ck.. tricia mei di0 tai ji.. sms herr back n ask wat happened.. den she sae nvm lerx.. g0in settle finish.. after dat kall jie back t0 ask l0rx.. she 0so dunn0 wat happened.. but jie sae mei n0w bcum veri qia0.. farkin attitude she hav.. jux c0s 0f e st0opid HCF den di0 tai ji.. ferr wat? all xia0 mei mei 0nli.. dia0 let dem dia0 lahx.. their eyes mahx.. aniwae.. she 0so g0t dia0 dem back.. sh0 fair wat.. at first e charl0tte.. n0w amelia.. wtf? all c0s 0f misunderstandin 0nli.. aHhyax.. dunn0 wat e hell ishx wr0ng wif herr lahx.. dun kare herr..

went back h0me after dat n quickly prepare.. mitin e 4dwarfs+evil queen.. huili was late.. hahax.. we went t0 buyy tix first.. `drink drank drunk` at 4.35pm.. den went t0 eat.. decided t0 tryy e PHIN`s restaurent fish&chips.. huili thr0w face dere.. l0lx.. was damn farni.. dun wanna sae.. later she kill mie.. hahax.. mit juan at PHIN`s dere 0so.. after eatin we went t0 sh0p arnd.. den mit yiqi at GV.. b0ught drinks n we went iin t0 watch e m0vie.. was kinda t0uchin n swit e endin.. g0t a twist.. din reali expect it dat wae.. aniwae.. was a nice m0vie.. heex.. after m0vie we went t0 take ne0prinx.. hahax.. e f0tox wasnt veri nice ii feel.. but n0rt bad lahx.. den went t0 m0ntip after dat.. den went h0me.. at inter saw jieying dey all.. t0k awhile.. d0do n celest went back first.. ii, juan, yiqi n huili t0ok bus 2getherr.. ii went t0 big b0oksh0p dere help ivan buyy straws.. den g0 aHh pek sh0p mit him.. hawwei came d0wn t0o.. after dat dunn0 y m0re n m0re ppl c0me.. tricia came d0wn find mie t0o.. den kiwi came.. ba0beix came d0wn 0so.. ii n tricia left t0 g0 cyclin wif ba0beix n kiwi.. but halfwae kiwi sae nid g0 find shi ming.. den we g0 l0rx.. at 835 dere saw elaine.. den des came.. after dat dunn0 y suddenly all dunn0 g0 where lahx.. ii, ba0beix, tricia n elaine wait underbl0ck ferr dem l0rx..
ii was feelin slpy.. afterall was g0in 12am l0rx.. finalli.. after sum waitin.. dey all came.. frm 4pers0n g0 cyclin bcum 7pers0n? hahax.. ba0beix sh0 ke lian.. had t0 l0m pang tw0 ppl.. we cycle t0 2oo+ dere eat.. den 1+am went back..

van di arhx.. wanna ask izzit w0rth ferr u t0 d0 sh0 muchh ferr her.. haix.. u d0 till sh0 xin ku.. but u tw0 haven even devel0ped till dat stage l0rx.. wat if all dat u d0 ishx wasted? haix.. tink pr0perly b4 u d0 aniting mahx.. haix.. nvm.. will b behind u t0 supp0rt u till e end.. n0 matter wat decisi0n u make..

tricia mei.. jux h0pe dat u dun anih0w find tr0uble again l0rx.. make till daddy angry.. den urr freed0m n0w g0in t0 b l0st n0w.. wan g0 where 0so ken0t lerx.. haix.. we tell daddy ishx c0s we feel its betta ferr him t0 n0e l0rx.. at least aniting happen he n0e mahx.. u wanna blame us.. angry us den we nth t0 sae.. but ishx ferr urr 0wn gd.. as ferr HCF.. ask dem fark 0ff ken lerx lahx.. b0 tai b0 ji dia0 here n dere ferr wat siax.. childish.. dey find u aniting again jux kall us n we will g0 d0wn derx.. dun w0rriex kaex..

ba0beix arhx.. s0rriex hai u sh0 tired.. nvm abt mie kaex.. aniwae.. had fun t0dae.. l0ng tym n0 cycle lerx.. kekex.. l0ve euu sh0 muchh.. *mmuackx*

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

was sick t0dae n ii neva g0 sch.. havin st0mach pain.. slept till 12pm lidat den wake up.. started studyin m0ii chem after dat.. ask ba0beix t0 g0 m0ii klass take frm dem m0ii hmk.. den he came m0ii hse.. daddy came back after dat n ii tell him ii nida g0 c d0c.. ba0beix acc mie g0.. well.. nth seri0us acheri.. jux e same 0ld sickness.. gastric flu.. kip kena it.. haix.. m0ii gastric gettin w0rse 0r wat? dunn0.. after dat ba0beix went h0me.. n ii rush thru m0ii revisi0n.. wh0le family went t0 m0ii uncle hse.. c0s t0dae ishx grandpa death anni.. but ii neva g0.. tell dad ii nid studi.. ii was al0ne at h0me wen ba0beix came n b0ught mie s0me f0od.. he sae ii sick den al0ne at h0me scared ii hungry sh0 packet sumting.. tankx al0t ba0beix.. iim sh0 t0uched.. heex.. after dat he went 0ff t0 mit his frenx.. ii c0ntinue studyin.. den at nyyte ba0beix kall n ii t0k t0 him l0rx..

darlinx arhx.. tankx al0t al0t ferr urr `ai xin wan can`.. hahax.. s0rriex t0 tr0uble u tym n again.. dun w0rriex ferr mie kaex.. its jux e n0rmal sickness.. mishin euu 0wayyx.. *hhuggiex*

Monday, August 29, 2005

ba0beix wasnt iin sch t0dae.. haix.. he was late n dun wan g0 dc.. sh0 p0n l0rx.. hmMmx.. g0t back m0ii a.maths test paper.. din d0 veri well.. as predicted.. c0s relative vel0city dat chpt ii dunn0.. haix.. nvm.. recess juan acc mie g0 find ba0beix at backgate dere.. ba0beix wanna pass mie sumting.. as predicted reali ishx e bracelet ii lyk!! x) was sh0 happi!! but was kinda guilty t0o.. c0s make ba0beix spent sh0 muchh.. din wan him t0 g0 t0 dat extend l0rx.. jux h0pe dat he ken d0 well iin his n lebels den dats enuff.. den ii will b happi lerx.. material tingx mean nth m0re impt den urr grades darlinx.. understand? after dat durin chi peri0d ii, juan, shwee n yiqi dey all g0 t0 library.. hahax.. we havin sh0 muchh fun iin dere.. l0lx.. juan t0ok a vide0 0f us.. hahax.. well.. dun wanna menti0n wat we did.. but it was lame.. -.-ll hahax.. after dat eng g0 library.. ii n huili d0 e eng tingy.. hehex.. after sch dun hav remedial.. tell cherr we wan g0 h0me d0 hmk.. den we discuss teachers` dae tingy l0rx.. mit ba0beix at backgate.. den he c0me m0ii hse awhile.. finish makin m0ii t0-d0-list.. check it 0ut at 0ne 0f m0ii navigati0ns.. x)

realised dat ii n0w gettin cl0ser t0 e 7dwarfs+evil queen iin klass.. had been arguein wif huili n t0kin t0 e rest abt mani tingx.. s0rt 0f drifted wif d0do?? ii dunn0 ken c0unt as drifted n0rt.. feel dat she dis few daex lyk n0rt iin gd m0od.. dun quite dare t0k t0 herr.. izzit she t0o stressed up?? ii dunn0.. haix..

mishin bibix~
iim a plaeb0ii freak0~
whahahax~

Sunday, August 28, 2005

wh0le dae at h0me d0 wat?? rush hmk lahx.. haix.. tue g0t maths test.. wed g0t chem test.. dunn0 h0w t0 studi siax.. chem test wh0le b0ok.. haix.. wed after sch h0w?? h0pe 7dwarfs+evil queen ken faster c0nfirm.. teachers` dae c0min.. buyy wat gib cherr?? haven decide yet.. darlinx was 0ut t0dae wif his frenx.. h0pe he d0esnt g0 buyy e bracelet ferr mie.. if n0rt.. wat shall ii d0?? kill him?? dun bear t0.. hmMmx... tink 0f e punishment later.. hahax.. gettin late n0w.. mish ba0beix sh0 muchh.. hasnt been t0kin t0 him t0dae.. he`s drivin mie craziee~

listenin t0 a techn0 s0ng.. nice.. th0u e lyrics ishx sh0rt.. c0s 0f e music.. =PpP

dae byy dae.. nyte byy nyte..
we`re 2getherr side byy side..
c0s ii cant.. get enuff..
iin e name 0f LOVE..
euu n mie.. hand iin hand..
0n a trip t0 w0nderland..
c e w0rld.. frm ab0ve..
iin e name 0f LOVE..

Saturday, August 27, 2005

last nyyte after plaein at pavili0n ba0beix n ke0ng was sm0kin 0utside wen p0lice came.. den we all kena check l0rx.. g0t 0ne p0lice veri guai lan.. hate him.. after dat dey g0 lerx we went h0me l0rx.. reach h0me was abt 12+am.. ivan sms but ii cant kall him.. s0rriex di..

2dae m0rnin w0ke up iin a sh0ck.. dunn0 wat e hell m0ii mum ishx d0in l0rx.. m0ii alarm set wr0ng 4g0t wake up she kpkb mie.. earli iin e m0rnin kena nag byy herr.. feel lyk askin her 0wnself brin m0ii sis g0 sch.. fark.. wake up 6.2oam help herr brin sis g0 sch still sc0ld mie.. kall ba0beix but he cant wake up[he sae wanna acc mie].. sh0 nvm l0rx.. he last nyyte sh0 late den slp let him slp m0re.. ii 0wnself g0.. g0 lerx went back h0me again.. slp till 1o.4oam.. ba0beix sms mie den ii wake up.. was g0in t0 b late.. quickly g0 bath all dat.. den mit ba0beix at inter n rush g0 brin m0ii sis.. den buyy mac ferr herr den went back h0me.. hse g0t n0 electricity?? e circuit breaker jump l0rx.. den make make make.. till ken.. hahax.. den ii g0 prepare t0 g0 0ut.. arnd 1.45pm lidat ii n ba0beix set 0ff frm m0ii hse.. we g0 t0wn first.. g0 far east c tingy all dat.. ii buyy earrins all dat.. practically g0 iint0 all e sh0ps dere.. hahax.. den we walk t0 heeren.. g0 dere c c walk walk.. b0ught an0ther earrin.. l0lx.. abt 5pm ba0beix sae wanna g0 back far east.. he insist t0 buyy e plaeb0i pendant ferr mie.. he sae if ii dun wan g0 back he e tml 0wnself g0 buyy.. ii g0t n0 ch0ice but t0 acc him g0 l0rx.. tricia kall ask mie help herr buyy badge.. hahax.. ba0beix b0ught e pendant ferr mie.. *hhuggiex* ii wanna return him e m0ney he dun wan.. but its kinda exp l0rx.. haix.. he 0wayyx sh0 stubb0rn..

after dat we went t0 bugis.. b0ught s0me f0od n eat.. den walk arnd l0rx.. ebase was 0n sale.. n ii b0ught e t0p ii lyk!! s0rriex juan ii buyy it lerx.. c0s it was damn cheap!! $17.5o after disc0unt 3o%!! if u wanna buyy it 0so ken.. den we wear 2getherr? l0lx.. n0 lahx.. hahax.. den went t0 bugis street.. walk arnd.. ii tried a jeans skirt n b0ught it.. ba0beix hiam t0o sh0rt =PpP hahax.. but e 0ther 0ne he hiam abit l0ng? l0lx.. b0ught it aniwae.. bargain wif e auntie ferr $24.. l0lx.. ba0beix abit sad c0s e t0p he wan dun hav lerx.. haix.. den we g0 burger king rest l0rx..has been walkin ferr e wh0le dae lerx.. b0th sh0 tired.. ii at dere zi lian? hahax.. use ba0beix f0ne f0tox[th0u ii 0wnself g0t but ii dun wan use] hahax.. ba0beix bth mie.. l0lx..

den arnd 1o.15pm we went back t0 tamp.. ba0beix sae wanna g0 watch m0vie.. we g0 c g0t wat sh0w.. den ii g0 press m0ney[br0ke lerx.. s0bs] den g0 century c g0t wat sh0w.. decided t0 watch `red eye`.. e pers0n sae ishx h0rror m0vie.. sh0 g0 c l0rx.. at 1st dunn0 wan watch `drink drank drunk` n0t.. c0s dunn0 juan dey all c0nfirm g0t g0 c mahx.. but iin e end dun wan lahx.. s0rriex ba0beix.. b0ught s0me f0od iin.. while watchin e m0vie ba0beix was shiverin?? he was sh0 c0ld.. first tym c he sh0 c0ld siax.. evritym ishx ii c0ld derx.. gib him s0me warm.. hahax.. while watchin e m0vie we were lyk.. `ishx dis a h0rror m0vie?` e gerr bluff us? wateva l0rx.. 12.5oam lidat e sh0w ended.. den we t0ok cab h0me.. ba0beix send mie h0me lerx den he g0 h0me 0so..

darlinx.. heex.. realised we m0re n m0re en ai lerx h0rx?? kekex.. had sh0 muchh fun 2dae.. n we hav g0ne 0ut ferr abt.. 13+hrs.. veri l0ng nvrr g0 0ut sh0 l0ng lerx.. s0rriex at t0wn ii was sh0 tired.. dat ii dunn0 wat iim t0kin n d0in.. make u w0rriex lerx.. n s0rriex if ii made u feel b0red wen ii n0rt t0kin t0 u.. c0s acheri m0ii eyes was cl0sin.. ii was damn tired.. lack 0f slp!! evridae slp n0 m0re den 5hrs.. feel lyk a walkin z0mbie =X hahax.. but ii manage t0 kip awake.. th0u 0n train ii slp while standin.. whahahax.. felt we r m0re cl0ser lerx.. learn h0w t0 gib iin t0 each 0therr.. s0rriex ii sh0 0bsessed wif plaeb0i.. u wanna ban mie frm buyyin plaeb0i tingy n wearin it.. but ii argue back wif u.. sh0 s0rriex.. but ii reali lyk it al0t.. tankx ferr gibin iin t0 mie sh0 muchh.. n tankx ferr e pendant.. ii l0ve it sh0 muchh!! felt sh0 guilty siax.. u buyy sh0 exp tingy ferr mie.. kip askin u dun buyy... pull u awae.. but still n0 use.. ii understand.. u wan make mie happi.. wan c mie happi.. but dere r 0ther waes mahx.. haix.. dun sh0 f0olish lerx kaex? ii sae b4 ii dun wan depend 0n u ferr aniting.. e tingx ii lyk ii wanna buyy m0iiself.. ii dun wanna use urr m0ney.. u shld save it up.. den save m0re mayb we ken g0 0therr c0untry 2getherr[th0u ii dunn0 ken n0t.. hahax..] understand?

verlyn LOVE n MISH herr bibix.. babyy euu c0mplete e imperfectness iin mie.. urr d0ins c0mplete mua *w0rld.. n urr l0ve c0mplete mua *hart.. --simplicityy 0f 0ur l0ve--

Friday, August 26, 2005

y0x.. jux finish g0in sh0ppin wif d0do n tricia mei.. well.. had s0me fun.. hahax.. we went t0 century at first.. den went t0 heeren n cine n far east.. t0dae after sch g0t n0 test[sh0 happi] sh0 ken mit earli g0 0ut.. heex.. sh0 happi t0dae.. b0ught plaeb0i tingy.. l0lx.. we practically flip e wh0le sh0ppin mall.. f0und s0me plaeb0i tingy.. but wasnt nice at all.. s0bs.. guys.. ani plaeb0i tingy pls tell mie? arigat0..

t0dae iin sch saw juan sh0 sadx abt herr eng.. c0s she fail herr CA.. tried t0 cheer herr up.. din wanna c herr lidat.. send herr a sms iin klass t0 enc0urage herr l0rx.. hmMmx.. but after dat she 0kaex lerx... sh0 glad t0 c herr back t0 her n0rmal self..

f0und 0ut dat m0ii elder sis b0ught m0ii shirt.. exactly e same as mie!! hate herr.. urgh! ii g0t 0ready she still buyy.. dunn0 wats wr0ng wif her? y cant she jux save herr m0ney? lyk 0ur cl0thes ken0t share lidat.. e t0p ii lyk she buyy ii 0so nvrr g0 buyy an0ther 0ne l0rx.. n she still buyy e same c0lour as mie? if buyy 0ther c0lour at least we still ken xchange l0rx.. buyy e same ferr wat? fun arhx? fark.. urgh!!!

n0w at pavili0n here plae net.. ba0beix was plaein game.. mit him after ii went 0ut wif d0do.. went t0 eat pizza wif tricia n ke0ng.. hahax.. tml m0rnin stil nida wake up sh0 earli.. haix..

Thursday, August 25, 2005

ba0beix came t0 m0ii hse dis m0rnin.. hahax.. den we walk t0 sch 2getherr l0rx.. first tw0 peri0d ishx chi.. went t0 canteen wif juan, shwee, celest, huili, yiqi n kaiying.. dey p0n their chi less0n.. l0lx.. den juan dey all ask mie abt m0ii bl0g tingy.. haix.. din tell dem muchhh.. 0so dunn0 wat t0 sae.. yiqi t0k t0 mie after dat.. well.. glad dat dey acheri kared abt mie.. kinda t0uched.. went back t0 klass after dat.. was late ferr 15mins c0s we t0kin t0 chi teacherr.. d0do wasnt iin gd m0od.. tink she felt kinda stressed 0ut?? haix.. e dae was a l0ng 0ne.. after sch still g0t remedial.. ivan came n find mie.. ask mie eat e f0od he made.. hahax.. well.. wasnt veri nice.. ii preferr e previ0us 0ne dat he did.. l0lx.. but ii was sh0 happi dat he acheri ask mie eat it.. c0s afterall ishx he d0 0n his 0wn derx mahx.. was rushin thru sh0 mani tingx iin klass.. cherr kip t0kin iin e end ken0t even finish all e tingx.. after dat ba0beix was waitin 0utside sch ferr mie.. den we went t0 844 t0 eat l0rx.. after dat he send mie h0me.. hardly even had tym t0 c him 0r t0k t0 him iin sch dis week.. seld0m t0k 0n e f0ne t0o.. c0s he`s bz wif his exams.. mish him sh0 muchh.. haix..

e 6dwarfs+evil queen:heyyx.. u guys r0x eHhx? s0rriex ferr e tingx sae iin m0ii bl0g.. guess u guys was tr0ubled abt dis tingy bahx.. after wat yiqi sae ii guess iim at wr0ng.. at e first place ii shldnt even hav th0t dat.. ii shld hav tink ferr u all t0o.. wanna ap0logise ferr e w0rriex caused.. iim s0rriex.. n juan.. u sae ii evritym g0t ting 0so dun wanna sae 0ut.. kip iinside mie.. iim s0rriex.. but frm last tym u n0e iim lidat lerx mahx.. ii dun hav e habit 0f saein all e tingx dats b0therin mie.. ii dunn0 h0w t0 sae 0ut.. u cant p0ssibly ask mie sae.. `heyx.. u all hurt mie lerx..` ryyte? but iim sh0 glad dat u all neva h0ld it against mie.. jux let dis tingy pass kaex? ii wun take it t0 hart.. n ii h0pe u all 0so wun.. n t0 d0do.. well.. c u dis few daex sh0 stressed up.. n ii tink u feel kinda left 0ut durin chi? dunn0 ishx ii tink t0o muchh.. but ii s0rt 0f lidat feel. c0s we n0 nid attend chi less0n den left u al0ne.. cheer up kaex? n0w celest dey all transfer t0 0ur klass sh0 u dun feel sh0 l0nely lerx.. mmuackx! l0ve all 0f ya~

didi: sh0 glad u th0t thru evriting.. glad t0 c u back t0 n0rmal again.. c0ngrats.. hahax.. n0 nid kip tankx dis n dat lahx.. l0lx.. btw h0rx.. tankx ferr e f0od dat u made w0rx.. hehex.. h0pe u dun mind e c0mments.. muz zai jie zai li.. jiay0ux!

darlinx: had been mishhin euu sh0 muchh.. d0 euu n0e? iim s0rriex t0 sae th0se w0rds t0 euu yest... guess ii reali had n0 ch0ice but t0 threaten euu wif dat[n0e euu hate it].. reali dunn0 h0w t0 enc0urage euu t0 studi.. ii`ve tried all means.. n iim desp0 t0 make euu studi.. s0rriex.. tankx ferr tellin mie h0w euu feelin.. but was kinda hurt wen euu acheri d0ubted mua feelinx ferr euu.. wen euu acheri ask mie th0se Qns.. believe iin mie kaex? hav m0re trust iin mie.. but iim reali reali sh0 happi t0 hear dat euu r acheri studyin.. n ishx w0rkin veri hard.. iim sh0 t0uched byy euu last nyyte.. darlinx ii l0ve euu.. l0ve euu sh0 muchhh x)

farkin byytches.. kip urr eyes t0 urself lahx.. n walk pr0perly lahx.. walk til sh0 xialan ferr wat.. knn..

Monday, August 22, 2005

HAPPI 3mTh ANNIVERSARY ba0beix!!

well.. happi dae.. went t0 sch wif ba0beix.. den he g0t exams.. after recess durin chi we went t0 library t0 `studi`.. juan make mie luff till cryy siax.. l0lx.. dun wanna sae wat happened.. c0s she will kill mie.. but its reali farni.. hahax.. den ba0beix after exams c0me find mie l0rx.. went 0utside t0 t0k t0 him.. den he went back.. planned 0ur t0-d0-list ferr e pr0grammes after exams[we seems t0 tink t0o far].. hahax.. well.. will put it up at m0ii `urr c0mfort` dere.. t0 replace e taggie.. aniwae dere 0so n0rt iin use.. sh0 put up m0ii schedule dere betta.. heex..

van didi return mie m0ney t0dae.. wei walk past mie n ask mie g0 c van`s bl0g.. haix.. w0nderrin wat hav ii d0ne wr0ng.. n.. e w0rds dat m0ii frenx sae s0rt 0f hurt mie.. but ii din sh0w it 0ut.. guess its naive 0f mie t0 tink dat wae.. c0s n0 matter wat e ting dat ii wish ferr will n0rt happen.. dey bel0ng t0 tw0 different w0rld.. h0w ken dey b0th exist 2getherr? haix.. f0und it difficult t0 shuffle m0ii tym between m0ii family.. frenx.. l0ve.. studies.. li0n dance.. n mani mani tingx.. its 0nli m0ii wish h0pin dat mayb e b0th side ken c0me 2getherr.. c0s ii reali dunn0 h0w t0 plan m0ii tym 0ut between e tw0.. dere r sum 0ccasi0ns ii reali wish t0 spent it b0th wif u guys n him.. c0s ii hardly had tym ferr u guys.. n its e last yrr.. ii dunn0 till wen den ken we g0 0ut.. mayb nxt yrr all 0f us will distant ii dunn0.. 0nli wish t0 cherish e tym n0w.. but its hard.. nida 0so divide m0ii tym wif ivan dey all.. hardly ken g0 0ut wif dem n0w.. ii felt sh0 guilty evritym ii sae ken0t t0 dem.. li0n dance ii 0so hardly ken g0 lerx.. seld0m get t0 c k0r dey all n g0 0ut wif dem.. haix.. iim s0rriex.. u guys ken blame mie if u wan.. ken sae ii hav changed as u wish.. dere`s n0thin ii ken d0.. wateva ii d0 iim at wr0ng.. haix..

didi: neva did ii eva th0t dat m0ii acti0ns will let u misunderst0od mi.. ii was 0nli actin 0ut t0 pretend ii neva saw u.. but u acheri th0t dat iim ign0rin u? ii feel paisehx? ii dunn0 wat t0 sae.. m ii dat kind 0f pers0n hu kares sh0 muchh abt face? m ii e kind 0f pers0n u th0t iim? ii th0t u n0e dat iim pretendin t0 act da0 0nli.. ii did smile.. ii did c u straight.. u n0e mie.. u n0e iim lidat.. 0wayx plaein arnd.. haix.. ii dunn0 wat t0 sae.. reali dunn0.. wen iim iin bad m0od ii din 0nce threw m0ii temper at u.. ii n0e urr sensitive.. u ken sense it.. dats y ii tryy n0rt t0 sh0w it 0ut t0 u all.. iim w0nderin y dis few daex u neva kall.. ii th0t urr bz.. iim s0rriex ferr n0rt bein able t0 t0k t0 u weneva u kall.. ii d0 feel bad.. haix..

wat e hell ishx happenin t0 mie?? urgh!! ii reali dunn0.. feel dat evriting ishx 0ut t0 0ppose mie n0 matter wat ii d0.. ii nid a break.. ii nid s0me space.. iim a human t0o.. h0w ken ii split m0iiself up ferr sh0 mani 0f u.. ii din ask all 0f u t0 d0 aniting.. ii jux h0pe t0 get urr understandin iin s0me areas.. sumtymx ii 0so d0 nid s0me space ferr m0iiself.. jux m0ii 0wn.. guys.. iim s0rriex..

Sunday, August 21, 2005

ba0beix was at m0ii hse jux n0w.. he came t0 take his b0oks.. den slack arnd.. after dat he acc mie n tricia g0 bed0k return c0mic.. eat lerx den he went back h0me..

well.. dunn0 wats wr0ng wif mie.. n0rt t0 0thers.. but 0nli t0 bibix den ii will lidat.. ii seems t0 zai hu him sh0 muchh.. dat a small mistake byy him ken make mie fed up.. ii dun wanna b lidat.. but ii reali cant help it.. ii dunn0 h0w t0 tell him dat iim n0rt angryy.. reali neva angryy.. 0nli dun feel lyk t0kin weneva ii had a change 0f m0od.. ii dunn0 h0w t0 let him n0e dat ii will angryy wif him 0ften ishx c0s ii mind t0o muchh ferr him.. iim l0st weneva ii c e smile disappear frm his face.. ii t0ld m0iiself.. tryy t0 t0k t0 him.. let him n0e iim n0rt angryy.. but evritym.. ii fail t0 d0 dat.. n bibix will assume dat iim angryy n kip askin mie wat he did wr0ng.. haix.. iim s0rriex.. reali wanna tell him.. iim veri veri s0rriex.. he t0ld mie b4.. dat ii will 0nli thr0w temper at him.. vent m0ii anger 0n him.. n gib him attitude.. ii feel hurt after hearin wat he sae.. but ii admit iim at wr0ng.. veri at wr0ng.. ken sum0ne tell mie y iim actin dis wae? y m ii 0nli hurtin him?? y did ii make him cryy? iim scared.. reali veri scared.. dere`s a feelin iinside 0f mie.. n ii n0e dat if ii dun change.. ii might l0se him 4eva.. ii dun wish dat t0 happen.. reali dun wish.. ii n0e its been hard 0n him t0 t0lerate all dis.. but bibix evritym 0nli will sae.. `nvm.. its n0rt urr fault.. dun blame urrself..` ii feel sh0 guilty.. c0s ii n0e he`s tryyin n0rt t0 let mie feel sh0 bad.. ii realised ii reali dun pei bibix.. he t0o gd ferr mie lerx.. he gib iin m0re den he receive.. ii dun wan him t0 take all dis.. reali dun wan... n iim startin t0 w0nderr.. d0 ii reali l0ve him? ii realised m0ii l0ve ferr him ishx lesser den e l0ve he had ferr mie.. n e feelin has s0rt 0f faded abit.. iim n0rt sure if it reali has faded.. but ii guess sh0.. 0nli abit.. haix.. iim tryyin t0 m0ve 0n.. frm m0ii 0wn past n his past.. ii find m0iiself suff0catin 0ften frm dese 2 tingx.. ii tried t0 refrain m0iiself frm tinkin abt aniting.. but h0w l0ng ken ii kip tinkin lidat? iim scared dat ba0beix might left mie.. jux lyk t0dae wen ii had a dream dat he left mie ferr m0ii c0usin.. ii w0ke up nearlyy iin tears.. iim sh0 l0st n m0ii mind jux went wild.. ii n0e he ishx fed up dat ii dun trust him enuff.. but.. hist0ry has it dere.. n iim afraid hist0ry might repeat again.. ii 0so wanna carri 0n all dese freely.. but iim tied between e 2pasts.. n 0nli ii ken free m0iiself frm it.. ii dunn0 h0w t0 handle dis.. reali dunn0.. dui bu qi darlinx.. but e pr0mise made 0n 2o.o8.o5 might b br0ken byy mie sumdae.. ii n0e ii pr0mise u lerx.. but ii dunn0 if ii still hav e c0urage n determinati0n t0 carri 0n.. it hurts mie t0 c u hurt.. esp byy mie.. m0iiself.. ii hate m0iiself.. reali hate mie t0 r c0re.. y cant ii d0 tingx ferr u? y izzit 0wayx u hu gib iin t0 mie n sacrifice ferr mie? but all ii ken d0 ishx t0 cause misery iin u.. ii feel lyk such a failure.. ii th0t ii ken b gd.. ii wanna brin u e happiness dat u deserve.. but ii fail t0 d0 sh0.. iim cryyin inside.. ken ani0ne hear dat??

sadness has 0verwhelmed mua harrt.. iim n0 l0ngerr str0ng..

mit ba0beix 2pm at inter.. hahax.. dis ishx e first tym we mit sh0 earli.. we went t0 bugis first.. c c walk walk.. went t0 77th st.. n ba0beix insist ii tryy e t0p ii lyk.. den he buyy it ferr mie.. ii dun wan but he insisit[tankx al0t ba0beix.. but ii stil wil return u e m0ney =P] wanna take ne0prinx[celebrate 0ur 3mth t0dae c0s m0n ba0beix g0t exams].. but al0t ppl.. decided t0 g0 buyy s0me f0od first den g0 take.. f0und a place n settle d0wn l0rx.. saw sec2 jermaine.. she`s a byytch.. din kare abt herr.. th0u she kip lukin 0ver at mie.. eat finish lerx den went t0 take f0tox.. saw weijie, j0anna n babyy.. hahax.. t0k t0 dem awhile l0rx.. g0t new machine.. sh0 g0 tryy 0ut.. e effect.. well.. n0rt veri gd.. e c0lour weird weird derx.. hmMmx.. after dat was abt 4+pm den mie n ba0beix went t0 t0wn.. b0ught tix ferr `bewitched` at 7.3opm.. den went t0 heeren t0 eat.. saw wins0n? hahax.. he n0e ba0beix name.. l0lx.. guess ba0beix quite `p0p` 0ready arhx.. hahax.. after dat walk t0 far east.. g0 c cl0thes all dat.. den 7.o5pm lidat we walk back t0 cine t0 catch e m0vie.. after m0vie we slack 0utside cine awhile.. decide t0 take bus back tamp n g0 central park slack.. we b0mb techn0 inside mang0steen usin ba0beix f0ne.. l0lx.. 12am lidat we went t0 7-11.. 0n e wae saw hawwei n nigel.. den buyy ch0colate n drinks n went h0me..

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iim g0nna l0ve euu till e end..

Thursday, August 18, 2005

last nyyte watch superstar.. v0ted ferr kelly!! was happi n sadx wen e results was 0ut.. mixed 0f feelinx.. kelly went iin!!! yeahx.. budden.. junyang was 0ut!! fark!! he was damn gd iin his singin l0rx.. n he acheri didnt get iin?? urgh.. he cried.. n ii 0so cried.. weilian blind sh0 wat? ppl v0ted ferr him c0s 0ut 0f pity.. but t0 tink e l0ng wae.. ishx he able t0 c0mpete wif 0ther singers 0f e w0rld? he ken0t dance 0r wat.. wat will 0thers tink 0f him? urghhhhh!!

m0rnin stupid ms quek sae n0w eng test we mux wait till 1pm den start.. ken0t start at 12.15.. wtf.. lyk we ken tell 0ther klass wat ishx c0min 0ut lidat.. c0s after we finish dey 0ready takin e test lerx l0rx.. shyt herr.. hack.. den after sch went t0 7-11 wif e 7dwarfs? l0lx.. den sean, jacks0n n didi came after dat.. we b0ught s0me f0od n eat l0rx.. den hurried back t0 klass ferr e test... d0 e test til wanna slp lerx l0rx.. felt sh0 slpy.. faster finish den faster g0 hm.. change lerx den mit ba0beix at m0ii hse d0wnstair.. he sae wan send mie g0 mit juan dey all.. sh0 swit ryyte? hahax.. ba0beix wasnt feelin veri happi.. c0s he kena caught by silva abt his hair AGAIN.. he cut lerx l0rx.. sh0 sh0rt lerx.. still hiam.. knn.. feel lyk kickin his ass!! tried t0 cheer ba0beix up.. but lyk n0 use.. but later he s0rt 0f 0kaex lerx.. hmMmx.. mit edwin at bus-st0p.. pass him his shirt.. th0t ii was g0in t0 b late.. iin e end wen ii reach century square juan, celest n huili haven reach.. hahax.. after dat wen dey came had t0 wait ferr feikean.. finalli she came.. den we faster g0 iin e cinema.. `e maid` start at 4pm.. we 4.15 den g0 iin.. l0lx.. den g0t tw0 gerx take 0ur seat.. dun wanna get up.. feel lyk sc0ldin dem but dun wan.. c0s e sh0w start lerx.. sh0 we anih0w sit 0ther place l0rx.. juan sh0 ke lian[s0rriex!].. she sit bside mie mahx.. den wen ii g0t sh0ck ii jump abit she 0so jump.. l0lx.. after dat dey went h0me n ii g0 find ba0beix.. acc him g0 b0oksh0p buyy b0oks.. den he g0 mit his frenx.. ii g0 h0me l0rx.. 11+pm den slp lerx.. slp lerx..

HAPPI BELATED BDAE T0 YIQI!! hahax.. g0t wish u h0rx.. iim e third ryyte? hahax.. felt sh0 pr0ud 0f m0iiself.. acheri rmb urr bdae.. l0lx.. jkjk..

HAPPI BELATED BDAE T0 LIYU!!

been 0ne week since ii last bl0g.. anib0di mish mie? l0lx.. start frm last fri.. gd news.. o lebels chi results was 0ut.. n ii g0t A1!! hahax.. didnt expect dat.. was sh0 happi.. hmMmx.. but sum 0f m0ii frenx wasnt quite happi.. esp d0do.. but n0w ii tink she has th0t it thru.. t0 retake e exams lerx.. heex..

sat went 0ut wif ba0beix.. was disapp0inted iin e n0on.. c0s intend g0 ba0beix hse.. but iin e end it was abt 3pm.. sh0 ferget it.. waited ferr ba0beix t0 prepare.. durin e tym ii plae wif j0anna babyy!! she`s sh0 cute.. hahax.. prisc jie brin her c0me 0ur hse plae.. l0lx.. she evriting 0so wanna eat.. hahax.. 4+pm ba0beix finalli 0kaex.. mit him at interr n t0ok train t0 t0wn.. was upset.. neva t0k t0 ba0beix.. c0s we wanna g0 watch m0vie.. but dunn0 ken catch wat tym sh0w.. we evritym mit sh0 late.. den mani ting 0so ken0t d0.. haix.. ii felt sh0 bad ferr bein angry wif him.. nvm.. but we r 0kaex awhile after dat.. went t0 cine.. decided t0 watch `weddin crashers`.. `e maid` 0nli g0t 11+pm derx.. s0bs.. b4 watchin went t0 heeren t0 eat.. den g0 far east.. hahax.. after dat slack arnd b4 g0in back.. reach h0me abt 12+am.. well.. acheri while g0in h0me.. nearly made ba0beix cryy[feel sh0 bad].. c0s ii th0t 0f breakin up.. felt dat we kip quarrellin.. but.. jux bu she derx t0 d0 dat.. iim s0rriex darlinx..

m0n.. after remedial went t0 tamp mall wif d0do, celest, juan, huili, nick n jacks0n.. sh0p ferr yiqi bdae present.. went t0 buyy cake first.. den luk ferr present.. 0mg.. damn hard t0 luk ferr it.. walk e wh0le mall but ken0t find sumting suitable ferr herr.. finalli.. after ch0osin ferr sh0 l0ng iin 77th st[e salesgirl was feelin fark up] we b0ught a t0p ferr her.. ii had t0 b their tryer? l0lx.. c0s dunn0 ken fit herr n0t mahx.. e 2guys went h0me first.. after dat.. dun wanna sae.. hahax.. well.. had fun at A1.. th0u we messed up e place.. l0lx.. n 0so mess up yiqi =P ba0beix came t0 find mie.. e rest went back while ii acc ba0beix g0 b0okshop[surprisin].. den went t0 f0od palace t0 eat l0rx.. went h0me after dat..

tue.. g0t e.maths test.. luckily after sch eng test p0stp0ne t0 wed.. den ii went back h0me wif ba0beix.. he came m0ii hse sit sit awhile n0rx.. den wait ferr mie prepare.. g0 ba0beix hse t0 studi.. teach him 0so.. hahax.. his prelims c0min.. well.. din manage t0 teach him muchh.. tink he din hav e m0od t0 studi.. den went t0 f0od palace l0rx.. th0t g0t superstar.. sh0 st0opid 0f mie.. saw juan at dere 0so.. ask her den n0e n0t wed.. l0lx.. after eatin ba0beix send mie h0me..

wed arhx.. g0t a.maths test.. sh0 difficult.. haix.. ferget it.. after sch prepare ferr 0ral.. was sh0 nerv0us dat iim shiverin.. iim e 1st 0ne aniwae.. was given tym t0 read e passage.. den tym`s up.. ii walk int0 music r0om.. greet e invigilat0rs.. n gib dem m0ii IC.. den.. `we cant find urr name here..` ii was stunned siax.. deyy kip findin but ken0t find m0ii name.. den realised ishx wr0ng gr0up[dia0x].. ii walk 0ut 0f e r0om n ii ken c evri0ne was sh0ck.. th0t ii finish lerx.. l0lx.. t0ld ms quek dat e invigilat0rs was iin e wr0ng r0om.. hahax.. she quickly check den ask e rest 0f e pupils change place.. ii sh0ck till nearly cryy 0ut.. was shiverin iinside e r0om.. den started evriting.. was fine e t0pics all dat.. but ii dun quite n0e wat iim t0kin.. hahax.. wateva.. went h0me.. den ba0beix was at m0ii hse d0wnstair.. ask him help mie pass up m0ii maths ex bk.. ferget brin t0 sch.. den went t0 b0okshop he nida buyy calculat0r.. after dat went t0 A1 eat ice-cream.. kekex.. den went h0me.. studi ferr chem test.. watch superstar 0so.. junyang r0x!! hahax.. hmMmx.. f0und 0ut sumting abt m0ii sis.. dun wanna t0k abt it.. n.. m0ii y0ungest sis steal m0ii $60!! wtf.. knn.. feel lyk strangling herr t0 death.. urgh..

t0dae t0dae.. m0ther t0ngue went t0 canteen t0 studi wif juan dey all.. n0 nid g0 ferr chi less0n anim0re.. hahax.. g0t back b0th maths test paper.. ang reali lyk r0bot.. mark sh0 fast.. didnt sc0re veri well.. sh0 mani kareless mistakes l0rx.. fark.. nvm.. chem test was difficult lyk hell.. urgh.. after sch had physics practical test.. haix.. iim feelin sh0 tired n0w.. damn tired.. mish ba0beix sh0 muchh.. t0dae he neva c0me sch[ken u acheri believe ii all0w him dun c0me?] hmMmx.. had been sick ferr 1week.. kip c0ughin.. n0se wanna dr0p lerx.. flu lyk hell.. n m0ii v0ice.. dunn0 wen will l0se e ability t0 speak.. s0re thr0at.. haix.. s0rriex ba0beix ii let u w0rriex lerx...

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

stayed at h0me t0 d0 hmk.. did hsew0rk first.. help mummy vacuum n m0p e fl0or.. kekex.. rush m0ii hmk.. hav been plaein since fri.. evridae 0so g0 0ut.. nvrr 12am nvrr g0 h0me siax.. felt sh0 guilty.. hmMmx.. den at nyyte ba0beix c0me m0ii hse pass mie ch0colate.. hahax.. tankx!! after hmk kall ba0beix.. ivan di kall.. but ii didnt hear.. c0s ii was iin e livin r0om.. well.. t0k t0 ba0beix ferr quite l0ng.. wen ii g0 int0 m0ii r0om.. saw van sms.. c lerx nearly cryy.. reali veri t0uchin.. was sh0 sh0cked dat he acheri sae all th0se tingx t0 mie.. ba0beix was jeal0us? hahax.. well.. reali a great dae.. hehex..

van didi.. well.. u did it.. u reali sh0cked mie.. was sh0 surprised t0 c 6msg iin 1sms.. th0t wat had happened t0 u.. yahx.. nearly cryy.. u 0wayx lyk t0 make mie cryy.. l0lx.. hmMmx.. u tankx mie sh0 muchh.. ii 0so wanna tankx u.. ferr bein such a w0nderful gan didi 0f mine.. nvrr fail t0 tell mie urr pr0bs.. nvrr fail t0 find mie weneva u nid help.. even wen ii nvrr c0ntact u.. u still will rmb mie n kall mie.. lettin mie n0e dat u trust mie.. ii dun mind e attitude u gimme.. c0s ii understand wat urr g0in thru.. reali... n ii cant sense e attitude u gimme.. sh0 n0 w0rriex.. ii understand dat urr g0in t0 feel l0nely wen we r 0ut 0f sch.. but pls rmb.. u stil hav mani mani frenx iin sch nxt yrr.. dun kip tinkin dat we will distant apart 0r wat.. lyk wat ii`ve sae.. ii will still g0 back t0 sch t0 find u.. sumtymx mayb mit u 0ut t0 ktv 0r wat.. reali.. dun feel sh0 l0st kaex? ii admit th0u we may hav new frenx iin p0ly/jc.. but ii ken tell u.. sec sch frenx r still cl0ser t0 us.. c0s ii hav seen mani ppl still wif their sec sch frenx instead 0f p0ly frenx.. iim s0rriex dat n0wadaex wen u kall mie ii either nvrr pick up 0r ken0t t0k t0 u.. ii din hear urr kall.. sh0 s0rriex.. sumtymx ii t0kin t0 zha0 den mux let u wait.. but ii h0pe u b0th will understand.. reali.. had been hearin urr depressed eva since e gerr entered urr life.. well.. ii reali dunn0 h0w t0 enc0urage u 0n dis matter.. ii 0nli ken sae.. ii will supp0rt urr decisi0n all e wae.. n h0pe dat u will still remain str0ng t0 carry 0n.. u hav did dat iin e past 1yrr.. sh0 dun gib up n0w.. e g0in might gets t0ugher.. but reali reali dun let it affect u sh0 muchh.. ii still rmb e dae urr bdae.. wen u 1st cried 0n m0ii sh0ulder.. dat was e tym ii truly n0e h0w xin ku urr g0in thru.. life has n0t been 0wayx gd ferr u.. ii n0e.. but ii mux admit urr reali str0ng.. t0 b able t0 g0 thru all dis.. dere r tymx wen u wanna gib up.. dere r tymx u curse n swear lyk hell.. but ii n0e u dun mean wat u sae.. dun let herr take awae e smile 0n urr face.. tink p0sitively n luk ahead.. u may sae.. `s0und ez but difficult t0 d0`.. yahx.. ii n0e.. but tryy urr veri best.. she has m0ve 0n wif herr life.. its p0intless n0w.. dun regret but b glad.. c0s at least e paths 0f e tw0 0f u did cr0ss at 0ne 0f e juncti0n 0f life.. mux jiay0ux all e wae kaex? as ferr urr family.. ii n0e urr havin difficulties sumtymx.. iim 0so facin abt e same pr0b as u d0.. sh0 ii understand fully h0w u feel.. tryy n0rt t0 let dem w0rriex sh0 muchh.. esp urr dad.. tryy n0rt t0 sh0ut at dem.. ii ken c dey reali kare.. n ii n0e u kare ferr dem al0t t0o.. its 0nli u dunn0 h0w t0 sh0w urr kare n c0ncern 0ut t0 dem.. cherish wat u hav n0w n let dem n0e.. dun regret it iin e future.. reali.. a milli0ns gratitude n a milli0ns ap0logies t0 u.. aniting still ken tell mie kaex? *jie-di 184*

darlinx.. well.. send t0 u all mua hart felt w0rds.. n0e urr t0uched byy mie.. kekex.. but still.. ii wanna sae it again.. hmMmx.. tankx ferr bein mua 0ne n 0nli bibix.. eva since e dae u t0ok mua hart awae.. ii reali felt e extreme happiness ii ken feel.. nehh verx felt dat b4.. euu r 0wayx full 0f surprises.. 0wayx dere ferr mie wen iim tired 0r d0wn.. mua life reali brightens up wif urr smile.. e ups n d0wns we hav been thru jux iin e sh0rt 2mths hav made us grew cl0serr den ehh verx.. iim s0rriex dat at tymx.. ii sh0wn mua temperr t0 euu.. n at tymx.. mua attitude.. iim s0rriex dat ii let euu feel ii take urr gd ferr advantage.. but ii reali nehh verx wanna d0 dat.. euu hav been t0leratin mua stubb0rnness.. mua bad pts.. n mua bad w0rds.. iim s0rriex t0 b such a bad gerr.. dat euu 0wayx had t0 w0rriex ferr mie n tell mie e tingx euu dun lyk mie t0 d0.. but 0wayx.. ii nehh verx listen t0 euu n c0ntinue wif all mua n0nsense.. a veri big s0rriex t0 euu.. but 0so a veri big tankkew.. tankx ferr bringin e smile 0nto mua face weneva mua life turns t0 darkness.. tankx ferr e l0ve.. kare n c0ncern euu hav been sh0werin mie wif.. ii still rmb e 1st tym we held hands.. e 1st tym we hug.. n e 1st tym we kiss.. still rmb e 1st quarrel we had.. e 1st tym ii made tears fell frm urr eyes.. e 1st tym ii break urr hart.. but euu nehh verx 0nce.. th0t 0f lettin mie g0.. euu c0ntinue t0 embrace mie wif all e l0ve euu ken gib n l0ve mie wh0le-hartedly.. tankx ferr bein such a w0nderful b0ii.. tankx ferr d0tin mie n l0vin mie ferr hu ii m... babyy euu stand a veri special place iin mua hart.. n ii n0e dat dis place ishx n0rt g0nna meant ferr 0thers xcept euu.. urr sh0 preci0us t0 mie.. darlinx mua l0ve ferr euu will 0nli increase n n0rt decrease.. lemme h0ld 0nto euu 0nce again.. lemme rely 0n euu ferr e rest 0f mua life.. nth`s g0nna change all dis l0ve dat had been nurtured byy us.. n ii pr0mised dat n0 matter h0w t0ugh e j0urney might g0es.. ii will stay byy urr side dis tym.. t0 l0ve euu unc0nditi0nally.. ehh verx since 0ur st0riee started.. ehh verx since e dae [22.o5.o5]

mishin him... wanna l0ve him till e dae ii cl0se mua eyes.. n even den.. ii will still b l0vin him....

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

w0ke up arnd 2pm.. den prepare t0 g0 0ut wif ba0beix.. tricia went 0ut wif ivan, d0do n cindy? l0lx.. mit ba0beix at iinter.. den b4 takin e train we s0rt 0f c0s a $5 den c0ld war.. all e while 0n train ii nvrr t0k t0 him.. 0nli at city hall den we s0rt 0f t0k.. but ii l0se e m0od t0 sh0p arnd.. we went t0 heeren.. saw samy n jingx.. ii was quiet l0rx.. dunn0 wats wr0ng wif mie? duhx.. haix.. nvm.. ba0beix buyy 0ld chang kee t0 eat.. ii was silent.. iim s0rriex babyy.. ferrgib mie.. but ii reali had n0 m0od anim0re after dat.. den we decide t0 g0 esplanade.. 0n e wae den ii rec0verr m0ii m0od.. hahax.. n we were back 2getherr again.. hehex.. reach esplanade.. sh0ckin scene? filled wif sh0 mani ppl.. saw a gd sp0t n went dere.. hahax.. saw e fighter planes fly 0verr here n dere.. t0ok sum f0tox 0f it.. but n0t g0in t0 send t0 c0m.. hahax.. waited ferr e firew0rks.. hehex.. e sky darkened.. n ii was damn h0t!! sweat lyk hell.. but nvm.. hmMmx.. finalli.. arnd 8.15pm lidat e firew0rks start.. e wh0le skyy seems as th0u e firew0rks c0verr all 0f it.. was sh0 beautiful.. =) n it was ryte infr0nt 0f mie!! e left n ryte hand side 0so hav.. 0mg.. first tym saw sh0 mani firew0rk bein put at 0ne tym.. hehex.. wen it ended ii n ba0beix decided t0 g0 t0 far east n eat Han`s.. kekex.. 0n e wae t0 mrt was a t0rturin j0urney.. sh0 squeezy n sweaty.. finalli reach far east den rush t0 Han`s.. scared it cl0se lerx mahx.. kekex.. but we made it iin tym.. hmMmx.. after eatin we t0ok bus back tamp.. den ba0beix send mie h0me.. hehex.. was tired 0ut.. reach h0me abt 12am.. l0lx..

bibix arhx.. s0rriex ferr e c0ld war.. hmMmx.. din mean t0 quarrel wif u 0ver m0ney derx.. but ii admit ii was abit attitude.. dui bu qi.. ii pr0mised dis will n0rt happen again.. reali.. c0s it reali hurts t0 leave euu al0ne.. n0rt t0 t0k t0 u.. th0u dere was hurt.. but e l0ve was nvrr g0ne.. sh0 dun w0rriex kaex? reali had a fun tym t0dae wif u.. kekex.. n it was a special dae ryte? kekex.. darlinx.. w0 aii Nii.. zhi ai ni yi ge.. neva g0nna change.. *mmuackx*

Monday, August 08, 2005

well.. iin sch was kinda b0red.. ba0beix nvrr c0me.. he was sick.. haix.. h0pe he`s gettin betta.. well.. but we had a sandwich dae 0rganised byy 0ur klass.. hahax.. aniwae.. we sit 2getherr t0 eat e sandwiches made byy dem.. tankx al0t guys.. hehex.. hmMmx.. walk arnd n c e stalls l0rx.. spent $3 0n f0tox.. taken wif shwee, huili, celest, juan, yiqi n d0do.. l0lx.. but e quality was damn p0or n blurr.. sh0 b0red siax.. den iin canteen sit arnd n t0k.. t0k t0 samy abt mani tingx.. yahx.. suddenly realised she ishx veri nice t0 t0k t0.. she will listen n gib advices.. tankx al0t gerr.. after sch went h0me.. was rainin.. ii was sh0 b0red at h0me.. urgh.. t0k t0 ba0beix 0n e f0ne.. he ishx betta lerx.. den abt 5+pm we decided t0 g0 marina dere.. ii n tricia went t0 inter.. den mit ke0ng.. ba0beix was sh0 late.. same 0ld him.. hahax.. waited ferr abt 15mins den he c0me.. den g0 suntec find ah jun n sweebin.. after dat we g0 eat.. went t0 esplanade after dat.. slack arnd.. 9+pm dey went back left mie, ba0beix n tricia[ lightbulb? l0lx..] we sit dere t0k all dat l0rx.. wait ferr 12 midnyte ferr c0untd0wn t0 nati0nal dae! hahax.. finalli.. 11.59.56pm den heard ppl c0unt `4..3..2..1..` e sky lyte up wif firew0rks!! sh0 nice.. but a byytch g0 stand 0n e seat infr0nt 0f us.. bl0ckin 0ur view.. feel lyk kickin herr d0wn.. wateva.. dun wanna let herr sp0il m0ii m0od.. vide0 d0wn e firew0rks.. damn beautiful!! hahax.. after dat t0ok train back t0 tamp.. den take cab g0 82o t0 eat.. tricia was hungry?? hahax.. den t0ok cab back h0me.. w0nderr wats wr0ng wif mie.. at e c0ffeesh0p suddenly feel sh0 tired dat ii hardly ken rmb wat ii hav d0ne.. =X

Sunday, August 07, 2005

t0dae wake up d0 hsew0rk first den t0k t0 ba0beix all e wae.. hahax.. damn angry.. m0ii sis buyy e mickey m0use t0p ii wan derx!!! wtf.. haix.. g0 tm wif tricia.. mit ba0beix at inter 0so.. den we g0 buyy m0vie tix.. mit up wif ke0ng, sweebin n ah jun.. den intend g0 eat pizza hut.. but tricia mix blurr.. l0lx.. went t0 f0od c0urt eat l0rx.. ba0beix g0 plae billiard wif dem.. ii n tricia g0 watch m0vie after eatin.. `charlie n e ch0colate fact0ry`.. n0t a bad m0vie.. l0lx.. hahax.. after dat g0 h0me l0rx.. reach h0me kena nag byy parents.. haix.. sae ii yest late g0 h0me.. but iim e earliest l0rx.. knn.. th0u ishx 11+pm g0in 12.. but at least still quite earli l0rx.. still kp mie sae nvrr d0 hsewrk.. damn angry den sae ii g0t d0 h0rx.. fcuk.. dun wanna quarrel wif dem.. but had t0.. haix.. ii n0e fri nyyte ii reali ishx late g0 h0me.. but y dun g0 sc0ld m0ii sis 0so.. fcuk fcuk fcuk.. urgh.. wateva.. dun feel quite well at nyyte.. but still ken.. den t0k t0 van n wei.. after dat wei g00 slp den t0k t0 van abt mani tingx l0rx.. heex..

bibix.. u n0rt feelin well again lerx.. haix.. c u kip sick ii 0so veri xin ku lehx.. haiy0x.. u kip sh0 late slp dun wan takairex 0f urrself derx.. b m0re guai n ting hua ken??? dun lemme w0rriex again.. tml if u reali n0rt g0in sch pls rest m0re kaex? dun 0wayx plae game all dat lerx.. l0ve euu bibix.. *mmuackx*

Saturday, August 06, 2005

t0dae mit ba0beix at interr.. 0n bus saw tricia, van, wei, nigel, sebest n clement.. hahax.. sh0ckein eHhx? l0lx.. van ask mie g0 0ut but iim b0oked byy ba0beix.. sh0 veri s0rriex.. heex.. den walk t0 mrt saw yiqi wif et.. hahax.. den saw shar0n tan.. l0lx.. after dat mie n ba0beix g0 t0wn.. kekex.. g0 heeren first.. den ba0beix g0 0ut sm0ke.. den we g0 in take ne0print.. but was pissed 0ff byy a gerr.. damn idi0tic.. cut 0ut queue.. dia0 herr.. but she dun dare luk back.. fcuk.. ba0beix sae g0 t0ilet first.. den ii purp0sely walk past herr bang herr.. l0lx.. byytch siax.. hmMmx.. den g0 back take f0tox again.. heex.. ii sh0 uglyy!! wateva.. wanna g0 far east but n0 tym.. had t0 g0 d0wn esplanade watch firew0rks.. hehex... reach dere al0t ppl siax.. 0ne auntie stand behind us kip kpkb.. sae ba0beix sh0 tall all dat.. fcukin hell.. dun blame ppl tall blame urrself sh0rt lahx.. firew0rks start but we cant c.. walk 2wards e directi0n den ken c.. but half 0nli.. but veri nice!!! hahax.. after dat 8+pm we g0 back far east sh0ppin.. ba0beix b0ught 0ne shirt.. hahax.. ii lyk it sh0 muchh!!! l0lx.. summ0re ishx limited editi0n derx.. sh0 ask him buy.. but kinda exp.. $59 ferr 0ne t0p.. hahax.. lyk LABEL sh0 muchh!! LABEL r0x!!!!!!!!!! hahax.. n0w ii lyk sia0 STREETSTYLE sh0 muchh.. whakakax.. ii wan plaeb0ii sh0es!!!! 1oo+ lehx.. haix.. nvrr g0in t0 get t0 buyy it.. s0bs.. tink ba0beix kena influence byy mie 0so lerx.. den we g0 sh0p arnd den g0 eat l0rx.. after dat we t0ok bus back tamp den take bus back m0ii h0me.. kekex..

babyy.. u g0t aniting dun kip frm mie ken? ii wil feel guilty derx.. haix.. iim s0rriex t0 let u feel dis wae.. didnt mean it.. haix.. wat u dun lyk tell mie.. n ii will tryy n change.. ii may n0rt b able t0 change t0tally.. but at least ii will tryy n0rt t0 d0 th0se tingx u dun lyk..

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mie n ba0beix.. kekex..

Friday, August 05, 2005

currently at bibix hse.. hmMmx.. iin sch m0rnin 0ready feelin damn farked up.. saw sum0ne carryin plaeb0i bag.. n dat pers0n ii th0t she wun eva buy plaeb0i tingy.. c0s ii dun tink she lyk it.. dunn0 y it seems lyk wat ii lyk she 0so will lyk?? wtf.. hate it!! damn pissed 0ff.. n dunn0 y all e while she dun even dare luk at mie.. wen she ken acheri g0 sc0ld sum0ne else? dare t0 sae mie iin frenster.. but kip av0idin mie? g0t a feelin she sh0 xialan wen she walk past.. n sh0 act.. nearly ken0t c0ntr0l m0iiself.. jux g0t back frm h0sp.. n0thin bad acheri.. g0t medicine.. hmMmx.. scare mie.. th0t nid draw bl0od.. l0lx.. g0in watch `charlie n e ch0colate fact0ry` wif d0do, celest, juan, yiqi, kaiying n huili.. at first g0in bugis.. but celest iin sch durin pe fell d0wn n s0rt 0f hurt herr ankle.. h0pe she`s 0ryte.. sh0 ken0t g0 sh0ppin.. s0bs.. hahax.. nvm.. den dey suggest g0 watch m0vie.. ii nida g0 h0sp ferr app0intment first.. den ii ken0t make it.. =( kinda disapp0inted.. c0s veri l0ng nvrr g0 0ut wif dem lerx.. but nvm.. ken ishx ken.. but n0 tix lerx.. sh0 nvm.. hmMmx.. acc bibi g0 mit ke0ng.. den n0w at bibi hse.. later g0in ke0ng hse.. den wen d0do watch finish m0vie ii den g0 mit herr g0 bugis.. mitin tricia 0so.. hahax.. at nyyte nvrr g0 club lerx lahx.. s0bs.. sh0 l0ng nvrr g0 lerx.. n sh0 qi ji bibi sae wanna acc mie g0 0so.. haix.. nvm..

yiqi arhx.. nvm lahx.. ishx ii last min den sae ken make it mahx.. sh0 n0rt urr fault l0rx.. sh0 dun sae s0rriex kaex? reali n0rt urr fault.. sh0 dun ap0logise 0r feel bad..

jaslyn.. u lyk mie n0rt ii dun kare.. c0s ii cant change urr tinkin.. n h0w ken a pers0n dun lyk an0ther pers0n den sh0 fast sae nvrr lyk 0r dun lyk.. dunn0 wat urr tinkin.. c0s ii dunn0 u well.. u ken still tell d0do urr pr0bs.. y will she b fan? its urr tingy n she`s 0nli lendin a listenin ear.. if u dun tell herr den will she trust u again? dun c0s 0f th0se tingy den make til she l0se trust iin u.. if she n0e u g0t pr0bs dun tell herr h0w wld she feel? mayb tell herr urr tingy n assure herr n0rt t0 tink abt it.. abt askin herr 0ut.. u ken b0ok herr first mahx.. n0 nid wait till last min den tell herr wat.. n abt u bein wif maggie.. if u wanna b wif herr at least tell d0do where r u g0in mahx.. d0 u n0e dat she ishx lukin arnd ferr u? n wen she cant find u she will kip askin where r u? she wif us ii tink ishx c0s she saw u wif maggie dats y she c0me find us.. u c0me find d0do wen she ishx wif us ishx n0thin wr0ng l0rx.. c0s evri0ne n0e u wif herr derx mahx.. den if suddenly u wif 0ther ppl den leave herr wif us 0ther ppl mayb will sae u PS herr den g0 find 0thers..

mit lerx d0do n tricia den g0 bugis l0rx.. g0 find cl0thes.. den d0do buy 0ne t0p.. but n0rt freshb0x derx.. c0s new derx n0rt nice.. after dat saw henry.. hahax.. den 8+pm g0 back tamp.. d0do g0 h0me.. ii n tricia at kfc eat.. den prisc kall sae g0t g0 d0wn sparks.. at first bibi dun all0w mie g0.. den iin e end we stil g0 d0wn.. mit bibi at mrt stati0n.. den ask ke0ng dey all send tricia back.. l0lx.. tankx al0t.. hahax.. mie n bibi g0 d0wn arnd 11+pm lerx.. den slack till 3am lidat g0 back l0rx.. HAPPI BDAE WEIJIE!!

ba0beix arhx.. sh0 s0rriex.. reali feel sh0 guilty.. ferget help u tink.. 0nli tink ferr m0iiself.. kip wan g0 d0wn club.. haix.. s0rriex.. th0u u kip saein nvm but ii still feel veri guilty.. dui bu qi.. urr sh0 gd.. 0wayx gibin iin t0 mie.. reali feel sh0 f0rtunate t0 b wif u.. tankx al0t.. ii l0ve euu sh0 muchhh darlinx.. reali l0ve euu al0t.. *mmuackkx*

Thursday, August 04, 2005

2dae late ferr sch.. bluff ah tan sae m0ii grandma sick mux wait m0ii auntie c0me.. l0lx.. den he sae wan kall m0ii hse.. ii faster chi0ng g0 t0ilet kall back h0me pa kah wif m0ii ah ma.. hahax.. den g0 back klass.. sms ba0beix iin klass.. dunn0 wats wr0ng wif mie.. kip tinkin abt th0se unneccessary tingx.. den make till ba0beix sh0 sadx.. haix.. ba0beix c0me m0ii klass find mie.. but ii ask him g0 back instead.. didnt t0k muchh.. haix.. hate mie!!! recess ba0beix tried t0 t0k t0 mie.. but ii s0rt 0f ign0red him.. wats wr0ng wif mie!!!!!!!!!??? urgh.. feelin damn fcuked up.. den saw dat bytch.. felt w0rse.. feel lyk slappin herr.. damn it.. juan pulled mie awae.. scared ii luan luan lai.. l0lx.. aniwae 0so tankx t0 herr.. hahax.. we nvrr g0 assembly.. hahax.. 0nli s0me ppl g0 niax.. wait 0utside chem lab l0rx.. den chem cherr kip nag nag nag.. st0opid l0rx.. after sch went t0 find ah tan take back m0ii ez-link.. but dunn0 he die till where.. ken0t find him.. g0 7-11 find celest dey all.. went back den gate was l0cked.. had t0 walk back t0 fr0nt gate.. den g0 0ffice take back.. but ez-link wif silva.. damn it.. den ba0beix 0utside 0ffice.. dunn0 he will get suspend n0t.. haix.. evritym sh0 n0ttie.. dunn0 wat t0 sae him.. at remedial 0so nvrr listen t0 cherr.. at dere take f0to.. l0lx.. zi lian.. hahax.. but ii n0thin t0 d0 mahx.. hahax.. after dat g0 h0me l0rx.. n0wadaex laziee t0 d0 m0ii hmk siax.. l0se e m0tivati0n.. =X aniwae.. creative talent derx ppl kall mie.. nida g0 d0wn again.. ferr m0dellin tingy.. ba0beix sh0 scared ii wil j0in.. l0lx.. wun lahx.. haiy0x.. hmMmx.. tml after sch nida g0 h0sp app0intment.. tink ba0beix acc-in mie g0.. den after dat had t0 g0 mit d0do dey all g0 bugis.. dunn0 app0intment till wat tym.. hmMmx.. aniwae.. will b bz dese few daex.. c0s iim quite fully b0oked.. hahax..

HAPPI BDAE JINGFENG!!! all e best iin urr studies w0rx.. kekex..

bibi arhx.. n0e urr sacrifices ferr mie.. ii n0e we iin sch seld0m t0k.. recess 0so.. at m0st 0nli t0k 5mins.. dats all.. ii n0e its m0ii fault.. c0s ii 0wayx wif m0ii frenx.. n weneva u wanna c0me t0k t0 mie u find it difficult n paisehx.. afterall sh0 mani gerx dere.. haix.. neva meant t0 ign0re u iin sch t0dae derx.. but reali find it hard t0 face u.. dunn0 h0w t0 face u.. nida s0rt 0ut m0ii th0ts.. s0rriex.. a th0usand ap0logies frm mie.. 4gib mie.. iim tryin m0i best t0 change m0iiself.. t0 b a betta gerr.. betta stead t0 u.. n ii n0e urr 0so tryin t0 b guai n0w.. sh0 dun 0wayx skip less0ns lerx kaex? dun lemme w0rriex.. gimme sudden attack wen u t0ld mie u in 0ffice.. den wen ii saw u u sae mayb g0in get suspended.. ii was damn sh0cked.. dun gimme hart attack again ken? haix.. ba0beix ii lurbe euu.. lurbe euu l0ads.. lurbe euu m0re n m0re.. wanna lyte up urr life wen it ishx dark.. wanna gib u c0mfort wen urr d0wn.. h0ld urr hand wen urr l0st.. gib u warm wen urr c0ld.. n m0re.. dun eva leave mie.. pls 4gib mie ferr wat ii hav d0ne.. *mmuackkx*hhuggiex*

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

iin sch was kinda fun.. hahax.. eng less0n g0t debatin.. st0opid sean g0 j0in lishan`s grp.. den c0me 0ppose us.. hahax.. but half e klass still supp0rt 0ur grp.. hahax.. den after sch ba0beix acc mie g0 h0me.. hmMmx.. plae at m0ii hse.. l0lx.. den ba0beix g0 h0me.. he g0t tuiti0n mahx.. tricia tell mie sae ge0rge c0min back t0dae.. but he still haven c0ntact us.. s0bs.. ii wan m0ii taiwan`s cl0thes!! hahax.. ask him help mie n m0ii sis buy nice nice taiwan cl0thes back ferr us.. kekex.. t0dae grandma bdae.. HAPPI BDAE GRANDMA!! hahax.. later mayb g0in eat dinner.. hmMmx.. st0ppin here.. tired lerx.. hahax.. takairex guys..

d0do.. read urr bl0g.. was surprised dat u r n0t angry wif wat ii wr0te.. lidat 0so gd.. afterall ishx btw mie n herr.. hmMmx.. s0rriex ii nvrr listen t0 wat u sae.. but ii reali ken0t dun t0k t0 him.. u 0so n0e iim s0ft-harted derx.. reali ken0t take it wen ii ign0re him.. s0rriex.. but dun w0rriex kaex.. c0s he sae he will change sl0wly lerx.. tankx ferr urr c0ncern.. x)

k0on.. n0e u sms urr k0r.. was kinda glad t0 n0e dat u still kare.. felt dat we had distant.. n0e u veri disapp0inted iin mie.. haix.. didnt hav e c0urage t0 t0k t0 u.. th0u urr k0r did ask mie tryy t0k t0 u sumtymx.. but ii jux dun hav e c0urage.. haven been able t0 read urr bl0g dis few daex.. weneva ii g0 in it was beri lag.. den din manage t0 l0ad urr webby.. will tryy t0 read it derx.. s0rriex.. n h0pe u d0 takairex 0f urrself.. n0e u all d&t d0 till wanna die lerx.. dun t0o stress kaex?

bibi arhx.. s0rriex w0rx.. we lyk a few weeks nvrr g0 sh0ppin lerx h0rx? n0e u dis 2weeks hav been kinda l0nely.. c0s ii seld0m mit u.. t0k t0 u.. all dat.. but was sh0 happi.. c0s after thr0win sh0 muchhh temper at u.. u stil sae nvm.. but was reali feelin abit l0st.. had t0 c0pe wif m0ii studies.. frenx.. u n family.. n0w g0t sum pr0bs at h0me.. daddy lidat.. haix.. sh0 ii h0pe u will understand.. dis sat iim b0oked byy u.. dun 0wayx sae ppl ken cut queue u ken0t kaex? iim s0rriex evritym wen ii make plans wif u lerx den m0ii frenx will ask mie g0 0ut.. den ii 0wayx g0 0ut wif dem n cancel 0ur plans.. dis sat wun lerx.. reali.. but fri iim b0oked.. reali b0oked.. fri nyyte ii mayb g0in d0wn sparks celebrate weijie bdae.. ii h0pe u will acc mie g0.. reali h0pe.. ii n0e u will b paisehx.. c0s afterall m0ii k0r k0r dey all 0so g0in d0wn.. but u 0so n0e dem mahx.. 0nli seld0m t0k.. wanna g0 n0t u tink first den tell mie kaex.. iim s0rriex u ask mie dun g0 club ii stil g0.. but ii veri l0ng nvrr g0 lerx.. n dis ishx bdae mahx.. s0rriex ferr n0t listenin t0 u.. mishin u 0wayx darlinx.. *mmuackkx*

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

iin sch was quite angry.. she sae sumting t0 0thers.. but ii ken0t c0nfirm izzit she sae derx.. but e ting was reali t0o muchh l0rx.. fcuk.. ba0beix had t0 t0lerate m0ii bad w0rds.. l0lx.. after sch g0t maths test.. was kinda ez.. but ii g0t 2Qn wr0ng.. s0bs.. nvm.. den tricia mei sae ge0rge t0dae c0me back frm taiwan.. but iin e end dun hav. ken0t c0ntact him.. his n0 change lerx.. den at h0me sh0 sianx.. ba0beix kall.. hahax.. den we decide wan g0 bugis 0r g0 plae p0ol.. iin e end g0 plae p0ol.. it was abt 5.15pm.. den prepare till 6.o5 lidat mit ba0beix at inter.. t0ok bus 1o g0 kat0ng village dere.. den plae l0rx.. l0lx.. ii n0e h0w t0 plae lerx.. sh0 ba0beix 0nli teach mie m0re.. but ii still veri p0or iin p0ol.. plae wif ba0beix n0t fun derx.. he kip winnin mie.. s0bs.. hahax.. but he 0wayx plae cheat.. kip m0vin e whyte ball ferr mie t0 sh0ot m0re easy.. l0lx.. tankx al0t! ba0beix sae m0ii p0ol skills impr0ve lerx.. hahax.. sh0 happi.. l0lx.. after dat t0ok bus back den g0 844 eat dinner.. t0ld sis wil b back at 1opm.. but wen ii reach h0me was 11+pm.. l0lx.. den kall ivan t0k l0rx.. he was waitin ferr m0ii kall.. s0rriex di.. hmMmx.. u dun w0rriex sh0 muchhh kaex? after 0ur o lebels ii wun ferget u derx.. dun w0rriex.. u g0t aniting stil ken find mie t0k derx.. th0u ii will b w0rkin m0st 0f e tym.. but we wil still kip iin c0ntact dun w0rriex.. dun tink dat 0ther ppl 0so graduate lerx.. but iin sch u stil hav al0t frenx wif u mahx.. cherish e tym u hav n0w since urr stil iin sec sch.. c0s e frenx n mem0riex here willl b e m0st impt t0 u. reali.. dun w0rriex kaex di.. n0w mux c0ncentrate 0n urr studies 1st.. ii n0e frenx veri impt t0 u.. but jux relac.. we wun ferget u derx.. heex..

Monday, August 01, 2005

jux l0g in frenster.. n as ii predicted.. e msg were frm herr..

jaslyn.. since ii ken c0nfirm u g0t c0me c m0ii bl0g den ii shall wryte wat ii wanna sae here.. receive urr frenster msg.. well.. dunn0 y u sae u dunn0 ii referin t0 u n0t but iin e end u still sae ii wryte abt u.. sh0 isnt it abvi0us dat u n0e? n u sae u dun kare abt m0ii tingy.. ii 0so nvrr kare abt urr tingy wat.. since wen did ii kare? ii n0e u g0t find d0do.. u evridae 0so g0t find herr mahx.. h0w wld ii n0t n0e? n t0 mie.. karin ferr a pers0n ishx thru e acti0ns u d0 t0 sh0w 0ut.. its n0t iin e hart.. if u kare ferr sum0ne but u nvrr sh0w.. h0w wld e pers0n eva get t0 n0e it? its e same l0gic as u l0ve sum0ne but u nvrr sh0w it 0ut.. h0w will e pers0n n0e it? its n0 use saein u kare ferr herr.. w0rriex ferr herr.. but u nvrr sh0w it.. ii 0so ken sae all dis.. w0rds r easier sae den d0ne.. n w0rds ken b flip here n dere.. u ken sae u kare but iinside u dun wat.. 0ur teacherr wat tym release us ii n0e.. n usualli we r n0t release late.. except ferr a few xcepti0ns.. u sae u saw us wif herr den u fang xin lerx.. but d0 u n0e dat wen she ishx wif us n u suddenly disappear lidat she kips lukin ferr u? if u w0rriex ferr herr b byy herr side t0 let herr n0e.. n0t g0 t0 maggie n leave herr all al0ne.. since u n0e wat 0thers sae abt she dun lyk t0 b wif u durin recess.. den y dun u change ferr e betta? find 0ut e reas0n frm herr n change.. n0t jux believe herr n ferget evriting.. lidat ken0t s0lve e pr0b.. wat she did ferr u u rmb ken lerx.. dere`s n0 nid t0 tell herr u still rmb.. n even if u tell herr.. y will it make tingx w0rse? she will 0nli b happi wat.. y wld she b unhappi wif it? ppl tell u dey still rmb wat u d0 ferr dem den u angry wif dem? wat l0gic ishx dis? eva since sh0 mani tingx happen we neva t0k.. n ii dun c u wantin t0 t0k t0 mie.. u 0wayx claim dat u did tryy.. but n0 0ne saw it.. if u did tryy n t0k t0 mie.. shujuan deyy all will n0e derx.. n if ii neva t0k t0 u back.. deyy 0so will n0e.. c0s dey r fair.. but deyy neva sae aniting.. ii realised sumting.. wat u sae 0wayx c0ntradict urrself.. u sae ii sc0ld u iin m0ii bl0g.. where g0t sum0ne g0 t0k t0 ppl hu sc0ld dem.. dat means u saein u wun c0me t0k t0 mie.. but ab0ve u still sae u did tryy t0k t0 mie.. wat t0kin u? u l0ve urr stead.. treat urr stead gd.. den gd ferr u.. dere`s n0 nid ferr mie t0 n0e.. 0kaex.. u sae u neva c0me here t0 c wats g0in 0n btw ii n him.. but dere`s n0 nid ferr u t0 c0me n c iif ii g0t wryte aniting abt u ryte? sh0 wat if ii did wryte 0r neva? iif u neva did aniting ii dun lyk 0r wat.. y wld ii wryte abt u? ii n0t sh0 b0 lia0 g0 wryte abt u l0rx.. if u treat mie gd ii treat u betta twice.. but if u did tingx dat make mie dun lyk u.. den ii wil treat u d0uble back e same.. sh0 dun make mie hate u.. dis ishx mie.. lyk it 0r hate it its up t0 u.. sh0 wat if u read m0ii bl0g wif urr stead? d0es it matter t0 mie? n0piex.. it d0esnt.. since u n0e urr mistakes iin e past.. y stil dun change? ii n0e ii shldnt sae dis.. but ii tink ii shld.. ii hate ppl hu n0e their mistakes but dun make an eff0rt t0 change demselves.. dey will 0nli make mie luk d0wn 0n dem.. sh0 dun lemme luk d0wn 0n u.. ii dun lyk u.. ii ken tell u truly.. but ishx c0s 0f e tingx u did t0 sh0w u dun lyk mie.. ii n0e u dun lyk mie.. d0do did tell mie dat.. n ii g0t eyes.. ii ken c.. sh0 n0 nid t0 hide n sae till lyk u neva dun lyk mie.. lyk means lyk dun lyk means dun lyk.. dun lyk den sae lahx.. n0 nid act till lidat.. wat ii sae wun affect dem n0 matter wat if dey reali believe u.. wat ferr kare abt h0w 0thers will tink abt u? n0bodi sae u ken0t tell d0do urr pr0bs.. she still will listen ii ken guarantee dat.. n0w iim w0nderin if u reali trust herr n0t.. if u d0 trust herr u wun hesitate t0 luk ferr herr wen u hav pr0bs.. c0s if u believe herr u will n0e dat she will still listen.. she neva treats u c0ld.. ishx u hu r 0wayx neglectin herr n leavin herr al0ne.. u hav aniting u wanna tell mie abt wat ii sae last tym till n0w u stil ken sae.. c0s mayb dere r sumtingx ii did wr0ng abt u.. iim n0t th0se unreas0nable pers0n hu will 0nli stand str0ng 0n m0ii views n dun kare abt wat urr tinkin.. if u xplain t0 mie y u did all dis ii will ap0logise.. but if u dun den dats it.. ii will 0nli rmb e tingx u did e wae ii tink sh0.. its tym t0 gr0w up n mature 0n urr tinkin lahx.. n0e h0w t0 tink.. learn h0w t0 tink.. dun b lyk a kid.. wat urr feelin sumtymx dun hav t0 let 0thers n0e derx l0rx.. esp 0n th0se small tingx.. dis ishx life.. learn t0 tink ferr 0thers.. learn t0 take e pain urrself.. n n0t 0wayx dependin 0n 0thers.. learn t0 admit urr mistakes.. n n0t push e blame all t0 0thers l0rx.. u hav n0t been thru e t0ughest tingx iin life.. u neva did sufferr b4.. urr 0wayx livin c0mfortably iin urr 0wn w0rld.. n takin tingx ferr granted.. but all dis tingx dun last.. e ppl arnd u still will leave u sumdae.. learn t0 cherish e ppl arnd u.. all dis n0 nid mie t0 tell u derx l0rx.. iim tellin u all dis c0s 0f e past xperiences.. but if u c0ntinue t0 b lyk dis den ii reali dunn0 wat t0 sae.. dun disapp0int e ppl arnd u.. if u n0t happi wif wat ii sae 0r wat wan find mie 0ut t0k den find l0rx.. replyy mie back iin frenster..

nvrr g0 sch.. was unwell.. st0mach kip pain.. n wen ii lie 0n bed e w0rld lyk turnin arnd lidat.. g0t s0re thr0at n bl0ck n0se.. went t0 p0lyclinic c d0c.. n ii waited damn l0ng! e d0c sae ii st0mach kip pain ishx c0s 0f 2muchh stress.. duhx??? wat l0gic ishx dat??? mad.. nvm.. went t0 eat den buy sum stuffs g0 h0me l0rx.. intend t0 g0 find bibi.. but he sae ii stil nid d0 hmk sh0 dun wan.. nvm.. well.. daddy ishx n0t feelin well again.. dis few daex he nvrr g0 w0rk.. he had n0 energy.. if n0t ishx st0mach kip pain.. haix.. yest g0 ask g0d den he sae daddy has breathin difficulties.. n he may st0p breathin anitym.. damn w0rriex ferr him.. reali dunn0 wat t0 d0.. jux h0pe he wiill faster rec0verr n dun leave us jux lidat.. haix.. g0in d0 hmk lerx.. takairex guys..