Sunday, July 31, 2005

slp awhile den had t0 wake up at 6.3oam.. was sh0 tired.. hahax.. but manage t0 get 0ut 0f bed.. hmMmx.. change n prepare g0 shi guan.. mit weijie at m0ii hse.. den ii, prisc n weijie g0 bed0k fetch wweiquan.. tricia n cindy went t0 bed0k fetch k0r n aHh ba0.. after dat we g0 d0wn shi guan.. change int0 shi guan cl0thes n was sh0 xcited.. went t0 braddell height cc.. den 1oam e c0mpetiti0n start.. first tr0upe ishx sark0ng.. dey was n0t bad.. le0nard ishx shi wei.. hahax.. den ishx 0ur tr0upe.. was prayin sh0 hard ferr k0r k0r dey all.. but iin e end dey still fell.. haix.. nearly cryy 0ut.. k0r sprain his ankle.. but he climb back n c0ntinue t0 wu.. after e c0mpetiti0n his ankle was sh0 sw0llen.. haix.. 0ur style ishx e m0st difficult am0ng all tr0upes.. 0ur bridge was damn shaky.. sh0 their chances 0f fallin ishx veri high.. but if dey manage t0 pull it thru.. dey wil get veri high marks.. iin e end after e deducti0n all dat we 0nli g0t 6.44.. but was veri gd lerx.. at least n0w 0ther tr0upes ishx scared 0f us.. c0s 0ur standard ishx higher den b4.. evri0ne sh0 m0ody.. but we tryy t0 cheer each 0ther up.. went t0 t0a pay0h chu shi.. den went back shi guan.. we change int0 0ur cl0thes n g0 grandlink plae billiard.. hahax.. e auntie dere damn guai lan.. check mie 0ready stil check again.. idi0t.. 4+pm went t0 0ur temple.. dey m0ve e zhuang t0 l0rry.. we went back shi guan change int0 unif0rm again.. den g0 d0wn cc again ferr zi xuan c0mpetiti0n.. we r e last tr0upe.. hahax.. 0ther tr0upes ishx quite gd.. but feng y0u fell d0wn.. 0ur turn lerx.. den aHh nan nearly fell.. but nvrr.. after all e xcitement we g0t 8.76.. den deduct 0.9 bcum 7.86.. hahax.. g0t int0 taka c0mpetiti0n!!!!!!!!!!!!! l0lx.. sh0 happi!!!!!!!! kekex.. 5sept-1osept ii wil b g0in d0wn t0 taka evridae!! l0lx.. same as last yrr.. whahahax.. den 0n e wae back k0r sae if he nvrr fell d0wn ryte.. we r rank 2nd iin s`p0re! jux n0w at e c0mpetiti0n e judges tell 0ur instrut0r sae dis tym we reali veri wasted.. dey sae evri judges gib us veri high marks n we sure wil g0 taka c0mpetiti0n.. but iin e end k0r fell.. den dey had t0 deduct e marks.. haix.. k0r was sh0 sadx.. but cheered him up.. afterall dis ishx e 1st tym traditi0nal c0mpetiti0n g0t sh0 difficult tingx.. hahax.. but zi xuan grp g0t get iin.. h0pe dis tym dey get int0 e finals! all e best t0 tianeng! n 0so c0ngratulati0ns sean.. hu g0t 3rd iin e c0mpetiti0n!! hahax..

ba0beix arhx ba0beix.. dun meant t0 sae all th0se tingx t0 u l0rx.. but u shld n0e wat ii dun lyk.. its sun n u still g0 0ut till sh0 late.. 12+am den g0 h0me.. h0w ken ii dun angry.. yahx.. u sae ii 0so g0 till sh0 late.. but mine ishx different lehx.. ii g0 li0n dance sure will late g0 h0me derx mahx.. predict 1+am den reach h0me.. but 12am lidat ii reach h0me lerx.. ii g0 0ut till sh0 late d0esnt mean u 0so mux stay 0utside sh0 late ryte? ii dunn0 h0w t0 tell u lahx.. sae sh0 muchh u 0so dun wan listen.. ken u pls b m0re guai n listen t0 mie???? take it ii beg u.. dun lemme w0rriex ferr u all e tym.. ii late slp u 0so.. ii late g0 h0me u 0so.. where g0t dis kind 0f l0gic? den y ii 0wayx studi u nvrr? if u wan lidat sae reali n0 l0gic l0rx.. ii n0t angry... 0nli fed up.. ii t0ld u sh0 mani tyms lerx.. but i nvrr c ani changes iin u.. mayb iin e past u fri-sun sure g0 0ut.. but n0w ishx different.. dun tell mie abt urr past.. ii dun wish t0 n0e.. ii 0nli n0e iim urr present n0w.. n ii dun lyk e 0ld u.. ii dun lyk u 0wayx tellin mie sae `2dae ishx fri n ii mux g0 0ut`.. y cant u jux stay at h0me? u tell mie sae weekdaex u ken0t g0 0ut.. but evritym ii hear u sae u g0 plae game.. if n0t g0 plae billiard.. u skip remedials.. ii nvrr sae aniting.. but ii ask u dun g0 0ut u still g0.. ii reali dunn0 h0w t0 sae u.. hav been saein u sh0 mani tymx.. sick n tired 0f saein u.. evritym u g0 0ut sure wiil quarrel wif urr mum.. u sae dun hav.. but reali dun hav n0t ii dunn0.. urr mum sae u ishx 0so ferr urr 0wn gd.. y ppl sae u ferr urr gd u wun listen? den all e bad tingx u wil g0 d0? haix.. disapp0inted iin u...

Saturday, July 30, 2005

Heipi 21st bdae rykiel!! t0dae ishx e actual dae.. l0lx.. h0pe she n jimmy last l0ng l0ng..

suddenly realise.. e past few updates all g0t ppl bdae siax.. hahax.. wish lyk hell.. hmMmx.. did ii ferget ani0ne`s bdae?? if yeshx pls tell mie.. l0lx.. nxt c0min up ishx jingfeng n weijie bdae.. ba0yi mei n desm0nd bdae 0so c0min up.. iim sh0 br0ke! p0cket 0ne big h0le lerx.. s0bs.. hahax.. last nyyte ii slp lerx.. den ba0beix th0t ii angry.. fl0od m0ii f0ne siax.. ii wake up was sh0 sh0ck.. sh0 mani sms.. s0rriex ba0beix.. den xplain t0 him jux n0w.. den he understand lerx.. hahax.. later mitin him g0 studi?? h0pe ishx ii hear wr0ng.. but sh0 qi ji he will sae wan acc mie g0 studi.. he acheri reject his frenx t0 spent e tym wif mie? sh0 t0uched.. c0s if t0dae nvrr mit dunn0 wen den ken mit lerx.. c0s tml ken0t mahx.. li0n dance.. sch ken0t 0so.. 0wayx g0t tingx.. hmMmx.. sh0 xcitied n0w!! hahax.. h0pe tml tianeng will win!!!!!!!!!!!! reali h0pe we ken g0 in taka c0mpetiti0n.. all e best t0 tianeng!! g0 tianeng g0 tianeng g0.. tianeng tianeng pah buey t0h! tianeng ishx e best! hahax.. g0in prepare t0 g0 0ut lerx.. say0x evri0ne~

ba0beix arhx.. s0rriex let u misunderst0od ii angry.. ii ask u dun reply c0s ii reali veri tired sh0 lazy c urr sms.. n0t angry.. s0rriex let u w0rriex den make u sh0 late den slp.. *mmuackx*

ivan didi.. last nyyte u kall mie but ii slp lerx.. tink u g0t al0t 0f tingx wanna tell mie bahx.. iim s0rriex!! feel sh0 guilty.. evritym ii will try take sum tym 0ut t0 hear u t0k n t0k t0 u.. but dis few daex reali ken0t.. didnt even hav e tym t0 t0k sh0 muchh.. bz wif tests, hmk all dat.. reali veri s0rriex.. wil tryy t0 kall u 0ne 0f dese daex.. but tml ken0t.. m0n 0so ken0t.. tink tue ken kall u.. ii tryy m0ii best kaex.. u dun lemme w0rriex h0rx.. mux takairex 0f urrself.. dun stress urrself 0ut sh0 muchhh..

back.. hahax.. went t0 tamp mall wif ba0beix.. den b0ught m0vie tix.. watchin `e island` at 9.5opm.. t0ok bus t0 airp0rt t0 studi.. went t0 BK.. did m0ii maths hmk.. hahax.. f0rce ba0beix t0 studi.. m ii bad? l0lx.. hmMmx.. den arnd 6pm lidat g0 eat dinner.. went t0 T2 derx BK.. studi ge0.. ba0beix test mie.. l0lx.. den ii kip fergetin.. hahax.. after dat 7+ g0in 8pm went back t0 tamp.. den slack arnd l0rx.. n0 m0od studi ge0g.. went t0 MJ.. e classical music sh0 nice!! lyk it al0t.. hahax.. but nvrr buy e disc.. watch e m0vie.. den g0 h0me l0rx.. reach h0me was abt 1am.. cindy n tricia haven came back.. k0r was sh0 w0rried.. haix.. den dey came back.. ii slp at 2am.. was sh0 tired~

Friday, July 29, 2005

Heipi bdae weiming!! hahax.. tink u wun saw dis.. but still wanna wish u.. h0pe u n nerrisa will last l0ng l0ng w0rx.. th0u 0ready quite l0ng lerx.. but mux cherish herr.. s0rriex urr chalet ii neva manage t0 g0.. h0pe u dun mind.. all e best iin wateva u d0 kaex.. bcumin m0re guai n0w.. hahax.. takairex w0rx.. x)

t0dae was n0t a veri gd dae.. was nealy late ferr sch.. den physics g0t practical.. teacher let us 0ff late ferr recess.. she spent 1/2hrr t0kin.. den let 1/2hrr ferr us t0 d0 pract.. h0w t0 finish siax.. idi0t.. nearly g0t gastric pain.. had t0 eat.. c0s after sch straightawae g0t eng test till 2.. dun tink i ken take it.. cher sae mux wait ferr evri0ne t0 return apparatus.. ii n d0do dey all dun kare.. jux g0 0ut.. hahax.. den g0 t0ilet change 0ut 0f pe.. den rush d0wnstair t0 buyy f0od.. was sh0 rush.. n ii scald m0iiself! e f0od sh0 h0t.. l0lx.. but nvm.. while eatin saw a byytch kip lukin 0ver at mie.. yahx.. feel lyk diggin herr eyes 0ut.. hack kare wateva she ishx saein.. wan c jux c lahx.. still frm sh0 far c ferr wat.. knn.. make mie sh0 angry.. den ba0beix walk 0ver t0k t0 mie ii sc0ld bad w0rds all t0 him[s0rriex!] c0s ii reali damn angry l0rx.. wtf.. URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! feel lyk slappin herr.. fcuk.. after recess ge0 peri0d.. den cherr sae g0t test nxt m0n.. FCUK!!! evritym last min sae.. den sh0 mani hmk nida d0.. e.maths, a.maths, chi, nati0nal dae card, learn ge0.. den tue g0t e.maths test.. fcukin hell.. shit dis sch lahx.. where g0t tym.. t0dae g0 h0me mux prepare all e stuffs ferr e party.. rykiel 21st bdae celebrate at m0ii hse.. den ken0t studi.. tml stay at h0me d0 hmk.. sun frm m0rnin nid g0 li0n dance till midnyte.. where g0t tym siax.. haix.. after sch after test g0 h0me faster help dec0rate e hse lerx.. n clean up.. den mit ba0beix 0utside t0 buyy sumtingx ferr e party.. den he came m0ii hse.. hahax.. finalli evriting was iin place.. den evenin tym mani ppl c0me l0rx.. hahax.. ba0beix sh0 paisehx.. l0lx.. c0s all m0ii relatives saw him.. whahahax.. finalli cut cake tym.. rykiel n jimmy[her bf] kena sab0 lyk hell.. l0lx.. sh0 fun.. den ii was tinkin.. m0ii 18th n 21st bdae dun celebrate lerx.. sure kena sab0 lyk hell derx.. dey tink sh0 mani tingx t0 sab0.. hahax.. den 11+ ba0beix went h0me.. he was e last t0 g0 back.. hahax.. was sh0 tired.. bath den d0 sum hmk.. but 0nli a few Qn den g0 slp lerx..

ba0beix arhx.. u sick lerr lahx.. dis few weeks u kip 0n sick lehx.. gettin weaker lerx u.. haix.. mux take xtra kare 0f urrself understand? kip urself warm warm at nyyte kaex.. if reali n0t feelin well ii brin u g0 c d0c.. wan an darlinx.. slp earli.. *hhuggiex*

Thursday, July 28, 2005

27.o7.o5- Heipii 18th bdae huixian!! hahax.. dunn0 u will c dis n0t.. but aniwae did add a testi ferr u t0 wish u.. l0lx.. anj0y urrself w0rx.. kekex.. takairex arhx.. hahax.. c ya arnd at bugis kaex?

t0dae-Heipii swit 16 Xiangyi!! l0lx.. h0pe u lyk e puzzle ii n d0do gib u derx w0rx.. hehex.. veri cawaii ryte? hahax.. n surprised? l0lx.. enj0y urrself kaex.. tankx ferr bein such a fren.. heex.. *frenx4life* all e best t0 urr o lebels w0rx.. studi hard.. x)

t0dae late ferr sch.. ba0beix 0so.. den he c0me hse g0 sch 2gether wif mie.. l0lx.. ang saw us.. wateva.. g0t chem test t0dae.. dunn0 wil flunk n0t.. ii n0e ii g0t studi.. but still scared.. dunn0 g0t wryte wr0ng n0t.. hmMmx.. den after sch rush h0me take e puzzle c0me.. den gib t0 xiangyi.. hahax.. herr face sh0 sh0cked! l0lx.. st0opid aHh tan c0me ask us take 0ur bags 0ut 0f e klassr0om.. shit him.. celest dey all g0 7-11.. den haven c0me back.. had t0 carri all their bags.. had t0 tankx ain dey all help us 0so.. hahax.. den g0 chem lab ferr practical test.. dunn0 ishx test 0r wat.. we still ken t0k l0rx... l0lx.. den faster rush cherr t0 let us g0 earli.. l0lx.. ba0beix wanna mit mie.. iin e end ii g0 h0me lerx.. den ii gib him attitude.. dunn0 wats wr0ng wif mie dis few daex.. kip gibin him attitude.. but ii 0so dunn0 y wil lidat.. haix.. tink ishx t0o bz wif all m0ii sch stuffs.. den still g0t 2 presents[daryl n weiming] haven buy.. dun hav e tym t0 g0 luk ferr it.. haix.. sh0 mani hmk t0 finish.. all dis ishx killin mie.. s0rriex ba0beix.. but awhile later 0kaex lerx.. t0k t0 ba0beix.. tell him abt it.. sh0 glad he understand.. den evenin tym he came m0ii hse den we g0 eat dinner 2gether l0rx..

ba0beix arhx ba0beix.. s0rriex let u suffer all m0ii temper lerx.. but ii hav t0 separate m0ii tym wif sh0 mani tingx.. u.. frenx.. sch.. family.. spendin lesser tym wif u n0w.. g0t sh0 mani tingx t0 tell u.. haix.. but jux seems lyk ii cant sae it 0ut.. sumtymx get sh0 fed up wif sch.. but dun wan u t0 w0rriex.. iin sch.. 0nli c u awhile.. recess ii wif m0ii frenx.. ken0t t0k t0 u.. after sch g0t test n remedials.. ken0t mit u.. den after dat g0 h0me mux d0 hmk.. ken0t t0k t0 u 0n f0ne.. ii feel lyk iim neglectin u sh0 muchh.. ii n0e h0w u feel.. c0s iim 0so feelin e wae u d0.. sh0 dun tink urr al0ne.. c0s wateva ishx urr feelins ii all n0e.. wat urr tinkin ii 0so tinkin e same.. understand? veri s0rriex w0rx.. haix.. ii l0ve euu ba0beix.. *mmuackkx* sh0 glad urr byy mua side all dis while..

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

dis week g0nna b a bz 0ne.. haix.. n0 tym ferr ba0beix.. felt sh0 guilty.. =( evridae after sch g0t remedial.. den nida g0 h0me rush hmk.. fri ken0t g0 0ut wif ba0beix c0s m0ii c0usin celebratin 21 bdae at m0ii hse.. but ii ask ba0beix t0 c0me.. tink he g0in t0 face all m0ii relative lerx bahx? l0lx.. sat nida stay at h0me d0 hmk lerx.. sun n0 tym d0.. c0s g0t li0n dance c0mpetiti0n!!!!! frm m0rnin till nyyte? hmMmx.. tink sun will reach h0me arnd 2am bahx.. dunn0 e nxt dae ken wake up n0t.. haix.. sean c0mpetiti0n ii 0so ken0t g0 lerx.. clash wif m0ii li0n dance.. s0rriex.. yest after sch g0t s0cial test.. after dat went h0me bath den g0 d0reen hse lerx.. stay till 8.3opm lidat.. ba0beix was waitin ferr mie at herr hse d0wnstair ferr abt 1/2 hrr.. m ii bad?? haix.. n it was rainin last nyte.. h0pe he d0esnt catch a c0ld.. s0rriex ba0beix.. went t0 eat wif him at f0od palace.. den went h0me.. den at nyyte.. was kinda hurt byy ba0beix.. slp arnd 11.15 lidat.. kinda earli huhx? haix.. c0s was n0t feelin veri wel[ba0beix dun sc0ld mie].. eyes was pain lyk hell.. didnt tell ba0beix ii slp lerx.. iin e end he was sh0 w0rried wen ii nvrr pick up his kall.. dui bu qi.. dis m0rnin den n0e ii misunderst0od him lerx.. haix.. iim such a bad gf.. went t0 sch drenched lyk hell.. rain sh0 heavily.. iin e end ii was shiverin lyk mad.. hahax.. after sch went t0 7-11 wif d0do dey all.. hmMmx.. den went ferr maths remedial.. was quite a tirin dae.. haix.. went h0me bath g0 d0do hse again.. finalli after all e harrd w0rk we c0mplete it!! hahax.. sh0 happi.. mit ba0beix at A1.. den he acc mie g0 eat.. haix.. daddy n mummy was b0th sick.. dey b0th tink ishx eat wr0ng ting bahx.. kip v0mitin.. h0pe dey will b 0ryte s0on..

ba0beix arhx ba0beix.. s0rriex w0rx.. milli0ns 0f dui bu qi nehx.. dis few daex ii kip sae u n sc0ld u.. dunn0 wats wr0ng wif mie.. but ii 0nli j0kin arnd 0nli.. sh0 dun take it t0 hart kaex? n ii kip let u wait ferr mie.. will feel guilty derx.. th0u u 0wayx sae nvm.. but ii mind.. ii 0wayx veri n0ttie.. dun wan listen t0 u.. fergib mie kaex.. n n0w iin sch 0nli ken c each 0ther a few tymx.. den after sch 0so ken0t mit.. haix.. 0so seld0m t0k 0n f0ne lerx c0s 0f m0ii hmk.. dui bu qi w0rx.. pls t0lerate wif all dis.. ii will mish euu lyk hell derx.. n dun w0rriex ferr mie kaex.. ii wil takairex 0f m0iiself wen urr n0t arnd wif mie.. *mmuackx* babyy ii l0ve euu...

ivan didi arhx.. read urr bl0g.. l0lx.. wh0ax.. sh0 t0uchin siax.. hahax.. sh0 happi u nvrr ferget mie.. kekex.. n still put mie 3rd lehx.. l0lx.. u arhx.. dun tink t0o muchh kaex.. wat u dun lyk den dun g0 c.. ii n0e ishx difficult but after awhile u will m0ve 0n derx.. if u reali l0ve her den let her g0.. wish her happiness l0rx.. but ii tink she n0t w0rthy.. u deserve a betta gerr.. dey wanna anger u den u dun let dem get their wae.. dun tink sh0 muchh.. n s0rriex w0rx.. dis few daex u kall mie but ii ken0t acc u t0k.. =X c0s ii reali veri bz wif mani tingx n0w.. h0pe u understand.. n ii n0t b0 sim.. ii admit ii ferget u yest g0 0p.. but reali bz till ferget lerx.. reali s0rriex.. mux takairex 0f urrself arhx.. dun lemme w0rriex h0rx..

haix.. ii th0t dat mayb fergibin herr ishx a ryte ch0ice.. but iin e end ii tink iim wr0ng... s0ft-harted nvrr brins mie anitin gd.. wat e hell ishx wr0ng wif her ii dunn0.. n ii 0so dun wish t0 n0e.. ii did make an attempt t0 b frenx back.. ii did send her a gd nyte msg.. but ii dun tink it make a difference.. 0nli lemme realise iim a f0ol.. mayb wat 0thers sae ishx ryte.. n0 nid kare abt her.. n0w ii n0e lerx.. since she wanna d0 tingx till lidat.. den ii 0so n0 nid tink sh0 muchh.. hack kare wat will happen t0 herr.. she dun lyk mie.. fine.. ii 0so dun lyk herr wat.. sh0 wats e big deal.. sae b4 hatred nvrr has an endin.. but since she wans t0 d0 dis.. den ii wil make sure hatred DOESNT has an endin.. wanna plae wif mie.. fine.. ii ken plae wif herr.. dun make till ii cant take it.. if n0t ii dunn0 wat will happen t0 herr.. enuff ishx enuff.. ppl treat herr gd she dun xin ling den fcuk 0ff lahx.. wat ishx herr ha0 jie mei t0 herr? recess she kip lukin ferr herr d0es she n0e n0t.. iin e end she still ken smile lyk n0thin happen.. wtf.. jux get 0ut 0f m0ii sight n lemme hav s0me peace ferr e nxt few mths lahx..

`siimplyy hate e byytches iin m0ii sch.. dunn0 y junyuan sh0 mani xialans..

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ba0beix n mie wen 2mth anni =)

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l0ve him l0ads..

ba0beix n mie 0utside far east.. kekex..

Sunday, July 24, 2005

laziee t0 wryte mani p0sts.. sh0 wryte iin 0ne.. kekex..

thur [21.o7.o5] g0t physics test.. cher sae after sch.. iin end durin less0n g0t test!! shit herr.. c0s durin less0n ii sure ken0t finish derx.. iin e end reali ken0t finish.. haix.. nvm.. ferget it.. h0pe ii dun fail ken lerx.. after sch g0t physics remedial.. g0 lab.. after dat ii mit ba0beix 0utside sch.. heex.. den we g0 f0od palace eat.. tricia kall n sae she wanna eat.. sh0 ask herr c0me al0ng.. was dere eatin wen yiqi sms mie.. =) den ivan kall ask mie acc him g0 cut hair.. sh0 g0 l0rx.. jingx 0so dere.. den ivan g0 fusi0n we at 0utside A1 dere sit sit t0k t0k.. saw samy, k0on, j0lene, sueh li dey all.. haix.. wanna t0k t0 k0on.. but ii dunn0 she g0t angry wif mie n0t.. ask sueh li.. she sae k0on 0nli disapp0inted.. she ask mie g0 t0k t0 herr.. but ii reali dun dare.. haix.. after dat went h0me l0rx.. at nyyte dunn0 y m0ii eyes n head pain lyk hell.. 11+pm slp lerx..

yiqi.. tankx ferr urr enc0uragement n urr supp0rt.. ii n0e all 0f u kare ferr mie.. sh0 dun w0rriex kaex.. aniting ii wil face it bravely derx.. after all dis tingy ii tink 0ur frenship has taken a step cl0ser.. *buddies4life*

van di arhx.. tankx ferr tellin mie all th0se tingy w0rx.. reali tankx al0t.. ii sae mani tingy but u reassure mie wif urr w0rds.. ii n0e ii shldnt lidat tink.. but u 0so n0e ishx e truth mahx.. ii wun tink it dat wae again.. iim sh0 glad dat n0 matter wateva tingy ii d0 urr dere 0wayx t0 supp0rt mie.. arigat0!

ba0beix.. s0rriex w0rx.. g0t weddin den ii hai u mish it.. veri s0rriex.. n tankx ferr c0min sch 0utside t0 mit mie.. heex.. l0ve ya l0ads!

fri [22.o7.o5] HAPPI 2 mthh ANNIVERSARY!! l0lx.. sh0 happi.. 2dae mit ba0beix 0utside m0ii hse.. den we g0 sch 2gether.. special dae mahx.. kekex.. dis ishx e first tym we g0 sch 2gether lehx.. hahax.. but ii n0t feelin well.. den make ba0beix sh0 w0rriex ferr mie.. stupid st0mach.. kip pain.. den we s0rt 0f late.. but hu karex.. kekex.. reach klass den realise ii g0t pe! ferget wear pe.. shit.. nida buy.. t0ld yap ii n0t well.. den he sae still nid b iin pe.. den dun all0w ani0ne t0 acc mie.. ii 0wnself g0 buy den g0 change.. iinside t0ilet nearly faint.. c0s wh0le b0di n0 energy.. den 1peri0d 0ver ii den g0 find dem.. after dat g0t less0n but m0ii st0mach still pain.. haix.. nvm.. after sch g0t eng remedial.. ba0beix wait ferr mie.. den he send mie h0me.. we prepare.. ii dunn0 wat t0 wear.. hahax.. after ba0beix 0kaex he c0me m0ii hse l0rx.. den help mie c wan wear wat.. finalli 0kaex lerx.. wen ii g0 up bus den realised m0ii ez-link at h0me.. s0rriex.. went back take again.. iin e end c0s 0f mie we 4+ g0in 5den g0 0ut.. ii feel sh0 s0rriex.. cryy 0n bus.. s0rriex make u w0rriex lahx.. hahax.. den ba0beix cheer mie up.. 2mth sae ken0t cry.. but h0rx.. 1mth ii 0so g0t cryy lehx.. rmb? l0lx.. went t0 bugis.. nida buy 2pers0n present.. walk arnd find.. iin e end dun hav.. g0 take f0tox.. hahax.. ii sh0 ugly!! 0mg.. went t0 t0wn.. g0 far east sh0p arnd.. b0ught nth.. saw a t0p ii lyk al0t!! but n0 $$... s0bs.. went HAN`s t0 eat.. sh0 full.. tricia sms mie ask where m ii.. den ii turn arnd saw her c0min 0ut 0f far east.. ii n ba0beix at dere take f0tox.. l0lx.. den take bus h0me.. reach inter wait ferr cindy t0 g0 up bus den we walk h0me l0rx.. HAPPI BDAE DARYL!! hahax.. ii was e first 0ne t0 wish him happi bdae!! sh0 happi.. ba0beix dun jeal0us arhx.. kekex..

ba0beix.. u sh0 tired.. haix.. 2dae went 0ut urr eyes sh0 red.. den u stil sae nvm.. ii c lerx hart pain u n0e mahx.. dun lidat again kaex.. slp earli.. s0rriex 2dae cryy.. but we plan sh0 gd lerx iin e end ii th0t ii g0in sp0il e plan.. 2dae sh0 happi.. feel we r b0ught cl0ser again.. u sacrifice sh0 muchh ferr mie.. ii wil feel bad derx.. urr 0wayx dere t0 kare ferr mie.. tink ferr mie.. wat ii d0 wr0ng u accept.. euu accept m0ii gd n bad p0ints.. n 0wayx gib mie advice n enc0uragement.. ii sc0ld bad w0rds euu sc0ld mie.. s0rriex.. but wen ii angry ii wil sc0ld derx.. ii n0e euu dun lyk.. ii will try t0 change derx kaex? dui bu qi.. sh0 mani tingx hav happen n past.. n iim glad dese happen.. c0s ii n0e hu r reali m0ii true frenx.. hu reali kare.. n iim glad iim n0t disapp0inted wif e results.. n ii ken c0nfirm urr feelins t0wards mie lerx.. darlinx urr makin mie fall ferr euu m0re n m0re.. *mmuackkx*

sat [23.o7.o5] mit ba0beix at inter.. den went t0 United Artist Netw0rk[UAN] 2gether.. ba0beix dunn0 h0w t0 g0.. sh0 ii acc him g0 l0rx.. 2nd tym g0 dere.. still e same.. e ppl dere stil kip askin ppl t0 j0in.. but ba0beix didnt j0in.. l0lx.. den we went t0 heeren.. ba0beix hungry sh0 g0 eat want0n mee.. den g0 d0wn sm0ke den g0 take ne0print.. dis tym take derx n0t nice derx.. s0bs.. haix.. nvm.. went t0 c cl0thes l0rx.. den at HMV ba0beix ask mie if yamashita c0me singap0re den he ji0 mie wil ii accept n0t.. ii sae yahx.. den he ask ii wil stead wif him.. ii sae yahx.. saw his face.. haix.. regret wat ii sae.. c0s ii n0e ii hurt ba0beix lerx.. dui bu qi!!!! haix.. den after t0kin t0 him abt it we 0kaex lerx.. went t0 cine t0 luk arnd.. hahax.. den g0 buy drinks n take bus h0me.. hahax..

ba0beix arhx ba0beix.. dun mind wat ii sae kaex.. u n0e ii 0nli lyk him as admirer mahx.. ch0ng bai.. afterall he ishx a singer.. n he wun c0me t0 singap0re derx.. n ii 0nli sae yeshx ferr fun derx.. nvrr reali th0t dat u will mind m0ii ans sh0 muchh.. s0rriex.. veri s0rriex.. pls n0e dat m0i l0ve ferr euu ishx true derx kaex.. even if ishx yamapee infr0nt 0f mie ii 0so wun ch0ose him derx.. reali.. n iim s0rriex dat ii dun all0w euu t0 b a singerr 0r wateva if euu hav a chance.. haix.. c0s ii wil feel dat iim sharin euu wif 0ther gerx.. ii n0e iim selfish.. but ii reali dun wan.. ii sh0 glad u neva accept UAN th0se ppl derx 0ffer.. hahax.. 2dae g0 h0me ishx e m0st farni dae h0rx? l0lx.. l0ve euu sh0 muchh! *mmuackkx*

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

reach hm lerx.. hmMmx.. iin sch e amin fever was still g0in 0n.. hahax.. luks lyk he has `s0t` da0 e gerrx iin 0urr sch lerx bahx.. l0lx.. evri0ne ishx snatchin t0 take f0tox wif him.. =X haix.. ba0beix went t0 plae game again.. n neva g0 t0 remedial.. reali reali h0pe dat he ken c0ncentrate 0n his studies ferr n0w first.. but ii dunn0 h0w t0 let him n0e e impt 0f studies.. he hate studies.. ii n0e.. but still mux studi mahx.. hu wil lyk t0 studi.. ii admit ii hate studies t0o.. but ii studi c0s ii n0e ii had t0.. its ferr 0ur 0wn gd.. ba0beix.. urr n0t stupid lyk wat u sae.. urr clever derx.. urr able t0 reach urr g0als if euu wan t0.. its jux euu r n0t m0tivated enuff t0 g0 n studi.. dis yrr ishx urr n lvls.. ii dun wanna c u end up iin ite.. pls pls.. take it ii beg euu.. pls start t0 studi n0w ken? haix.. h0pe euu takairex 0f urself dis few daex wen iim n0t wif euu.. e weather has been c0ld.. mishin euu ba0beix...... *mmuackkx*

k0on.. read urr bl0g.. urr reali disapp0inted ii guess.. haix.. n abt edmel tingy.. ii guess u still haven reali accept it.. was sh0 glad dat tym wen ii read urr bl0g.. c0s u seems t0 hav let him g0.. but n0w.. ii guess its still difficult bahx.. but pls stay str0ng kaex? aniting ken tell mie.. dun cryy al0ne n suffer al0ne.. dun tink abt it t0o muchhh.. c0s he has m0ve 0n.. b str0ng n accept it.. u ken find urr mr ryte derx.. reali.. sumdae.. its jux a matter 0f tym.. last tym wen ii 0wayx breakd0wn u 0so lidat tell mie.. dun b afraid t0 believe iin pr0mises.. it hurts wen dey r br0ken.. but sumh0w dey let us hav e c0urage t0 carry 0n.. he`s n0t e ryte guy ferr u.. reali.. pls cheer up kaex?? wanna c u smile again..

xiangyi.. t0dae den ii receive urr sms.. tankx al0t.. urr n0t a hi-bye fren t0 mie.. reali.. urr a fren hu 0wayx argue wif mie wif min0r little tingx.. sae tingx dat r sarcastic t0 each 0ther.. but we n0e we r 0nli plaein.. u may b fierce but ii n0e u had a kind hart underneath.. h0pe we will get betta each dae.. tym has pass.. n we r graduatin.. sh0 dun ferget each 0ther kaex.. heex.. takairex w0rx..

shujuan.. surprised t0 c urr name here? heex.. u n0e wat had happened m0re 0r less.. n ii wanna tankkew.. suddenly realised u kare ferr mie.. even wen u neva sae 0ut.. but inside u still d0 kare.. wen iin sch wen ii st0mach pain u neva fail t0 ask.. `h0w r u?`.. jux a simple askin ken makes mie feel 0ryte... weneva ii cryy u will tryy urr best t0 cheer mie up.. tankkew.. th0u 0wayx sae urr n0isy.. but iim glad urr.. c0s u reali brighten up m0ii dae al0t.. s0rriex t0 make u w0rriex ferr mie.. *buddies4life*

jaslyn.. dunn0 u g0t c0me read m0ii bl0g n0rt.. but if u d0.. h0pe u will change urself.. changin ferr e betta ishx 0ne 0f e tingx in life.. change ferr urself.. n0t ferr 0thers.. its ferr urr 0wn gd.. haix.. mayb wat ii sae in e previ0us p0st ishx abit harsh.. but ii jux h0pe u ken realised urr mistakes n st0p c0ntinue it.. u hav m0ii blessings.. all e best t0 u n him..

realised dat hatred neva has an endin.. if sum0ne ken change.. we shld learn t0 accept e new dem.. n n0t mind abt e past tingy.. afterall.. evri pers0n g0d let us mit in life.. dere has t0 b a purp0se n a less0n ferr us t0 learn.. guess ii hav learn e meanin 0f `t0 fergiv n ferget`? hmMmx..

Monday, July 18, 2005

iin sch was kinda tired.. haix.. den after recess g0t m0ther t0ngue c0mp0 test.. dunn0 g0t wryte 0ut 0f pt n0t.. nvm.. den after sch g0t s0cial test.. sianx.. luckily ishx 0pen b0ok.. den c0py till hand pain.. ba0beix had 0ral.. den he waited ferr mie 0utside sch.. 4+ den ii went 0ut.. s0rriex ba0beix.. let euu wait sh0 l0ng lerx.. *mmuackkx* den went t0 eat wif ba0beix.. hehex.. after dat he sent mie h0me l0rx.. bath lerx rush hmk again.. feel lyk g0t t0ns 0f hmk ken0t finish.. hmMmx.. ba0beix acc mie t0k till 12.3oam iin e nyyte.. ask him help mie g0 c d0do bl0g.. den he read t0 mie wat she wr0te.. yahx.. she neva angry wif mie.. glad dat tingx had n0t w0rsen.. den ba0beix sae sh0 mani tingx.. ii cryy 0ut.. ken0t k0ntr0l e tears.. he sae till his future.. den he had been tinkin thru mani tingx all dat.. ii hear lerx reali ken0t kip back m0ii tears.. feel dat.. ba0beix d0te n kare ferr mie al0t al0t.. n mani ppl arnd mie 0so kare ferr mie al0t.. even if sumtymx dey neva sh0w 0ut but inside dey still w0rriex ferr mie.. tankx al0t evri0ne hu has been w0rriex ferr mie all dis while.. reali tank kew.. ii l0ve all 0f u! =X haix.. after t0kin ba0beix was sh0 tired lerx.. ba0beix arhx ba0beix.. y euu sh0 f0olish? euu were sh0 tired.. but wen ii ask euu euu tell mie euu r n0t.. its 0kaex if euu g0 n slp first.. ii reali dun mind derx.. haix.. dun sacrifice sh0 muchhh ferr mie pls.. reali dunn0 wat ii ken d0 ferr euu..........

d0do.. n0w ii n0e lerx.. iim s0rriex.. let u feel sh0 helpless wif all dese pr0bs.. its n0t urr fault.. sh0 dun blame urself.. afterall its understandable dat u dunn0 h0w t0 c0nsole mie.. jux let dis ting past bahx... n tank kew t0o..

k0on.. mayb urr disapp0inted iin mie bahx ii tink.. but wat u sae mayb ishx e past.. ii hav decided t0 trust e herr n0w.. n dun mind abt e past.. afterall ii hasnt n0e aniting she had sae bad abt mie.. sh0 pls 4gib mie.... iim s0rriex.. n.. iim glad t0 n0e dat u hav straighten 0ut urr th0ts 0n him.. c0ntinue bein str0ng kaex? iim still here ferr u jux lyk h0w u hav been here ferr mie 0wayx.. s0on u will find sum0ne betta derx.. dun let urself c0ntinue t0 suffer in e past 0f u n him kaex? wanna c e smile back 0n urr face again.. urr k0r 0so wanna c u happi.. =]

Sunday, July 17, 2005

t0dae was spent at h0me.. frm m0rnin rush m0ii hmk till sia0x.. den left mie n tricia at hm.. g0t chu shi but ii neva g0.. 0opx.. hahax.. nvm lahx.. den ba0beix came m0ii hse.. daddy dey all 0so c0me back.. den ba0beix was lyk sh0 paisehx lidat.. hahax.. eat dinner.. den went back t0 m0ii r0om t0 rush hmk again.. ba0beix was dere t0 disturb mie? hahax.. nvm.. l0lx.. den arnd 9+ ii n ba0beix g0 865 dere derx mama sh0p buy swits t0 eat.. kekex.. 11pm lidat ba0beix went back.. t0dae was a special dae.. mux c0mmem0rate.. l0lx.. c0s it ken sae ishx e first tym ba0beix came iin a different status.. previ0usly th0t mummy dey all wld mind.. but iin e end f0und 0ut dey s0rt 0f n0e abt e tw0 0f us lerx.. hmMmx.. n it ishx e first tym ba0beix sae sh0 mani t0uchin w0rds t0 mie.. ii hear lerx was sh0 happi n feel sh0 secure.. had been feelin insecure ferr e past few daex.. was sh0 scared dat if ba0beix 0wayx g0 0ut wif m0ii sis dey all he might fall ferr dem.. afterall ii had past xperience b4.. but after hearin wat ba0beix sae.. ii ken t0tally put d0wn evriting n trust e l0ve he had iin mie.. ba0beix.. a milli0n tank kew ken0t xpress m0ii gratitude t0wards euu.. euu had did sh0 muchhh ferr mie.. n 2dae euu reassure m0ii jumpy hart byy tellin mie all th0se tingx.. ii believe iin euu.. wun anih0w tink lerx.. reali.. sumh0w.. manage t0 f0rce e w0rds 0ut 0f m0ii m0uth.. h0pe euu 0so ken feel e l0ve ii had ferr euu.. if neva sae 0ut ii tink ii will regret bahx.. but jux a `i l0ve euu` ken0t xpress h0w deep m0ii l0ve ferr euu ishx.. feel dat iim fallin t0o hard.. t0o hard iin l0ve wif euu...................

Saturday, July 16, 2005

had been sick ferr 2daex.. yest n t0dae nvrr g0 t0 sch.. haix.. ba0beix was sick t0o? yahx.. he has been havin flu n s0re thr0at ferr e past few daex.. yest ii sick.. but still went 0ut? hmMmx.. n0 ch0ice.. had t0 help ivan g0 buy sumting.. mit ba0beix.. den went t0 plaza sing.. was feelin sh0 tired.. c0s 0f e med.. s0rriex ba0beix t0 let euu w0rriex lerx.. but iim 0kaex.. jux n0 energy 0nli.. den we cant find e tingy.. sh0 went t0 bugis.. arnd 5+pm ba0beix send mie h0me l0rx..

t0dae arhx.. wake up wh0le b0di damn pain.. den m0ii head was damn giddy.. feel sh0 restless.. n c0ld n h0t? hmMmx.. tink t0dae ishx w0rse den yest.. haix.. went t0 listenin.. e listenin start lerx but we still haven g0t e paper??? yahx.. e invigilat0r was damn blur.. after awhile den he g0t e papers n start gibin us.. after listenin ba0beix was 0utside waitin ferr mie.. den tricia came t0 find mie.. went t0 A1 t0 buy bubble tea.. den g0 eat.. dun hav e appetite.. but ba0beix kip wan mie eat abit.. in e end ii still cant finish e rice.. haix.. read d0do bl0g.. realised mani tingx had happened.. went t0 read k0on bl0g t0o.. haix.. all these stuffs happened c0s 0f mie?? guess iim e mastermind 0f all bahx..

d0do.. well.. tink wen u n0e abt it u g0ne b0nkers? haix.. dis pr0b d0esnt lies btw k0on n jas.. it lies btw mie n jas.. c0s afterall.. y wld k0on d0 all dese? she did all dese ishx c0s 0f mie.. ii hav been tellin herr abt e pr0bs dat lies btw ii n wz.. n ii hav been quarrelin wif him ferr e past few daex.. guess u n0e frm m0ii past updates.. ii nvrr tell u wat ishx inside 0f mie.. c0s ii n0e u will 0nli sae ishx ii tink t0o muchhh.. but ii reali ken0t take it.. facin jas n all dat.. their past has cast a shad0w iin miie.. n ii jux find it hard t0 walk 0ut 0f e shad0w.. u n0e wat iim referin t0.. she ken sh0w 0ut herr feelinx dat she dun lyk mie.. dat she ishx av0idin mie.. but ii cant sh0w 0ut m0ii feelinx.. if ii sh0w 0ut.. wat will u b feelin? it will b hard ferr u.. t0 b trapped btw e tw0 0f us.. she ken d0 tingx dat she lyk n dun kare abt h0w u wil b feelin.. but ii cant.. ii hav t0 c0nsider urr feelinx.. n abt jas lukin at wz.. it ishx n0t k0on hu sae it.. ishx mie.. c0s ii hav been feelin dat she still kips lukin at him durin recess.. u may sae mayb she ishx lukin at 0thers.. but hu else wld she luk at in e directi0n 0f wz.. kian hwee? imp0ssible.. mayb ishx ii wr0ng herr.. but iim a gerr.. ii ken sense e tingx dat ishx happenin arnd mie.. n e wae she av0id mie ishx t0o ming xian.. y shld she still av0id mie wen she has 0ready m0ve 0n wif herr life n hav f0und an0ther guy? dere ishx n0 nid ferr her t0 av0id mie n0w.. instead.. mayb ishx mie hu find it hard t0 face herr.. frm wat she ishx d0in.. ii still feel she still lyk wz.. mayb u will sae afterall ishx 1yr derx relati0nship.. but if she still lyk him.. den y still accept j0seph? ishx j0seph 0nli a replacement? ii feel dat jas d0esnt deserve all e tingx j0seph has d0ne ferr her.. its unfair t0 him.. t0 b kept iin e dark.. ii dunn0 k0on went t0 t0k t0 j0seph.. but ii tink she 0so feels dat it ishx unfair t0 him.. as ferr y dun tell jas straightawae.. u n0e herr pattern.. she will deny till e end.. dere r mani tingx inside mie dat ii feel lyk tellin herr frm last tym.. but ii nvrr did c0s ii n0e u will b angry wif mie.. 0r mayb hate mie ferr ehh verx.. but ii tink n0w ii cant dun sae all e tingx inside mie.. s0rriex ferr evriting.. but ii jux ken0t take it lerx.. u may hate k0on ferr all dis.. but ii ken tell u dat she ishx n0t e type 0f pers0n u tink she ishx.. mayb u all hav misunderst0od a gd fren as an enemy lerx bahx.. u dunn0 dat e past few daex she has trusted in u.. ii ch0se t0 walk awae 0n u.. c0s its imp0ssible dat she ishx e 0ne hu left.. c0s bsides grace.. hu ken she tag al0ng? ii was strugglin t0 make a decisi0n btw lettin u g0 0r wz.. iif ii let g0 0f u.. ii wun hav t0 face jas.. n ii wld b able t0 m0ve 0ut frm e shad0w dat ishx inside 0f mie.. if ii let g0 0f wz.. den ii ken face jas m0re easily.. but after mani daex 0f tinkin.. ii let g0 0f u.. n k0on ishx e 0ne hu tell mie dat u will understand wat y ii did dis derx.. iim s0rriex ferr e sudden decisi0n made.. ii had th0t 0f lettin g0 0f wz.. but ii n0e ii will regret m0ii decisi0n.. he ishx a great guy.. he has nvr failed t0 takairex 0f mie n b dere ferr mie.. but all ii did ferr him ishx t0 let him suffer n make him cry.. either decisi0n made will cause hurt in 0ne 0f u.. but e hurt will b greater in him.. h0pe u understand.. haix.. neva th0t dat ii will let u feel dat ii hav k0on den dun nid u lerx.. read urr bl0g den realised all e tingx ii did hav make u feel lidat.. urr e 0ne hu shares all m0ii j0ys.. n listen t0 all e naggins n angers.. e 0ne hu cryys wif mie in sch wen u c mie cryy.. n mish ge0g less0n.. e 0ne hu still luffs n j0kes wif mie even after all e pr0bs dat lies btw us.. k0on ishx e 0ne hu shares m0ii sadness n tears.. hu gimme advice 0n wat path t0 take.. t0 help mie straighten m0ii th0ts wen ii cant tink clearly.. b0th 0f u r as impt t0 mie.. b0th 0f u stand a place in m0ii hart.. mayb wat k0on sae dat u dun understand mie.. t0 u ishx abit unfair.. c0s ii neva tell u m0ii feelinx.. haix.. n iim s0rriex dat c0s 0f m0ii ting ii hav make u iin a m0re trapped p0siti0n btw mie n jas.. felt sh0 hurt wen u sae ii wun understand e hesitati0n u hav faced in all dis.. haix.. ii may n0t understand.. but at least ii feel dat ii hav tried t0 n0t let u get sh0 trapped btw e tw0 0f us.. iim s0rriex ferr 0wayx kipin tingx t0 m0iiself n n0t tellin ani0ne.. but all ppl n0e iim lidat.. iim n0t e kind 0f pers0n hu will g0 n tell ppl abt m0ii feelinx.. weneva ii cant take it.. ii jux cry.. n ii will b 0kaex after dat.. ii dun wan u all t0 w0rriex ferr mie.. ii n0e all 0f u has urr 0wn pr0bs t0 face.. sh0 ii dun wanna b0ther u all wif m0ii pr0bs again.. but ii guess wat ii did ishx all wr0ng.. dats y it will result t0 n0w derx situati0n.. haix.. after u read all dis.. its urr decisi0n t0 hate mie 0r 4gib mie.. iim 0so veri tired 0f all dis tingx.. ii jux h0pe t0 carry 0n wif m0ii life peacefully.. with0ut havin t0 cry 0r tink sh0 muchhh..

k0on.. s0rriex t0 drag u int0 dis mess wif mie.. urr helpin mie 0nli.. u feel unfair ferr mie.. but in e end.. 0thers blame u ferr e tingx u hav d0ne.. tank kew ferr 0wayx b 0n m0ii side all e while.. n listen t0 e pr0bs ii hav been facin all dis while.. with0ut urr enc0uragement n supp0rt.. ii dunn0 h0w l0ng ii ken carry 0n.. but even wen d0do n jas sae u till lidat.. u still nvrr blame mie ferr all dis.. iim sh0 glad urr 0wayx dere ferr mie.. tank kew.. n ii tank kew 0n behalf 0f urr k0rr.. c0s u 0so help him al0t al0t.. d0do nvrr bully mie.. reali.. frm e start she nvrr did.. mayb c0s 0f all dis u feel unfair ferr mie.. but ii nvrr did blame herr.. sh0 dun blame herr t0o kaex.. iim s0rriex dat e w0rds ii sae hurt u.. but dere ishx a peri0d 0f tym wen u 0so hav urr 0wn pr0bs.. dats y ii dun dare b0ther u wif mine.. wateva u sae t0 d0do ishx wat ii feel lyk tellin herr.. u t0ld herr all e tingx ii hav been feelinx.. tankx al0t.. but ii h0pe u tw0 wun quarrel again.. c0s afterall lyk wat ii sae.. all dis started c0s 0f mie.. ii dun wish t0 c e b0th 0f u bcum lidat. ii n0e b0th 0f u kare ferr mie.. n iim glad t0 hav b0th 0f u wif mie all dese while.. sh0 dun quarel lerx.. n all dis ishx jas n verlyn.. n0t k0on n d0do.. understand?

n dis ishx ferr u.. jaslyn.. ii n0e u had been readin m0ii bl0g all dis while.. sh0 ii guess if ii wryte here mayb u will get t0 c dis.. ii feel lyk sc0ldin u.. reali feel lyk sc0ldin u till u wake up frm e past.. u nvrr n0e dat all e tingx u did will hav a c0nsequence 0n 0ther ppl life.. u may b pretti.. but sh0 wat? mayb dat ishx e 0nli ting abt u dat ishx gd bahx.. but n0 matter h0w pretti urr.. u will still gr0w 0ld sumdae.. sh0 wats e p0int.. frm e past.. u d0 tingx as u wish n nvrr c0nsiderr e feelinx 0f 0thers.. even e ppl cl0se t0 u.. ii reali wish t0 n0e.. wat ishx a fren t0 u? wat ishx ha0 jie mei? ii tink u dunn0 e ans bahx.. c0s u nvrr treat e ppl arnd u as frenx.. even d0do.. wh0m u c0nsiderr as ha0 jie mei.. wasnt a fren t0 u.. frm wat ii c.. ii reali feel unfair ferr d0do... wen u hav stead.. u jux cast herr aside.. wen u hav pr0bs.. den u find herr.. wen u hav n0 0ne wif u.. u den tink abt lukin ferr herr.. wat ishx she t0 u?? a spare tyre? u ken nvrr deny all dis.. c0s mani ppl knew h0w u treated herr.. wen u were wif wz dat tym.. weneva she ask u 0ut.. u sae u g0in 0ut wif wz.. but e truth ishx.. u nvrr wanna spent tym wif urr `frenx`... weneva u hav e tym.. u will put it all 0n urr stead.. hav u eva tink h0w wld d0do feel? n0 u didnt.. u nvrr did tink abt e tingx dat u hav d0ne.. u nvrr fan xing urr behavi0ur.. d0do ishx a veri gd fren.. n ii dun tink u deserve all e tingx she had d0ne ferr u.. she feel used by u.. but did she sae 0ut? n0 she didnt.. she has tingx inside herr dat she dun lyk abt u.. but did she mind? n0 she didnt.. urr lucky t0 hav herr as urr fren.. but u dunn0 h0w t0 appreciate herr.. wat kind 0f fren r u? haix.. all e while.. u tink dat u hav mani frenx.. but if u reali tink abt it.. d0 u reali hav mani? bsides d0do.. hu ken u c0nfide int0? ii dun admit ii hav mani s0ul-mates.. but at least ii n0e dat n0 matter wat ting ii g0 thru.. m0ii real sistax ishx 0wayx dere ferr mie.. m0ii classmates n frenx will 0wayx b dere ferr mie.. ivan, hawwei will 0so b dere.. n m0ii 0utside frenx will 0so b dere ferr mie.. but hav u? ii n0e u dun lyk mie.. but ii reali wish t0 n0e.. y u still c0me n read m0ii bl0g? u sae u dun lyk mie.. den m0ii pers0nal life has n0thin t0 d0 wif u.. dun act lyk as if u kare ferr mie.. c0s ii n0e u dun.. wat urr d0in n0w makes mie feel dat u c0me n read m0ii bl0g ishx c0s u wanna c if ii n wz g0t quarrel n0t.. 0r wat we hav been d0in.. but all dis has n0thin t0 d0 wif u.. u hav urr 0wn life.. ii hav mine.. ii h0pe u dun c0me n destr0y it.. frm e wae urr av0idin mie.. u dunn0 h0w muchhh silent pressure u hav been gibin mie n d0do.. h0w ken u 0wayx d0 tingx with0ut tinkin ferr 0thers? d0 u n0e urr selfish? u sae k0on hart ishx black.. but ii tink urs ishx n0 betta aniwhere.. u n0e urr 0wn character.. ii dun hav t0 sae all e tingx 0ut.. at first.. ii th0t urr n0t a bad pers0n.. but ii nvrr th0t dat urr th0se kind 0f ppl.. it was sh0ckin.. c0s urr appearance hav cheated evri0ne.. urr n0t e inn0cent type dat urr appearance sh0ws.. dere r m0re iin u.. ii dun admit iim a nice pers0n.. evri0ne has bad p0ints.. but ii tink urr pathetic.. c0s u dun seem t0 hav mani gd p0ints.. at least weneva m0ii fren nid mie.. ii ken b dere ferr dem.. ii ken sacrifice m0ii tym t0 buy f0od ferr dem late in e nyte.. but ask urrself.. wat hav u d0ne ferr urr fren? u 0nli make d0do w0rriex ferr u by th0se rubbish such as wanna jump 0ff e bulidin.. bsides all dis.. wat hav u reali d0ne? haix.. ii ke lian d0do.. feel sh0 unfair ferr herr.. n ii ke lian u.. sh0 mani ppl iin e sch dun lyk u.. but u d0esnt n0e abt it.. if u still dun change.. haix.. u will find dat wen u gr0w up u will hav n0 frenx arnd u.. urr n0t weak ii believe.. its 0nli urr appearance dat makes ppl tink urr weak.. urr appearance hav bluff sh0 mani ppl.. but mayb 0nli e guys.. n0t e gerrx.. c0s e gerrx n0e h0w t0 c hu ishx gd n hu ishx bad.. sumtymx u sae 0ther ppl.. but hav u eva tink dat urr 0so lidat? u sae k0on ishx cunnin.. but arent u 0so lidat? th0u ii dunn0 hu ishx j0seph.. n dere ishx 0so n0 nid ferr mie t0 n0e.. ii still ke lian him.. ii pity him.. t0 b kept iin e dark.. frm wat ii c ii n0e he ishx a nice guy.. but ii dun tink u suit him.. urr f0rtunate t0 hav f0und a great guy.. but if u dunn0 h0w t0 cherish him.. hist0ry will repeat.. jux lyk u n wz.. c0s s0oner 0r later.. he will get t0 c e true side 0f u.. n d0 u tink he ken take it? n0 ii dun tink sh0.. ii tink he will find it hard t0 believe.. iin a relati0nship its n0t e am0unt 0f happi tymx dat make a c0uple en ai.. u all may b happi 2gether.. but wen sumting happen.. e relati0nship will t0ppled d0wn.. its e am0unt 0f understandin n acceptness dat make a relati0nship last.. mayb urr happi dat ii n wz quarrel.. but ii ken tell u.. iim 0so glad dat we quarrel.. c0s all dese quarrel lemme n0e h0w muchhh he hav put iin e relati0nship.. n make mie understand him m0re.. a swit n happi relati0nship d0esnt 0wayx mean a lastin relati0nship.. c0s usualli it ken0t withstand e pressure n ups n d0wns in life.. if dere isnt aniting dat j0seph dunn0 abt.. den y wld u get sh0 w0rk up n g0 c0nfr0nt k0on? ii guess dere r sumtingx u hav hide frm him.. ii n0e wat.. but ii dun wanna sae.. dats y urr xing xu.. urr afraid dat k0on wil tel j0seph tingx dat u dun dare t0 let him n0e.. if dis ishx e case.. ii ken tell u b0th 0f u wun last.. n.. all dis d0esnt c0ncern wz.. sh0 u dun anih0w g0 blame him 0r wat.. he wasnt inv0lved in all dis.. he neva sae aniting.. n ii cant believe urr mind ishx stil sh0 childish.. wateva urr tinkin makes mie feel u hasnt gr0wn up.. aHh lian?? hahax.. rubbish.. n0bodi has sae urr 0ne.. ishx u 0wnself wanna act as 0ne.. wats e p0int? 0nli stupid ppl will wanna b an aHh lian.. t0 make ppl feel dey r big 0nli wat.. n sm0kin d0esnt mean urr lian.. n0ein h0w t0 plae arcade games 0so n0t aHh lian wat.. wat century ishx dis? still pri sch arhx?? 0nli pri sch kids will wanna g0 arcade lahx.. ppl 0ur age g0 arcade kall aHh lian?? hahax.. dun make mie luff.. n u sae u did try t0kin t0 mie.. but ii dun c urr eff0rts in tryin t0 t0k t0 mie.. acheri.. u neva did.. since wen did u t0k t0 mie? 0r izzit mie hu has an ear pr0b? dun tell lies abt tingx u neva d0.. if u reali did t0k t0 mie.. ii will reply u back.. c0s iim n0t e kind 0f ppl hu will make m0ii 0wn frenx feel awkward bein stucked btw 2ppl..

haix.. wryte sh0 muchh.. head g0in t0 bl0w up.. n0 energy t0 tink abt all dis.. sh0 late 0ready.. g0nna slp.. haix.. mish m0ii ba0beix sh0 muchhh~ l0ve him l0ads

went t0 cut m0ii hair wif tricia.. den decided t0 g0 n luk ferr ba0beix.. c0s jas yest sc0ld him iin msn wen he wasnt at h0me.. he was damn angry.. sh0 scared he dunn0 will h0w.. finalli after c0olin him d0wn last nyte he was 0kaex lerx.. but still scared scared.. c0s he sh0 c0ng d0ng derx.. mit ba0beix n cindy at inter.. den g0 take train 2gether l0rx.. 0n e train saw jingx wif sebest dey all??? was kinda sh0ckin eHhx? but neva ask further abt it.. hmMmx.. den ba0beix suddenly sae wanna g0 watch m0vie.. c0s lyk quite l0ng neva g0 watch lerx.. sh0 we went t0 cine t0 c g0t wat m0vie l0rx.. den lyk n0thin nice.. sh0 sae gd bye t0 tricia n cindy.. ii n ba0beix g0 walk walk.. but at cine d0wnstair tricia kall n sae `red candy`ishx e jap gh0st m0vie dat she was t0kin abt.. sh0 ii ask herr dun buy tix first.. wait ii g0 up.. but wen ii n ba0beix reach dere dey 0ready buy e tix lerx.. summ0re ishx first r0w! 0mg.. b0 bian sh0 g0 in watch l0rx.. inside was sh0 c0ld.. *burrrr* ba0beix t0ok 0ff his 0utside shirt n lemme c0ver m0iiself.. iin e end he 0wnself was c0ld.. ba0beix arhx.. dun sh0 f0olish.. ii n0e ii sick.. but u c0ld still tell mie u n0t c0ld.. h0w ken.. haix.. but tankx al0t al0t.. h0pe u dun fall sick w0rx.. den went t0 heeren t0 eat e want0n mee.. sae ishx ii n ba0beix g0 0ut derx.. iin e end bcum we 4pers0n.. hahax.. was eatin halfwae wen aijie nuer sms mie.. she had read m0ii bl0g.. was sh0 t0uched t0 receive e sms.. tankx al0t.. th0u ii seld0m t0k t0 herr n0w.. but evriting ii d0 she still kip track 0f it.. reali veri tankkew! eat lerx den went far east.. walk arnd l0rx.. nth t0 d0 0so.. tricia wan g0 plaza sing.. walk dere.. hahax.. iin e end end up in starbucks.. l0lx.. arnd 11+ we t0ok train back l0rx.. den ba0beix send mie h0me.. hehex..

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

t0dae.. as predicted.. n0e ba0beix wun c0me t0 sch.. haix.. tink he ishx tired 0ut last nyte wif all th0se tingx.. sms him iin klass.. den ii suddenly realised h0w he felt all nyytex.. w0rried n sadx n angry wif all these.. haix... dun hav e m0od t0 carry 0n wif e less0n.. but ii had t0.. was 0kaex lerx wif ba0beix.. den recess juan suddenly ask mie y ii wan kare sh0 muchhh abt m0ii frenx.. dis Qn was kinda sh0ckin? but if u n0e mie well.. u will n0e dat ii cant leave m0ii frenx al0ne.. n0 matter wat ii still will b 0n m0ii frenx side.. its abit unfair t0 ba0beix.. c0s ii n0e he feel dat iin m0ii hart he`s 0wayx sec0nd.. haix.. h0pe ii ken st0p makin him w0rriex abt dese n jux carry 0n wif 0ur life.. missin him..

d0do.. s0rriex ferr e last min decisi0n dat ii hav made.. ii hav been tinkin abt it all dis while.. n ii feel dat ii reali nid s0me space 0ut dere.. ii cant g0 0n lidat.. if n0t e pr0b will still remains.. ii dun wish t0 d0 dat.. but ii h0pe u understand.. ii reali nid urr understandin.. esp iin dis matter.. w0rds r 0wayx easier sae den d0ne.. iim tryyin m0ii veri best n0w.. mayb dis decisi0n ishx abit t0o muchhh.. but ii will b back wen ii hav t0tally m0ve 0n.. ii jux nid tym 0ff.. s0rriex..

k0on.. tank kew w0rx.. heex.. n0thin t0 sae.. c0s all sae mani tymx lerx.. hahax.. *mama-nuer ferr ehh verx*

ba0beix.. wat ii wanna sae acheri ken sae ishx alm0st all tell euu lerx bahx.. but.. jux wanna tell euu dis.......
n0 matter h0w muchhh we had quarrel.. ii n0e we r still e same.. m0ii feelinx r still e same.. n ii believe urrs ishx e same t0o.. we hav n0t distant.. instead.. we hav been br0ught cl0ser den eva.. evritym we quarrel.. we understand each 0ther m0re.. n wat we r n0t happi wiif we sae all 0ut.. dere might b tymx dat we hurt each 0therr.. but ii believe e hurt ishx ferr us t0 bcum str0ngerr.. t0 determine h0w str0ng 0ur relati0nship ishx.. dere r tymx wen dere r silence between us.. but ii believe e silence ishx e tym ferr us t0 c0ol d0wn n tink thru wat we hav d0ne wr0ng.. t0 s0rt 0ur th0ts 0ut.. n t0 tink thru wat we hav sae.. n wat r we g0in t0 d0.. iim sh0 happi dat till n0w.. n0 matter wat we hav been thru.. euu nvrr 0nce lemme g0.. euu nvrr 0nce gib up 0n dis relati0nship.. tank kew ba0beix.. reali reali tankx al0t.. euu t0uched mie wif wateva euu d0.. t0uched mie deeply iin m0ii hart.. iim s0rriex ferr e tears ii hav caused t0 fl0w frm urr eyes.. iim s0rriex ferr e w0rds dat sh0ot lyk needles n pricked urr hart.. iim s0rriex ferr n0t bein able t0 b dere ferr euu weneva euu nid mie.. iim s0rriex ferr e w0rriex caused weneva iim silent.. a milli0n ap0logies t0 euu.. n 0so.. a milli0n gratitudes t0 euu.. ferr acceptin mie ferr hu iim.. ferr believin iin mie n0 matter wat.. ferr e kare n c0ncern euu hav sh0wer mie wif.. euu sae euu dunn0 h0w t0 xpress urr feelinx t0 mie.. ii dun nid euu t0 xpress it.. jux lemme h0ld 0nto euu.. n lemme hav e chance t0 luk int0 urr eyes.. den evriting will b sae.. ii l0ve euu ba0beix.. urr mua evriting.. ken0t live with0ut euu... 0wayx mua babyy b0ii~

[[ babyy verlyn <3 babyy r0dric - 0urr lurrve ddreamm parradiise ferr ehh verx iin mua hart ]]

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

hmMmx.. iin sch sh0 sianx.. den after sch still g0t maths remedial.. mit ba0beix iin m0ii klass awhile.. t0k t0k l0rx.. den he went h0me lerx.. luckily ang let us g0 earli.. den reach h0me kall ba0beix.. he g0in 0ut lerx.. sh0 t0k awhile l0rx.. but ii hai him mit his frenx late.. hahax.. s0rriex ba0beix.. was rushin m0ii hmk.. den sumtingx happen.. den ii n ba0beix s0rt 0f quarrel.. acheri n0t quarrel lahx.. jux upset 0ver sumtingx.. ii was sh0 sadx.. ii g0t n0 m0od t0 d0 m0ii hmk.. but d0in it ishx e 0nli wae ii ken prevent m0iiself frm tinkin abt all th0se stuffs.. it hurts al0t al0t.. wen ii hear wat u sae.. m0ii mind jux g0 blank.. n ii ken0t tink pr0perly.. ii ken0t take it.. iim s0rriex.. den nu er kall in e evenin.. t0k t0 her.. haix.. iim iin a dilemma.. dunn0 wat t0 d0 0r sae.. n0 energy t0 tink.. didnt eat m0ii dinner.. n0 appetite.. haix.. wanna cry.. feel sh0 trapped inside.. wanna let g0.. but ii jux cant cry.. ii make m0iiself dr0wn iin m0ii hmk.. dun even wanna reply ba0beix.. haix.. wats happenin t0 m0ii w0rld? feel dat g0d ishx plaein a prank 0n mie.. y y y??????? y mux such tingx happen t0 mie? sumtymx ii wish it was all a lie.. mayb ii ken feel betta livin iin a w0rld 0f lies.. but ii n0e deep in m0ii hart ii dun wan lies.. ii wan e truth.. ba0beix iim s0rriex.. nvrr meant t0 sae th0se tingx t0 u.. iim sh0 s0rriex... =’(

Saturday, July 09, 2005

acheri t0day g0in li0n dance derx.. in e end ii nvrr g0.. g0 ba0beix hse d0 hmk.. l0lx.. ii sh0 guai.. hahax.. tricia n priscilla g0t g0 shi guan.. but dey went back t0 airp0rt.. c0s chu shi till 8+pm.. den prisc g0t w0rk.. sh0 dey nvr chu l0rx.. den tricia mitin mie.. after ii finish w0rk.. hahax.. at ba0beix hse.. ii was rushin m0ii maths.. den ba0beix was watchin tv? hahax.. he wun studi derx.. hmMmx.. den arnd 4pm lidat we went 0ut.. mit tricia 0n e train.. was g0in t0 b late.. kena gan byy daryl.. l0lx.. mit him at city hall control stati0n.. den at dere t0k l0rx.. s0rriex ba0beix.. let u wait ferr mie dere.. n0thin t0 d0.. h0pe u dun mind kaex? heex.. den went t0 t0wn.. went t0 c cl0thes.. prisc gib us s0me m0ney t0 buy cl0thes.. b0ught a t0p, tricia b0ught 0ne t0o.. den we buy 0ne freshb0x tee.. we tw0 ken share.. haahx.. den kall century cineplex t0 0rder tix ferr `war 0f e w0rld` at 11pm.. arnd 9+pm we went back t0 tamp.. den g0 catch m0vie.. 1+pm ii reach h0me.. heex..

Friday, July 08, 2005

darlinx g0t c0me sch.. he last min g0 in.. but luckily nvrr get caught.. s0rriex ba0beix still s0rt 0f angry wif euu.. hu ask u dun wanna c0me.. l0lx.. n0 lahx.. jk 0nli.. hmMmx.. jux n0w g0 0ut wif ba0beix.. acheri ishx g0 mit daryl first.. pass him e puzzle.. in e end ii iin a rush ferg0t brin e puzzle! 0opx! hahax.. kall him tell him.. kena sc0lded by him.. l0lx.. s0rriex.. den g0 0ut wif ba0beix l0rx.. went t0 t0wn.. buy ticketx ferr `six`.. a thai gh0st m0vie.. den g0 eat first.. ba0beix wan buy cig.. but ken0t.. sh0 n0 ch0ice.. nida ren ferr e wh0le m0vie.. e cinema sh0 c0ld siax.. den e m0vie n0t bad.. 0nli abit blurx at e endin.. hmMmx.. den went t0 far east.. walk walk.. den went t0 heeren l0rx.. after dat we went back.. ii was sh0 tired ii slp 0n e bus.. hahax.. l0ve mua ba0beix..

sh0 sweaty! hahax.. jux finish PE.. den n0w at c0m lab.. ang nvr c0me.. l0lx.. sh0 happi.. whahahax.. den later g0in physics lab.. den g0t ge0g.. sh0 gd.. fri ishx e best! tym pass veri fast. hmMmx.. after sch suddenly g0t test.. eng test.. at 2pm.. but cherr sae ken jux d0 straight after sch.. c0s all e chers wil n0t b dere t0 c us take test.. l0lx.. lucky.. c0s ii mitin daryl at 4pm.. if reali nid 2pm d0 he sure kp mie derx.. l0lx..

haix.. ba0beix nvrr c0me sch lahx.. s0bs.. he late.. den dun wan c0me.. if n0t g0t dc.. haix.. gib up 0n him lerx lahx.. wateva l0rx.. ask him studi he dun wan.. 0wayx g0 0ut plae.. tired 0f kip tellin him all dis.. c0s he 0nli will 0ne ear in 0ne ear 0ut derx.. aHhx.. wateva.. hack..

2nyte.. dunn0 g0t g0 clubbin n0t.. hahax.. h0pe sh0 hav.. whakakax.. takairex guys.. x)

Thursday, July 07, 2005

iin sch was kinda b0red.. hahax.. but ii kip t0kin aniwae.. l0lx.. den came recess.. spent it wif U12.. well.. after recess.. hmMmx.. tingx d0esnt start g0in well.. hist0ry repeat again.. dun wanna t0k abt it anim0re.. wats 0ver has 0ready 0ver.. after sch g0t physics remedial.. hahax.. we all eat iin klass.. cher sh0 gd nvr sc0ld.. l0lx.. g0in d0wm t0 shi guan.. say0x~

tankx again t0 nu er.. hu was 0wayx dere t0 kip remindin mie n enc0uragin mie t0 jiay0u.. givin mie e c0urage t0 face all dis tingx.. believin iin mie n givin mie advices.. reali tankx al0t.. l0ve euu sh0 muchh~

ferr d0do.. acheri dun wish t0 let her n0e m0ii feelinx abt dat matter.. but ii had n0 ch0ice.. ii shld let her n0e.. ii nvr meant t0 kip frm herr.. jux scared dat wen she knew h0w ii feel she will w0rriex t0o muchhh n dunn0 wat t0 d0.. ii scared hist0ry might repeat again.. feel sh0 guilty t0 let her w0rriex.. but iim sh0 glad dat she understand n tried t0 cheer mie up... tankx al0t.. l0ve euu l0ads~

n as ferr ba0beix.. iim s0rriex ii 0so let euu w0rriex lerx.. sh0 dui bu qi.. tink ii scare euu bahx.. wen u c mie lidat.. hahax.. hmMmx.. but iim 0kaex.. reali.. sh0 n0 w0rriex at all.. baby arhx.. pls studi ken?? u pr0mise mie.. but in e end u br0ke it.. haix.. tml ii dunn0 ii g0in club mahx.. but ii reali wish t0 g0.. g0 dere fa xie all m0ii m0od.. g0 dere ken ferget all m0ii w0rriex.. l0lx.. tink u will sae ishx xcuse.. l0lx.. u mux takairex arhx.. aniting mux tell mie kaex.. *hhuggiex*

lastly.. s0rriex t0 u guys[iin m0ii klass derx].. u guys n0e hu u r.. if u happen t0 read m0ii bl0g.. a veri big s0rriex t0 u!! t0 let all 0f u w0rriex ferr mie 0nce again.. iim veri s0rriex ii let hist0ry repeat again.. but tankx al0t.. c0s u guys r 0wayx dere t0 cheer mie up wen u c tears 0n m0ii face.. n t0 lend a listenin ear.. l0ve all 0f euu!

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

wh0a.. sh0 mani h0mew0rk! stupid teacher.. nvr c0me still gib sh0 muchhh.. haix.. n ishx all maths l0rx.. wtf.. but tink we mux practice al0t bahx.. hmMmx.. bz d0in all m0ii w0rk in sch.. yest finish 6 s0cial studies essay Qn in 0ne dae? hahax.. feel sh0 satisfied wif m0iiself.. kip rushin it.. acheri ishx h0ls h0mew0rk derx.. but ii dun hav e Qn.. yest g0t den t0dae mux pass up lerx.. hmMmx.. after sch.. nida wait ferr o lebels MT 0ral.. 2.15 den start.. hahax.. was veri nerv0us.. but after ii went in n0t nerv0us lerx.. dis ishx e 1st tym 0ral ii g0t sh0 mani tingx t0 sae!! hahax.. den after dat mit ba0beix at bus-st0p.. went t0 844 t0 eat 0ur dinner.. tricia came t0 find us.. den went t0 kian hwee hse take bicycle.. den mit nick didi t0 return him his bike.. hahax.. went t0 bus-st0p take bus t0 big b0oksh0p.. b0ught m0ii stati0nery.. den plae wif ba0beix e push $ game again.. haix.. sh0 tired 0f it.. cant he understand dat ii dun wan his $???? haix.. s0rriex ba0beix.. walk h0me.. did m0ii h0mew0rk as usual.. t0ld ba0beix ii veri tired 0f all e tingx lerx.. make him sh0 sadx.. haix.. bad mie~ but ii had n0 ch0ice.. ii dun wan t0 kip pushin $ in public... it was reali tirin.. s0bs.. den sms k0on.. wanna cry 0ut.. but mux ren.. t0ld her evriting.. she gimme al0t 0f advice.. t0ld her ii still ken0t accept dat veri fact.. mayb iim traditi0nal.. but iim 0so a gerr.. ii still will feel dat wae.. ba0beix mayb will sae nvm mahx.. but he wun understand h0w ii feel.. t0 kip tellin m0iiself dat nvm.. all ishx 0ver lerx.. but ii 0nli ken lie t0 m0iiself.. haix.. but k0on remind mie 0f e mani tingx ii hav ferg0tten.. `u mux accept his evriting.. even e past..`, `c0s 0f dis den let g0 0f evriting.. its unfair t0 him.. n its n0t w0rth..`, `beauty lies in e eye 0f e beh0lder`n mani mani m0re.. all dis w0rds kn0cked all e tingx 0ut 0f m0ii head.. ii began t0 tink clearly n realised m0ii mistake... tankx al0t k0on.. ba0beix.. iim s0rriex.. but pls gimme m0re tym t0 accept all dis tingx.. n0w dat u n0e h0w ii feel ii guess its betta bahx.. n iim n0t angry wif u.. wen ii sae iim n0t.. ii mean it.. sh0 dun tink iim angry wif u.. *mmuackx* darlinx iLu..

Monday, July 04, 2005

haix.. dunn0 wats wr0ng wif mie? ken0t finish m0ii h0mew0rk.. but tink ken0t finish derx.. sh0 much.. nvm.. kall ba0beix.. ask him wanna g0 chalet wif mie n0t.. he sae dun wan.. haix.. was kinda disapp0inted.. dunn0 wat t0 sae.. den suddenly.. tink sh0 muchhh tingx.. ii n0e.. e pr0blem d0esnt lies wif him.. its mie... ii n0e ba0beix kares al0t ferr mie.. ii n0e his feelins.. but ii still dunn0 y ii will feel dis wae.. sumtymx ii feel lyk iim pushin him awae frm mie.. ii feel lyk dere`s a distance arnd mie dat n0 0ne ken enter.. even him.. its e b0undary where ii kip tingx inside 0f mie.. n0t lettin 0thers n0e.. n0 matter h0w cl0se iim wif dem.. haix.. ii admit dere r mani secrets inside mie.. dere r ppl hu ken share m0ii th0ts n feelins wif mie.. but ii jux dun wanna sae it 0ut.. s0h hwee has f0und 0ut dis... n n0w ii tink wat she sae ishx true.. she sae ii 0wayx kip tingx inside mie.. n dun wanna let 0thers n0e.. dun wanna sae it 0ut.. until wen ii ken0t take it den evriting spills 0ut... ii n0e ii sh0uld try t0 sae 0ut m0ii th0ts n feelinx.. but ii dunn0 y ii jux c0uldnt d0 it.. haix.. mayb iim used t0 e c0ld treatment iin e past.. dats y wen ba0beix treat mie sh0 gd.. ii tend t0 hurt him.. tend t0 push him awae frm mie.. iim pushin awae dis warm hand dat ishx 0wayx dere ferr mie.. n ii dun wanna d0 dat.. ii wan him t0 understand.. but ii dunn0 h0w t0 let him n0e.. y iim feelin dis wae.. y m ii sadx wen he did tingx ferr mie.. sacrifice ferr mie.. n0 0ne had did all dis.. 0nli him.. but ii jux cant kip back e tears wen ii n0e wat he did.. ba0beix sae he th0t ii will b happi.. but iin e end.. he c m0ii sad face.. iim s0rriex.. dere`s a shad0w left behind frm e past.. n ii still cant manage t0 walk 0ut 0f it.. suddenly ii feel sh0 l0st.. ii ken0t decide wat t0 d0.. ii feel lyk lettin g0 0f him.. ii feel its unfair t0 him.. t0 t0lerate all dis c0s 0f m0ii past.. he`s inn0cent.. he deserve sum0ne betta.. but at e same tym.. ii dun wish t0 let g0 0f him.. ii dun wan e hist0ry t0 repeat again.. s0bs.. haix.. iim sh0 c0nfused.. iim blinded by e mani tingx infr0nt 0f mie.. ii cant figure 0ut which directi0n.. which path t0 take.. iim s0rriex ba0beix.......... neva meant t0 hurt u sh0 deep....

ani0ne dere.. t0 sh0w mie e lite?

Sunday, July 03, 2005

mit ba0beix.. was late.. hahax.. s0rriex baby.. w0re m0ii new br0wn freshb0x t0p n e checkered pants.. kekex.. dun quite luk lyk mie aniwae.. c0s it was kinda sp0rty.. l0lx.. but nvm.. a brand new luk.. hahax.. went t0 t0wn.. decided t0 catch a m0vie.. but ken0t decide wat t0 watch.. `war 0f e w0rld`, `mr&mrs smith`, `a l0t lyk l0ve`.. in e end.. watch a l0t lyk l0ve.. 6.25pm derx.. c0s war 0f e w0rld kinda full.. ba0beix.. ii acc u watch 0ther tym kaex? heex.. wanna watch e new gh0st m0vie.. abt truth 0r dare derx.. ferget e title.. hahax.. wanna watch!! iim mad.. kekex.. den went t0 heeren.. ba0beix was hungry.. eat e n0odles.. tricia n cindy came t0 luk ferr mie.. ba0beix n ii decide ferr veri l0ng wanna take f0tox n0t.. l0lx.. iin e end still take lerx.. whakakax.. sh0 happi.. c0s its e new machine! l0lx.. tink quite ugly lehx mie.. iim jux an ugly ger eHhx? hmMmx.. n0 ch0ice.. b0rn wif dis face.. hahax.. den went back t0 cine t0 watch e m0vie while tricia n cindy went t0 eat k0bayashi.. e m0vie was n0t t0o bad lahx.. 0nli.. abit n0 endin lidat.. 8+pm e m0vie ended den ii g0 buy ch0colate... kekex.. sh0 happi.. ch0colate r0x~ kall tricia.. mit her near e traffic light.. kall mani ppl.. wanna g0 cycle.. but n0t enuff bike.. ba0beix has 0ne.. but kian hwee dun hav.. sh0 kip kallin.. find ppl.. l0lx.. in e end lend frm nick didi.. tankx al0t didi.. hahax.. t0ok bus65 back t0 ba0beix hse.. he change den ba0beix cycle send mie h0me first.. tricia n cindy t0ok bus.. mit up wif dem at hse d0wnstair.. den cindy stay at m0ii hse.. ba0beix zai ii n tricia t0 didi hse d0wnstair t0 take his bike.. den mit kian hwee.. l0lx.. cycle t0 pasir ris park.. sh0 l0ng nvr g0 cyclin wif ba0beix lerx.. hahax.. reach dere.. t0k awhile.. abt 2am we cycle t0 a c0ffeesh0p t0 eat.. den went h0me lerx..

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lurrve mua ba0beix sh0 muchhh x)

Saturday, July 02, 2005

went t0 sh0p ferr celestine bdae present.. hahax.. mit d0reen.. t0gether wif tricia we went t0 bugis.. went arnd lukin ferr tingx t0 buy ferr her.. in e end b0ught a wallet.. hahax.. hmMmx.. den decided t0 g0 t0wn.. went t0 heeren t0 eat.. den t0ok s0me f0tox.. d0do haven send mie.. sh0 ken0t upl0ad.. upl0ad wen ii g0t it.. hmMmx.. was kinda fun e new machine.. hehex.. hav fun dec0ratin it.. den went t0 cine.. d0do wanna c yanda0x.. l0lx.. jux went in 0nli saw tw0 guys n tw0 gerx.. 0mg.. dey r jap! n 0ne 0f e guy was cawaii! hahax.. his eyes damn big.. whahahax.. b0ught mineral water.. den went t0 far east.. luk arnd.. saw a mickey m0use t0p.. veri nice.. d0do saw it t0o.. hmMmx.. if she nvr buy it den ii buy.. hahax.. arnd 9+ we went backiex.. well.. was br0ke again.. haven bank in m0ii m0ney den ii spent it lerx.. >.< sh0ot mie t0 death~

Friday, July 01, 2005

t0dae.. life ishx back t0 n0rmal.. haix.. sadx.. dun wanna studi.. but nida reach ferr m0ii g0als.. sh0 g0nna buck up.. =) hav ii bcum m0re sensible?? hahax.. last nyte dinner.. ate 2gether wif mum n dad.. lyk veri l0ng nvr sit d0wn wif dem n hav dinner wif dem lerx.. felt sh0 guilty.. n0e h0w t0 cherish dem m0re n0w.. n tink ferr dem.. wun b lyk e past.. 0wayx sh0ut at dem n let dem w0rriex.. kkaex.. st0ppin here.. g0in eat wif ba0beix.. n0w at his hse.. =X takairex guys.. say0x~